Hold on or let go!

The Eps 45

*Patience has no limits, but man himself limits it*

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I'm still leaning on my living room door. Tightness, anger and all the emotions that were inside my chest wanted me to forget.

This pain is Gusti's....!

Imagining them doing all of that alone is already excruciatingly painful. What if I hurt directly?

Even disgust has plagued my body. Can Alby come to him after touching Silvy? Where's his conscience? Where is the love that he loves for me?

I could only cry, crying over how unlucky I was. The trauma of betrayal must be experienced again.

The late father had felt the pain of being betrayed, why me too????

My body slid to the floor, I leaned my head against the door. I don't put my hands in my face.

Arggggghhhh.I want to scream as loud as possible. But can it reduce my burden??

Nah! It won't change any reality for me.

I rubbed my lips and my arms were rough. Given how hot my union with Alby yesterday made me feel this sick.

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"I went back, and left!", said Cecep.

"Yes!", said Febri flat. The mother who had been watching the live drama had also left for kebon.

"Mas...!", call Cecep. Febri turned to his partner.

Argggm.....

Cecep and Febri looked at each other!

"Neng Bia!", said Cecep.

"Bia!", cried Febri.

The two run to Alby's house. They entered the house through the back door.

So anxious, they almost collided.

"Awsssshhhhh!", the two let out a hiss as they were hitting each other.

"Yes, Febri!" said Cecep. Finally, the two approached Bia who was leaning on the door of the living room.

"Bia Feng!"

"Snake!"

Febri and Cecep said together.

I looked up at the two handsome men. I removed my tears that had melted from earlier.

Febri and Cecep approached me.

"Neng Bia teu nanaon? Cecep was worried that Bia was screaming, Kirain Aya naon?", asked Cecep.

I shook my head while continuing to stumble.

Febri approached me and crouched down in front of me.

"Nduk..!", call Febri softly in front of me. While Cecep chose to stand behind Febri who was already crouching in front of me.

"Mas doesn't know what to say to you, but .. mas hope you can be patient with all this yes Nduk."

I threw away my snot and also my tears with the hijab I was wearing.

"I..I.m..a salah opo toh mas?", I asked him.

Febri.

"You're not wrong Nduk. Iki gur your household exam!", replied Febri wisely.

I shook my head.

"Why should I mas? wh why? Once upon a time, the late father was betrayed, I can still comfort the father. But now? I experienced it myself. It hurts a lot...sick....!"

Febri spontaneously grabbed me in his arms. It's not that I'm calm I'm getting more and more intrigued. Febri gently rubbed the top of my head. There's a sense of being protected and maybe feeling that someone still cares about me.

"And...!", whispered Cecep rather loudly. But I can still hear it.

Febri only glanced sharply at Cecep.

"Not Mahram Ndan, don't seek healing! The man's wife!", Cecep reminded Febri of Bia's status. Febri also glared at Cecep.

Stupid me, I want to be in Febri's arms. The warm embrace I used to feel.

I also loosened Febri's embrace of me.

"I'm sorry!", said Febri and I.

"Mother!", Febri wiped the tears on my cheek.

"I'm sorry, maybe this is wrong. But.. If you can't survive this situation, let go of your burden! Your road is long! Remember your future son too!"

I stayed in place.

"Yes mas. I will survive for my son!", I said softly.

Suddenly someone banged on the door of the living room. I who was leaning was jumped.

In a hurry I woke up, Febri helped me get up.

I opened the living room door. I found Wak Mus, the owner of the house that Febri contracted as well as the older brother of my late father-in-law.

"Sir?", I said as I endured it.

Wak Mus looked at Febri and Cecep who were behind me. I forgot to wipe my tears.

"Ceps? Because of it?", asked Wak Mus.

(Cep? What's in here?)

"Em.. eta Wak, Neng Bia tea yelled. Spontaneous Cecep jeng commander kadieu!", explained Cecep. Wak Mus looked at Febri.

"Sorry Wak, we entered through the back door. We're worried about Bia's screams."

Now Wak Mus is looking at me.

"Kunaon maneh yells?", asked wak Mus. He is famous all over the village.

I just shook my head.

"Kunaon maneh leweh?"

(Crying)

"Teu Wak!", I answered briefly. Tumben really came here.

"Wak Denger, Abi married deui?", asked Wak Mus to the point. Wak Mus calls Alby Abi.

"Yes Wak!", I said.

''Maneh ngijinin?", asked Wak glaring. I'm getting scared of him. Want to answer yes must be wrong, want to answer no still wrong in the eyes of Wak Mus.

"The Abi Teh's path!" said Wak Mus growled.

Febri and Cecep exchanged lyrics.

"Who's wife? Where is Abi now? Wanna Wak gebukin eta barudak!", Wak Mus tone is truly horror. Febri and Cecep swallowed the saliva.

"From you in honey so, already cerein wae si Abi tea. You are young! There are still many men who can make you the only wife!", said Wak Mus lantang. But I shook my head slowly.

Febri and Cecep.

"Astaghfirullah Wak!"

"Who is his wife abi neng Bia?", asked Wak Mus again. I who was calm was also jerked.

"Em.em.that's Wak, Mak's biological son!", I replied. Wak Mus raised one of his eyebrows.

"Titin's son ? Titin has a child? Hah?", asked Wak Mus still with his ferocious fashion. Fearfully I nodded.

"Sir, the rich Wak sat down first huh. Make me a drink for a minute."

"No need!", Wak Mus immediately sat on the sofa.

I glanced at the two countrymen who were still loyal in this room.

"Mas Febri, Miss Cecep. Isn't it noon? No service?", askaku.

Both men were excited. Yes, they flirted themselves.

Finally, they hurriedly bid farewell to Wak Mus. They also went back through the back door.

I sat in front of Wak Mus with his face still tense.

"How rich can you be like Neng?", asked Wak Mus. Now his voice has begun to soften.

"He was confused how to start Wak?"

Sound sound********* the weight of this old Wak Mus breath.

"Why do we have to repeat this?", muttered Wak Mus. But I can still hear it.