Hold on or let go!

The Eps 202

The four of us sat on the outskirts of Kali, resting under a fairly shady tree. There are people who deliberately rent mats for visitors, including us.

Back then, when Febri and I were young, we used to date here. Dating the children of ABG at that time, playing in tourist attractions like this has been very fun.

Anika is so enthusiastic about vacationing in this place. Almost in all photo spots have tried Anika. Dimas is like a father who follows wherever his daughter goes. But apparently, Dimas was just having fun.

"We've been like that!", chirped Febri suddenly without turning his attention to the pair of lovers of different ages.

I also looked in that direction. I don't want to say Febri.

Since there was no word from me, Febri turned to me. Although I know he looked at me, but my eyes were still focused on Anika who was posing typical of teenagers.

"Have you forgotten all about us, Nduk? Have your memories been shared with Alby?"

"Ckkk..ngga need to alay mas!", I said as I straightened my legs.

"Big alay?"

''Yes, we are not ABG anymore who need to bring up all those memories" I replied as I turned to him.

Febri smiled faintly, God willing...

The yes period during single since his wife died he never had contact with other women at all? Feels impossible!

"But we're going to repeat it again, and hopefully the ending isn't like the first time we carved those memories!"

I shook my head in wonder.

"Do not talk about it! You're a freak for such a rich romantic ass!"

"Heheh, you wanted me to be romantic!"

"You ah....!"

Febri's phone is shaking, a sign there's a call there.

[Camp]

[....]

[Ready]

[....]

[Create!]

Then Febri put the phone back in his pocket. He looked at me for a moment. Maybe I want to talk, but I doubt.

"Why?", asked. Febri sighed.

"I was planning to go to the border tonight, but there was another mission. I have to go to Jakarta nduk, someone will pick me up."

I'm nodding. Mind it? Wh-wh-what for? We are not yet a married couple.

"Yes, you're ready. I'm here for nothing maybe Dimas and Anika are still not satisfied with the holiday."

Febri got up, reached for his phone. Probably call Dimas. He was a little far away talking to Dimas.

Moments later, Dimas and Anika approached us.

"Yes, let's go home!", said Dimas.

"You guys still want to play here for nothing!", I said. Anika looked at her lover.

"You're alone here Bi, we're both fun."

I smiled in response to Dimas's words.

"Yes, I went home first with nothing. Anika's Dimas anterin to the house!"

"Every boss!", said Dimas.

"Yuk!", take Febri to me. I scrunched my eyebrows.

"Yuk?? Where to?", I asked Febri.

"Go home, I'm anterin. The car's in the parking lot."

I nodded thinly, because he followed us on foot earlier.

Aged farewell to Dimas and Anika, Febri and I walked out. Outside, we met a couple of newlyweds on their honeymoon.

"Eh, are we Dateng why are you guys back?", asked Sakti.

"Gue has a sudden business Bro!", replied Febri.

"You too, Bi?", asked Sakti to me.

"Ngga anyway, but the rich Dimas same Anika still at home there. So I'm going home!"

"Heum, you know what we did this morning Bi, so rame!" said Bina.

"Heheh there's still time, right? Stop by the house later, Bina?!"

"God willing Bi! If you can get rich. Time adek doang that can nginep there!?", said Sakti.

"We're hard people, sleeping. If adek mah emang alone, all nemenin Bia. Lha, are you going to have a bini? How about a honeymoon!!!"

"Iri aja Lo!", said Sakti.

Their jokes were over when we both wanted to continue our intentions. A newlywed squad went into the tour, Me and Febri got out to the car parked outside.

I was sitting next to the wheel, Febri started to run his car slowly. The visitor car started arriving. Making our car that will come out quite difficult and queue for a while.

"Go back to my house first!" said Febri. The location of the waterfall is closer than Febri's house. I didn't reject it either. If Febri hadn't delivered me, I could still walk.

My phone clinks, there's chat coming in. From....Alby! I'm replying to a message from Alby. Febri seems to know that.

"Alby contacted you again?", she asked in a calm tone. I'm turning.

"Yes, Silvy's in a coma after giving birth." Febri gave a small nod and his hands were still coiled in his steering wheel.

After that, the atmosphere suddenly quiet.our car also entered the yard of Mr. Bambang's house.

There is a car Bambang sir who seems to be loading rice may be sold.

I want to say hello to him, then kiss his back. I want to limit the touch between the opposite sex. But....

"Are you home?", asked Mr. Bambang to me. Febri himself had entered the house to change his uniform perhaps.

"Mas Febri has another mission he said, so go home."

Mr. Bambang nodded his head.

"Watch a nduk exercise!", said Mr. Bambang to me.

"Exercise?", asking.

"Yes, when you're a country man's wife you should be ready to live wherever he's served."

I smiled faintly, imagining it just wasn't! I nodded at his advice.

Febri came out in his trademark uniform, not forgetting his large backpack on his back.

"Sir, you bring a car or a motorcycle. It was already picked up here!"

"No, I can walk!"

"Udah will be anther father! You saying goodbye to your mother?"

"Already sir, just now! Before the dhuha prayer." Mr. Bambang nodded his head.

"Be careful?!", said Mr. Bambang. He returned to the truck carrying dozens of sacks of rice.

"Snake!"

"Hum?"

"Be jealous if you're still on good terms with Alby! But.mas there's no right to it!"

I put my fingers together.

"Sorry!", I said. Febri smiled faintly.

"Sorry for what? You're still free, because we're not legitimate."

I looked up at him. Does he really talk like that?

"I'm just trying to live my new life. But that doesn't mean.I'll forever be hostile to him right? Isn't it good that we take care of our friends?"

Febri.

"Yes, I was wrong. Too jealous for something I don't deserve to be jealous of."

"Pray me back, after this mission is over. I hope I'll confirm you soon!"

"Where are you going? Where is the mission? To the border again, right?", my cerocos. She shook her head.

"Mission humanity! I don't know if I can call you or not. But , as long as I can't call you nduk. Please, pray it's okay!"

How do I suddenly feel bad anyway?

"How long?", I asked in the end. Febri.

"He said nothing, worried too, right?", asked Febri instead mocked me.

"I'm just asking how long is it, wrong?"

"Neither, dear! Not wrong! Mas instead seneng, it means you still care the same mas."

A Jeep car stopped in front of us. There was a fellow Febri who was there. They saluted and respected Febri.

One of the female soldiers came down and greeted Febri.

"Lettu Amara? Here?", asked Febri.

"Ready Capt. I was sent to pick you up. We are both on the same mission!", replied Amara.

Amara looked towards me. How do I feel he's looking at me? She smiled kindly, I said the same.

"Nduk, later if you have reached Jakarta mas directly contact you nduk."

I nodded slowly.

"Oh yes, this is Shabia. My future wife!", Febri told Amara. Amara's friendly smile faded. What's he....?

"Mara!", Amara extended her hand to me. I also welcomed him.

"Bia!", I said.

"So..this is the answer yes Kapt?", asked Amara pasa Febri. Febri sighed for a moment. I don't know what Lettu Amara meant.

"As you can see!", Febri raised my left hand. Show me the ring that's coiled on my ring finger.

"Alright, thank you for the answer Kapt. Well then, congratulations Kapt, Bia!", said Amara.

I smiled awkwardly. Does that mean Febri insists that he rejects Amara subtly? Without having to use more painful sentences?

"Nduk, I'm leaving! Pray for your return as soon as possible and the mission is successful. Love you the same. Take good care of yourself as long as you're gone."

Febri covered the left right side of my head. I wanted to be patty, but could not bear to humiliate Febri in front of Amara. I know, this is wrong!

Febri kissed the top of my head that was blocked by the hijab. He was silent for a while in that pose. Why do I feel like he's so hard to leave me? Don't you usually go and go?

My height is only up to Febri's chin was seen drowning in front of him.

Amara turned her face away from this scene. Maybe for Amara, it's a friendly scene?

I pushed his chest slowly which was not actually attached to my front body. I am ashamed to see so many people. Girls wear hijab kok rich gini???

"Mas go now yes deck!", he again covered both his hands on my cheeks. I nodded slowly.

"Be careful, I wait for you to come back!", I said. Febri smile. After that he moved to the car put his backpack. He looked at me before the car actually drove.

After the passing of Febri's car, Ms Sri took me into the house. Asking me to stay for a while until Anika finishes the walk with Dimas.

On the way to the field that will take them, Febri just fell silent while staring at the streets of his hometown.

"I always arrive late, or does the opportunity never exist huh Kapt?", asked Amara to Febri. Febri looked briefly at his colleague.

"You can get someone much better than me!" said Febri without looking at Amara's sad face. It is common knowledge, if Lettu Amara did put his heart on Febri since long ago.

Unaware of the other colleagues, Amara shed her tears. Deleting her in a hurry, afraid that anyone would see her. Febri saw that. Febri turned his eyes the other way. He did not want to be considered giving false hope to Amara for her good attitude all along.

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Towards the dhuhur, I went home. Not the way, but precisely in between by the mother-in-law. He even brought me some food to entertain Anika later.

"Thank you Mom, it's anterin Bia. Bia can also go home by herself."

"Febri already wanti-wanti make sure to look after the future mother's daughter-in-law!" said Bu Sri. I smiled awkwardly.

Don't want the judes are rich, am I the same, Mom???? My inner self anyway....

"Mom's gonna stop by first?", I asked stale.

"Ngga. I want to go to the minimarket, again there is a promo of cheap cooking oil rich."

I also agreed, Ms. Sri left my yard.

Just now I want to open the gate, someone called my name.

"Mba, mba Bia?", call the man.

"Eh, um Sudar? Ono opo anyway?".((What's up)

"You enek gapak nggoleki peyan mbak."( There were fathers looking for you)

"Ga in takok'i sopo?" (Not asked who?)

"Gak mbak" replied Sudar.

"Kayane wong Jakarta. Logate sat wong kene!"

(The logic is not here)

"Eum, de'e ga takon opo-opo neh?"

(She didn't ask me what2 again)

"Eum, takon anyway...!"

(Ask anyway)

"Opo's mas?"

"I'm mba, lek Salman's grave."

"My father's grave?", did I parrot.

"Hooh, yeah wes don't tell mba. But mboh, de'e Rono opo no!"

(But I don't know if he's there)

Who yeah? Friends from Jakarta?

"Sakno mba, de'e wes tuwek uga nganggo stick. Koyo wong stroke ngono iku!"

(Kasian Mbah, he's old with a cane. Rich people structure it)

What..tuan Hartama? But the power is impossible! All I hear is Mr. Hartama's a stroke.

"Oh Yo wes nek ngunu, thanks for Sudar!"

I also went into the house. After a while, Anika and Dimas and Sakti and Bina reached my house.

"Dek, this is Bia's house?", asked Sakti to his sister.

"Let's go!" answer Anika.

"Anytime the answer?" said Sakti annoyed.

"Lagian mas, already know this is his house. Still Bae in tanyain!", said Anika.

"Udah.ngga where the storm. Come on ah, come in!", said Dimas holding Anika's hand.

Bina smiled looking at the two interlocked hands. Even though he himself did the same.

In Bina's heart, she was grateful that Dimas really loved Anika.

"Assalamualaikum, mba.!", call anika. I just changed my clothes with a loose negligee not to forget the hijab is also I changed the wide.

"Udah satisfied his walk deck?", I asked Anika.

"Belom is mba, but.", Anika glanced at her lover.

"Sir dim must return to Tuban!", said Anika lethargic.

"Is her name a duty dear?", Dimas pinched Anika's nose.

I put the drink in front of the four of them.

"Please mas sakti, mas where, build...Adek?!", I said.

"Still Bi" they answered compactly.

"Febri's gone?" asked Dimas. I'm nodding.

"So it was picked up by Lettu Amara."

"Uhuk-uhuk-uhuk", Dimas choked on his drink.

"Pelan dong kak, no one asked!", said anika patted her lover's shoulder.

"Know?", said Sakti.

"Indeed, Lettu Amara likes it the same as Febri?", I asked Dimas.

"Human? Ah, yes..maybe!", replied Dimas.

"It's so!", I said.

"Why? Jealous?", asked Dimas. I shook my head quickly.

"Let's go!"

"Well, thank God if not, Febri also just want to be friends with Amara."

I'll just say what Dimas said.

"Eh, lunch first yuk?", take me to all of them. They were compact for lunch together. After eating, we will rest.

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