Hold on or let go!

Eps 173s

Leaving his wife and ex on the porch was not able to make Alby feel jealous of both. There was only guilt because he had judged Silvy without wanting to know what had happened before.

Yes, he admitted. He is a stupid and selfish man. The handsome man took off his clothes and walked towards the bathroom. He cleans himself and prepares for his four rakaat prayers. Although he is a man who is not firm and clammy, his obligations still he does routinely. Maybe it's his plus from an Alby in addition to his handsome face.

The room's digital wall clock was milk showing at 17:05. Below, he still heard Silvy and Anika's jokes. His second wife had just moved into adulthood. Because of the mistakes from the past that made him too in this position.

Alby stood on the balcony of his room staring at the west end which was beginning to twilight. The sun no longer shines with heat. Maybe. like that Bia's feelings for her too. Slowly, Bia's feelings of love will sink by themselves due to the careless work of Alby. Not thinking long. And ended up hurting himself even his two wives.

The dream was still clearly reflected in his eyes. He looked up, closed his eyes. Enjoying the afternoon breeze blowing across his face.

Maybe this is the answer to his istikharah? Has Bia really given up?

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"What's the first time?", asked Lek Dar.

"Ngga. Gabut it! Sausage lawyer!", I said while playing my phone.

"Sausage lawyer? Is your lawyer Mr Kalingga nduk?", asked Lek Dar.

"That's not what I mean lek. meant Bia's, Bia unemployment is many events, snobs yes poky exist. Here, from the morning just aplot story wa!"

Lek Dar shook his head slowly.

"You... have really established your heart, right?" asked Lek Dar staring at me. I rise from the fall. Put my phone on a pillow and face Lek Dar.

"God willing. Bia has repeatedly asked for guidance from the power. And. It's Bia's last choice."

"Are you sure you can't give alby a second chance?"

I'm shaking.

"Kok lek Dar tanya that anyway?", I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Sir, there will be a mediation hearing. You will be given a chance to repair your relationship. The judge will do that every time there's a divorce trial."

I sighed to me.

"God willing I've made that decision. Even if it is maintained, everything will not be as before. Bia no longer wants heartache, and also. Maybe after this Alby will stop feeling guilty for hurting my feelings and also ignore Silvy, the wife who is pregnant with her child."

Lek Dar rubbed his head that was no longer veiled. I'm just at home. Eating, sleeping, rumble rolls indistinct. Cleaning Lek Dar house that is not dirty. Maybe because I'm too involved.

"But to be honest from the bottom of his heart. Do you still love Alby? or.. is it Febri?"

I looked at Lek Dar.

"Kok Febri anyway lek?", asked me manyun.

"Heheheheh.ya lek Dar from nebak aja nduk. Who knows, there is still the rest of your love for Febri in the deepest corner of your heart! Six years is not a short time!"

"What Lek, not even six years!", my baby.

"Relatedly? Febri very attention you know.sama you nduk!"

I breathed a rough breath.

"Lek, Bia wouldn't be as hurt as this if not love Alby lek."

I put my pillow in my lap. Then shift my sitting position.

"But Bia himself actually also does not know why every Bia needs someone, it is always Febri mas who helps Bia. Even if it's just a really trivial matter."

"Some have written that fate is Nduk."

"There are no wounds and pains that completely heal. All will be residual and impregnated although a little maybe not even seen", continued me.

"Lek knows how nduk, Alby must be very in love with you. That's why he doesn't want to let you go. But he himself is in a difficult position. And among you there must be one who relents, and that's you."

I smiled and nodded thinly.

"I'm trying to calm myself lek. Learn to live with everything that happens in my life. Maybe I let go of my grip with Alby. But.. with this problem ..there is wisdom that Bia can."

"The relationship between mother and mother improved, Bia was able to accept the presence of my father and sisters" I continued.

"Yes, every test will pass. If the princess were still there, she would be seneng if she joined the gini-rich grass!", said Lek Dar sendu.

I hugged Lek Dar's body. I know, she must have missed her child so much. For some reason father and lek Sarman only have an only child. Like me and the late princess.

"Daughter is happy there lek. She's a godly girl."

Lek Dar nodded. Almarhumah Putri died at the age of seventeen years. Still very young. But his name is age, only God has the right to determine it.

"Udah malem, lek wants to go to the stall first. Your lek is also going home."

"Yes lek!"

I lay myself on my soft bed. A moment I never imagined before, is coming soon. I tried to close my eyes. But there was only anxiety that controlled my feelings.

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"Bina ..can you ask?", asked Sabrina's mother.

"Ask Ma'am!", Sabrina said, looking at her clothes after the sun earlier this afternoon.

"You sure it's the same nak Sakti?", asked his mother with a face that had many wrinkles on her forehead. Actually Sabrina's mother is not too old, but maybe because she's sick her face looks older than her age.

"Bismil was bornrahmanirrahim aja, ma'am!"

"You said, Dimas it..ajudan his father Nak Sakti, how did he respond? Will he not be hurt?", asked Sabrina's mother.

"Ngga knows Mom, but if Bina laki mas Dimas looks all right. In fact.mas Dimas is now dating Anika, his sister. That girl's beautiful Mom, cute friendly again."

"How come you guys can meet again like this? How about.something when Dimas later so your brother-in-law Bin. You are inferior because you do not feel equal Dimas. But now you actually accept the Nak Sakti, which may be much higher caste than Dimas. We have nothing Bin."

"It's hard not to bother with that, ma'am. It's just, mas Sakti is too good with us. It doesn't feel right if Bina ngecewain Mas Sakti."

"So you don't really like it?" asked Sabrina's mother.

"Like Ma'am, only a fool would refuse the Sakti. But...Bina is just one lucky guy, can get a man like a magic mas."

(He's one of those fools, Bina 🤭)

"Bina didn't know what Dimas was thinking. Perhaps in his mind, Bina was too materialistic. Decided to end the three-year relationship and affirm the seriousness of the Sakti mas that Bina had not long known. But ..yes it is Mom. It's up to him to think what. Our relationship is over."

Sabrina's mother rubbed her daughter's arm.

"May you live happily!"

Sabrina nodded. Being an officer's wife was Sabrin's real dream. But seeing the condition of his sickly mother like this, there was no way he would leave her. Because when she became Dimas' wife, it meant she had to follow wherever her husband was serving and move places. Sabrina buried it in that desire. Let everyone think negatively of him. He only needs to convince himself if it is his soul mate even though he has not known each other for a long time.

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