Hold on or let go!
The Eps 34
~The peak of one's disappointment is DIAM~
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I only offer Dhuha prayers at the hospital mosque. There's no way I'll do it when Mak's room is filled with Mr. Hartama's men.
O God, in what way do I prepare my heart???
The Hartama people bowed respectfully as I flashed in front of them. What do they have in mind when they see me by doing such an honor?
Want not to want me to nod thin too. Mak's room is tidier. I saw Mr. Hartama already inside and was talking to Alby. I don't know what they're talking about.
Their conversation stopped seeing me enter Mak's room. My eyes were fixed on Alby's neat clothes. The dashing man was wearing a shirt and also a black suit. Handsome! Even very handsome!
Alby approached me, but I took a step back before he could touch me.
"Neng..!", he said slowly.
I chose to sit next to Mak who was still sleeping due to the effects of the medicine this morning.
A small mushaf on the nightstand. After reading Taawudz I started reading it.
Hartama only glanced at the woman who was beside Mak.
You should wake up Tin! You must witness my son's marriage to your stepson! The monologue in his heart.
"Who's the doctor who handled Titin?", Hartama asked Alby.
"Doctor Sakti, Mister!", replied Alby.
A Hartama man approached his master.
"Call the doctor here!", Hartama said.
"Okay sir!", the man came out of Mak's room.
Alby was still faithfully beside me. I knew he wanted to talk, but my emotions couldn't allow myself to even just talk.
A few moments later, the doctor came in.
"Good morning Mister?", my dear Sakti.
"Doctor! Why is the patient given sleeping pills like this, I want him to watch my daughter's wedding!"
"Sorry sir, but I only deliver according to what the patient needs. I don't know if he should watch your daughter's wedding" Sakti replied calmly.
"When did he wake up?", asked Hartama.
"If according to the dose taken, he wakes up about two to three hours, sir. His heart still has to adjust."
"But this marriage must be fast! Penghulu also already has another schedule besides here!", Hartama was furious himself.
Sakti just shook her head slowly hearing Hartama's emotional speech. His eyes were on Alby and Bia.
Alby wear formal clothes like that? Wanna go where? Milky Way.
Not yet finished the confusion in Sakti's heart, some people entered the room Mak.
I stopped my reading. I saw who came into this room.
A middle-aged man I made sure he was a bully. The beautiful white girl was accompanied by an adult woman and several men behind her. I saw the beautiful girl walking in limp. Is it because he is inferior to his shortcomings, then forced himself to choose Alby who is only ordinary people? She is a beautiful girl.
"Dear baby!", said Hartama.
Silvy approached her father, who was sitting on the sofa.
"Doctor, stick you here. All of you become one of the witnesses of our daughter's marriage from the men's side, said Hartama.
"Oh.all right, sir. But sorry, where is the groom?", asked Sakti confused. From earlier he was looking for a man who might be the future son-in-law of Mr. Hartama.
"Alby!", call Hartama. Alby froze in place. He looked at me who was still silent on the bench next to Mak.
"Albys! Come here!", said Hartama. Slowly, Alby approached his master.
"Alby the groom-to-be!", said Hartama. Silvy who was ready to marry the man of his heart was also sharing a smile sumringah.
Embarrassed? Yes, honestly I'm ashamed of Sakti. Many times he approached me, but I refused. Maybe in his heart he laughed at me who always let him down.
"What is your relationship with Bia? Why do you seem to care so much?", asked Hartama smiling mockingly.
"Sorry sir, Bia my friend."
"Owh. so it seems."
"Mas Alby, why are you getting married again? You've got a wife? I'm sorry I didn't mean to interfere in your affairs, but this? This isn't fair to Bia mas Alby?", Sakti tries to get an explanation from Alby.
"I ask you to be a witness to this marriage, not to revile questions that are none of your business. After all, Bia has signed a letter of approval for Alby to get married again" Hartama said casually.
"What?", Sakti.
"Quite doctor! Mr. Penghulu, please start the event!", said Hartama.
Pak penghulu also obeyed Hartama's orders. Silvy and Alby are sitting next to each other.
"Mas Alby??", I still can't believe it.
"It's doctor! Please calm down and just follow my orders earlier!", Hartama asked Sakti to sit down.
Oh God, what kind of a ruin did you feel for Bia? Mila looked pityfully at Bia.
What kind of marriage is this? Sakti is still carried away by emotions. But he also could not immediately refuse the order of the ruler of this hospital.
I stared blankly at the direction where Alby and Silvy were sitting next to each other. Yesterday, the couch was a witness where Alby and I shared a sweat. But this morning, on the couch was also Alby tying a sacred promise with another woman.
"Well!"
Suddenly I heard the three letters echoing. My chest feels amazing. There was no word even my tears seemed reluctant to slide.
This sick man, God??? I press my chest as hard as I can.
Next to Silvy who was smiling happily, Alby looked down at the floor below. The man was crying. Crying how much he was unable to keep his sacred promise to Shabia.
Sorry.maafin Aa neng!
The full wedding day is over. Penghulu and the others are out.
Alby slid towards me, hugging the frozen me. I still can't believe this happened right in front of my eyes.
I let Alby sob on my shoulder. My man is crying. Yeah, he's crying for his own stupidity, right ? But even his stupidity makes me a victim here! What is my fault, God????
"Asaafin Aa neng. Sorry Aa!", Alby still hugged me.
Slowly his embrace loosened. Alby put both his hands on my cheeks. Maybe he was wondering why I wasn't crying. Yes, I'm tired of crying over the fate of our marriage.
Alby kissed me for so long. I know, Alby loves me so much. But no matter what love I feel, I'm still disappointed. Sick...very sick to watch him also make his promise in the presence of the Almighty.
Slowly I pushed the chest that had been where I was leaning. But after this? After this, it's not just me who deserves to enjoy it. There are other women who have the same rights as me.
I pushed my burly body plan. I slowly approached Mr. Hartama and his daughter, none other than my husband's second wife.
"Hopefully you are satisfied Mr. Hartama!", I said quietly but firmly. I don't want to say hello to my husband's second wife. Wrongly? Nah! Either this is selfish or whatever it's called. I can't possibly be nice to the woman who has taken mine.
Hartama looked at me flat. Maybe his heart is dead. She doesn't want to know what my pain is like as long as her daughter is happy.
Sakti approached me.
"Bia?"
"Enough mas! Don't talk about anything. I hope, right now in your heart you're not laughing at me!"
"Astaghfirullah, Bia!", sighed Sakti.
I walk towards the door.
"Miss!"
Alby grabbed my shoulder.
"Don't touch me. Better, take care of your new wife!", I said as I brushed her hand off my shoulder.
