Hold on or let go!

The 118 eps

I'm done tidying up, getting ready to go home eh .. I mean get out of this hospital. Not a patient anymore.

My little bag that only contains my wallet and my phone charger that I always carry everywhere.

The door of my room opened, two handsome men who said they were heavy as I smiled. Showing a charming smile. Febri who was dashing with her firm face also smiled sweetly. Not much different, Sakti who glazed minus eyes that look handsome plus dimples on one of his cheeks.

Huh!!!! But no matter how handsome they are, my husband is still much more handsome. The proof, Silvy only to be willing to be his second wife. The risk of having a handsome husband. But I sincerely love Alby, not just for his looks. Because I knew Alby when we were both lowly employees.

"Are you ready?", asked Sakti. I'm nodding.

"It is!", I answered briefly.

"Let me take nduk, don't take a cab."

"Thou shalt no more Feb! How about?", asked sakti.

"Don't distract me Sa, I know you want to nganterin Bia right? No need, I just. You don't know how much Bia's cost."

"Yes, I can do it with Bia if Feb!"

"Udah.ngga no anthers. I took a taxi!", I said while carrying the paperbag that Febri had given me earlier.

"How much are my clothes?", I asked Febri.

''Why ''Emang?"

"I don't want to pay!"

Sakti held back her laughter because of the curse. I remember, Febri didn't like it the most if he gave something to someone but that person was willing to pay for it.

"Hum! I've been reading it since!", said Febri casually.

"Ehem! Don't be nostalgic either!", Sakti was singing her lips.

"You work paid the people? Why are you guys even joking around like this? There's a lot of serious work out there!"

"Bia, I'm not a PNS. I work according to SOP. I finished working hours already I relaxed reasonable dong. He paid the same people! Burden of the country!", said Sakti without being sifted.

''Is it the burden of the state? We are protectors of the country. Don't mess with Sa, don't you want to be the doctor who charges? Father right? What did your father do??" replied Febri again. I really can't see the unimportant debate between the two of them.

"Au ah lap!"

They are both ridiculous. Who would have thought two people who used to be serious about work could joke around like them.

"So continue the debate. I'm out first. Thank you for everything you've done for me as long as I'm sick."

I casually left them both.

After being outside my former nursery, I tried to prepare myself. I breathe a lot of air. I need to prepare my mind.

Yeah, I'm headed to Alby's and Silvy's room. While the two men who work pretty it was also realized that Bia was no longer in the room. They both came out of the room. The two followed Bia who still looked not far from the previous room.

Their guess is the same, Bia will definitely go into alby's room. Finally, the two established men chose to sit on the waiting bench.

I went straight into Alby's room. I saw Alby and Silvy lying in the next gurney. There was Mila and Mak tea between them.

"Assalamualaikum!", said. Watch them all turn to me.

"Walaikumsalam!", they answered compactly, minus the silvy. Maybe from childhood he was not taught how to reply to greetings yes. Or maybe because I said it?

"Neng!", Alby got up from the fall. Change her position to sit. I went to Alby's gurney.

"Neng is well, baby?", asked Alby attentively to me. I saw Silvy with the tail of my eyes, he seemed to be flicking his lips.

Iri said boss????!

"Alhamdulillah."

Mak and Mila tea seem to smile at me. I don't know what they're thinking right now.

"I just want to go home A. And. I asked permission. I'm going to the village, pick up my motorcycle and some of my stuff that's in your house."

Alby fixed his seat.

"What are you talking about? I told you, there are no divisions. There's no such thing as a divorce between us!'', Alby's breath is hunting.

"Enough! I'm just asking permission to enter my in-laws' house. That'sthat's all. Because... After that, there's someone else who has the right there and changed my duties!"

"Shabia Ayu!", Alby snapped loudly.

"Bia!"

"Stop yelling A. I'm not deaf! You see there, your wife is sick. The wife who will be the mother of your own flesh and blood!"

Without knowing it, my tears escaped. My defense collapsed in front of Alby. Though I've prepared myself as hard as possible since before I've footed here.

"Neng, I will be in charge of my son and also Silvy. But neng also remains Aa's responsibility!"

"I don't need any responsibility from you A. I'm tired of saying it over and over again, even in almost every episode of our quarrel. I don't want honey! And I also know that even very well, you're hard left Silvy because of your son. So, I better step back. There's no more reason I'm staying here!"

"So easy to talk like that? Yung....!"

"Aa has left Aa's seed in Silvy's womb!"

Alby nodded slowly.

"From the beginning I knew why Aa did it."

Alby tried to grab my shoulder but I slightly rewinded my body so that it wouldn't be reached by him.

"Give me a chance to be happy the way I let you go A. That's all! I'm tired of having to keep going like this. You love me, but you can't separate from Silvy. I don't want any promises from your mouth. You're just keeping your promise to stay accountable to your son."

"Have said, I won't let go!"

I don't mind Alby's words anymore. I'll move my legs back to Silvy's gurney.

He was a little surprised to see me who was probably in front of him as if acting calm. Though in my chest I felt like venting my emotions at the little girl before me. Erratum! She was no longer a girl, but a woman who contained the seeds of my husband.

I held my hand out in front of him. But Silvy didn't respond to my hand. I slowly paused my intention to shake hands with him. So arrogant of him!

"Ehm! I just want to say, what you and your papa hope will soon be accomplished. I won my heart by taking Alby off for you."

There was no reaction from Silvy. I slightly bowed my body near his ears.

"Maybe by seizing the property of others, there is satisfaction for you. Even if you get it the forced way. But enjoy the rest of me! I hope someday you will be happy with what you get. Believe me, the prayer of the terzolimi is more affirmed by the almighty!"

The age whispered that sentence, I also kept my head away from Silvy's ears. Silvy's face grew grim. Maybe he was recording my words just now.

Finally, also came out those hurtful words.

"Mommy, Bia said goodbye. Sorry, if all this time Bia has not been able to be a good son and daughter-in-law for Mak."

Me and Mak hugged each other.

"Don't talk like that. Please think again. I know you still love each other."

"And Mak knows for himself that Bia can't share."

"Astaghfirullah neng!", Mak hugged me so tightly. After this we can still meet again.

After breaking off the hug with Mak, I turned to Mila tea.

"Titip Mak ya tea!", I said. Mila tea nodded slowly.

Alby is still trying to control himself who is filled with emotions because of the drama I did earlier.

Without saying goodbye to Alby, I stepped out of their nursery.

"After Aa gets out of here, we'll talk tough. But just so you know, until anytime Aa will never let go of neng!"

I stopped for a moment after hearing Alby's words I heard for the next time.

"So much Aa only. Assalamualaikum!", I said directly out.

After my door was completely shut, I could no longer hold back my tears. It turns out that pretending to be strong is painful huh???

Febri and Sakti were still chatting together on a bench a little away from Alby's room.

My age wiped away my tears which must have made my face even more broken, the voice of someone resuscitated me.

"Mba Bia?", he said. I looked up at the origin of the sound.

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keep calm beib! 🤗🤗😁😁