Hold on or let go!

Eps 142s

Like grasping embers, the more in the hand the more hurt. Although in the end the coals will cool by themselves, but the scar will remain eternal.

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The voice of the morning's dawn was simple this morning. My mood is much better. Maybe because I feel more comfortable in my own place. I'm still in the puerperium that keeps me on holiday for five prayers. But for just Tasmi' or listening to the tilawah of the Qur'an online I can still do.

The weather this morning was pretty bad. There was a coldness attacking the joint bones. Maybe I am old.

But even though it's cold, it doesn't diminish my intention to take a bath this morning. It has been my habit from a long time ago. Except, when sick or in situations that are not supportive.

After taking a shower, I headed to the kitchen to cook hot water. I saw the contents of my refrigerator. It is now full of vegetables, meat and fruit. Who else is the suspect if not Lek Dar? He's too understanding! Alhamdulillah!

Since there were no snacks this morning, I intended to fry the tempeh in the refrigerator. The ingredients are all lek Dar prepared.

Once all is ready, I started the Medang event alone this morning. Who else do I expect to accompany me???

I suddenly miss Alby. I miss those moments together. He who always adores me with his words of love with his behavior.

I kept thinking about how happy we were then. Now, it's all gonna be over soon. Alby will be a part of the memory of my life. It's not easy! Forget about Alby accepting me for who I am. We complement each other, but only then. Not for now.

All that remains now is anger and disappointment.

Febri is already handsome with his sarong and his coco shirt. He looked good this morning. Yes..there is an appointment will call the wife of the person.

"It's still early in the morning, it's been a tingle!" said Dimas, who was coffee and smoking on a park bench.

"Ga really good!" said Febri ketus.

"Diih... baper!", ledek Dimas.

Febri went to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee. But apparently the aunt had already prepared for him.

"Thank you, baby!"

"Sama-sama mas Febri!", said the friendly aunt.

Febri returns to the park to join Dimas. He dropped his weight on the bench next to Dimas. The handsome man took a sip of his coffee, after which lit a cigarette.

Dimas stared at the orange color at the east end there. What does a Dimas think?

Febri picks up her phone, she sees the last time Bia opens her green chat app.

Apparently, Bia had woken up from earlier. Febri smiled faintly.

"Koe Kesambet Nang ndi toh Feb?", asked Dimas.

(You have a trance where Feb)

"Neighbor! Can't you see the dawn prayer? Setane wes insecure nawang wong handsome koyo me!"

"Innalilahi.batirku is narcissistic!", Dimas shook his head quickly.

"Belgium!"

Febri calls Bia, and on the second call Febri hears Bia's voice.

[Assalamualaikum mas]

[Capitaly]

Febri sumringah sangad gaes.padah only answer greetings.

[Why?]

[What is nduk?]

[Snorts]

[Oh.].

[Who wants to talk about it?]

[Eum.soal mother nduk].

[Why again? I told you yesterday via wa]

[But not all you told me, did Bi?]

[Feelings are you mas? Especially?]

[On blessing?]

Silent. It doesn't sound like any word.

[Thud.].

[Mas..we can't do this].

[I mean?]

[I'm a married woman.].

[Mas knows nduk, but right.you are soon.].

I heard the breath of Bia.

[It doesn't feel ethical once we talk like this. Regardless of our past. But.this is wrong!]

[Sir, I won't take you from Alby. But hopefully, you won't change your decision again. You deserve to be happy Nduk. Give others a chance to prove that he can make you happy. And. I hope, that person I'm Bi.]

Bia was silent across there.

[Nduk, I love you. Until you will always be waiting for you!]

[Sorry, I don't think we can step into this conversation. ***...]

[Wait forward! A moment!]

[I'm really hurt by everything Alby's done to me, but..what difference would it make me the same Alby if I opened the room and gave you hope? I don't want to be like that!]

Dimas choked on his coffee.

Damn, Febri's talk makes the brain travel early in the morning. He's delicious, already know the taste of 'nganu'! I am still innocent! Inner Dimas. He stomped his feet away from his widowed friend.

Febri had a glimpse of his friend who was ngereog.

[Astaghfirullah, ma'am! enough's enough! don't talk like that!]

[Sorry nduk. But mas only convince you, let you realize that I must still inhabit in the wrong corner of your heart. Please don't lie to yourself. There is nothing more you need to fear. Mother has blessed us.]

[Stop box! I think our talk is out of bounds. Assalamualaikum]

Bia turns off his call with Febri. Febri seemed to regret his straightforwardness to Bia earlier. But...isn't being honest that much better???

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Alby came out of his father-in-law's room before dawn. He only said goodbye to Mang Sapto.

"Mang, Alby didn't come here?" asked Silvy.

"Every night here the clock is as clear as non. But it was before dawn."

"Kok ga nemuin me first!", the bumil mood immediately changed.

"There may be an office job. You know for yourself, Alby's changing your papa's errands."

"But ma'am, why Alby still doesn't care about me and my son. Bia's class has left Alby."

And Bia left Alby too because of you and your papa! Mila's tea was upset.

"Non Silvy what breakfast do you want? Let me buy it to the cafeteria."

"I don't want anything."

Silvy tries to get up from the sofa, but turns out his legs tripped and accidentally he fell back onto the sofa with his prone position.

"That's....!" shouts Silvy.

"Astaghfirullah!", Titin immediately approached his daughter. Then, rub it until the position is back to lie down.

"Where is sick?", asked Titin in panic.

"My stomach is cramping again!"

Titin rubbed his daughter's stomach slowly. The swipe made Silvy feel more comfortable.

"I want Alby to wipe my stomach!", whined Silvy. Titin sighed.

"You mom said, Alby must be reckless. Different if I ask."

"Yes, I'll tell Alby."

In office....

"Mas Alby, Mr. Hotma is waiting in Mr. Hartama's room!", Marsha said as Alby arrived at the office.

"Oh, yes Sha. Thanks!"

Marsha agreed, and she continued her work.

"Good morning, Mr. Hotma!", Alby extended his hand to shake his hand.

"Good morning Alby!", Hotma replied with a smile."How is Tama doing now?"

"There hasn't been a significant change, sir."

"Call me, not sir."

Alby nodded."Yes, um."

"So this is it!", Hotma started talking about that important thing.

"Formerly, Tama has ordered that fifteen percent of the group's HS shares will be handed over in the name of Shabia Ayu, your first wife."

"What?", Alby was quite surprised. The reason, fifteen percent of the shares of this company is no longer a million two million but a tail M.

"And.as long as Tama's sick, she wants you to take over this company. All at once.shares in your wife's name."

"But om...me..."

"Om will help as much as you can. Om sure you're capable. Tama's guilt on Bia will pay off a little."

"Fault papa will not be able to be valued with money om. Om know? Even bia's gonna sue me?"

Hotma looked at the handsome and young man. A Silvy alone was infatuated with this handsome man. In addition to her gentle speech, Alby is also typical of people who are easy to tell.

''May after this 'Bia will cancel it."

"I mean om?"

"Homestay project in your wife's village, you continue. Let him not free the land for Hs group, but. after all the projects are completed, make the homestay in the name of Bia. And during that process, you will often go there. Try to convince Bia that everything will be fine. If Silvy wasn't pregnant, she wanted you to part with her!" Hotma said, patting Alby on the shoulder. Alby doesn't know what to do.

"Think of what I said earlier Alby!", after saying that, Hotma left Hartama's room.

Alby's in a blanket of anxiety. Bia has said that the rice field is a farmland that does not have its own rice field. How selfish it would be if Bia sold that rice field that would eventually make those farmers lose their jobs.

Alby leaned his back against the sofa. Eyes closed. He tried to look and see a lot of things. There will be a time when this tough decision will be taken.

******

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