Hold on or let go!

The Eps 79

At one o'clock in the night I was in my train. My first destination was Surabaya. Only after transit in Surabaya, I just took a follow-up train to the district where I live. Where's that??? Almost at the tip of Java island. Can you imagine if Alby and I went home? West Java tip vs east Java tip???

Next is....

The atmosphere of the train was not too crowded because I was using the executive class train. Not arrogant, as long as I can? Whynot? I'm alone, I need comfort too.

I put my paper bag containing the dirty clothes left over yesterday on the floor. I leaned my head against the back of the chair that I was tilting to make me more comfortable while resting. The journey to my hometown took a long time. Do not be overshadowed, until the house later I can be in the vehicle for almost twenty hours. Wearing it!

He said rich people, why not use a plane??? I do not prefer the train, but even if you take a plane later the trip to my hometown remains far and long.

I chose to use a long vehicle like this snake.

When I tried to close my eyes, there was Sese sitting next to me.

"Excuse me, may I sit here?", he asked politely.

I, who was almost closed, opened my eyes.

''It is indeed the number listed there is here the place please sir!", I replied. The man sat himself on the bench next to me.

"William!", the man thrust his hand at me. That acquaintance?

I nodded thinly. Not to welcome his hand.

"Shabia!", reply me. Not getting a response from my hand, William's hand went down.

I closed my eyes again. But my phone is back on. Alby called me at this hour?? It's already one o'clock at night. Maybe he saw in my chat room that it seemed that I was active a while ago.

Husband calling.....

I glanced for a moment. Looks like the time wasn't right when I picked up the phone right now. Many passengers are getting ready to sleep.

"Why not take up Mba Shabia?", asked William to me. I glanced through the tail of my eyes. Sksd really is a person!

"Ngga anything. Fear of disturbing other passengers."

I keep my phone in the bag, I make a silent mode so as not to disturb others if it sounds again.

William looked at the passenger next to him. Usually, women who are spoken to by him will be enthusiastic to chat with him. Not with the woman next to him.

Doesn't he know me? William's Mumbling.

Because it was not responded by the woman on the bench next door, William also closed his eyes. He was the same, asleep in the carriage.

At half-time five in the morning, my phone shook. My dawn alarm didn't go off, it was just a tinge of shakes I felt from inside my bag.

I rubbed my eyes for a moment. I saw William still closing his eyes while folding his hands across his chest. I'm going to the toilet, I feel bad if I just pass it.

When I felt bad, William's eyes were suddenly made. I was a little surprised because I was already in a standing position and was willing to go through it.

"You go to the toilet?", she asked in a distinctive hoarse voice waking up. I also nodded.

William's feet moved aside, and then allowed me to pass through.

I changed my pantyliner before ablution. Yes, it is customary to travel long distances like this.

My face was fresher, it was time for me to fulfill my obligations even by sitting on the bench of the train.

As much as possible I didn't come into contact with William. By the time I got to my bench, William was gone. Coincidentally, so I can pray freely.

My rakaat duty is done with William who might as well be from the toilet. Because his face is a little wet.

"Out of prayer?", he asked me. I also nodded.

"The goal, Surabaya?", he asked me again.

"Yes!", I replied briefly. Because it is impossible for me to go ahead after reaching Surabaya I still have to take another train.

"I'm also in Surabaya."

In my heart, I am not a mas!

"What way to go home? Original there?"

"Human? yes, native east Java. I want to go home."

William mangosteen.

"Do you not know me?", he asked. I scrunched my eyebrows.

"Know, you introduced yourself."

William smiled faintly.

"I mean, you don't know who I am?"

"William, right? You said that."

Oh, this gini guy is so! The feeling of followers I just desperately want to meet and Deket same me! Inner William.

"Heum, okay! You don't play Instagram?", he asked again.

"Had, just didn't like to play so much."

William nodded back.

Pantes doesn't know me! Inner William.

Almost six in the morning, I ordered breakfast and also warm tea. William followed in my footsteps.

Honestly, I'm less fond of having to chat a lot with strangers. As I enjoyed my breakfast, a girl approached our bench.

"Excuse me, William huh?", he asked William.

"Yes!", replied William briefly but looking friendly.

"Oh my God, what dream did I meet William!" said the girl glad not to play.

"The pretty boy was her boyfriend and William was it?", she asked again. I shook my head, but William smiled, not insisting that I didn't know William at all and we had nothing to do with him.

The fan meeting with her idol is over. I don't want to get dizzy.

Since it was morning, and most people were up so I decided to pick up the phone from Alby. Not just a phone call, but a video call.

[Assynualay]

I put on my headset.

[Walaikumsalam. Where are you tea?]

Alby looked panicked, but also grateful to see me okay. Might....

[Train]

Answer's short. William peeked out from beside me. Maybe he wondered who called me.

[You're tea back to east Java?]

I just nod.

I saw Alby squeezing his hair that looked a bit long.

[Kunaon kudu ka jawa neng?]

[Imah abdi ti Jawa A]

Reply again. William scrunched his brows. Maybe wonder at me?

[Neng, Aa thought tea back to overtime sanes ka Java.]

[Geus or A. Bia ge hoyong nenangin hate]

[Kumaha reaction lek Sarman if maneh behind a scarecrow?]

[Ngga anything. I haven't arrived either. Easy later Bia clearlyin if aa keur busy!]

[Neng, neng there is no macem-macem intention right?]

I let out a breath. Does he know my plan?

[Neng needs this?]

Alby showed me the two brown and green wedding books.

[Any?]

[Aa said, Aa won't let go!]

I rubbed my face rough. I forgot, the condition of filing a lawsuit does need that little book.

[Aa ngijinin neng nenangin. But until anytime, Aa won't let go! Neng carefully! Up home, I'm sure! Do not forget to eat, kasian dedek utun in the stomach neng]

I took a long breath. What am I doing this in vain???? How could it be the same Alby? Hasn't it been in the village all this time? Has he anticipated it before???

Our video call is done. What do I have to do now? Why is Alby making things difficult?

"Are you married?" asked William. I nodded, but after that I turned my face towards the window. I massage my temples which hurts a little.

Alby is really selfish!!!??

Along the way, there was no more chatter between me and William. I was really made badmood because Alby had already hidden our personal documents.

Notice that the train has arrived in Surabaya has sounded. We were all getting ready to get off our cars.

William stared at me for a moment and then he smiled.

"Hopefully we can meet again. At the right time and in better healing."

I don't understand what he's saying. All I could do, I just gave my smile as a friendly sign to a new friend.

My foot was on the floor of the train station that I don't know how long I haven't stopped. William and I were completely separated after getting off the train. I got ready for the payment counter to buy a train ticket to my hometown. I still have four hours to get there.

An hour waiting for the train, I got into the train that was heading to my village. Actually tired of sitting on the train again, but want how. This has to be the journey I take.

Four hours passed. I have reached the station where my village is. I've contacted Lek Sarman. While waiting for him, I chose to sit at the edge of the station entrance so that your lek would be easier to pick me up.

I straightened my legs and stretched out my hands. Tired! But it's not as bad as my heart that has to share a husband!

Remembering that again I'm getting dizzy!

Tin.tin...

The sound of horns blasting my daydreams. A handsome man in his forties approached me. Yeah, that guy lek Sarman. My father's sister.

"Mother!", he approached me. I'm looking at his hand.

"Wheel, how do you press kene?"

''Iyo, I seko bank nduk!", he replied. I followed him, and he opened the car door for me.

"Your crew nduk?", he asked after the car moved away from the station.

"Let's go."

"Your news, your morotuwo curry Alby?", asked Lek Sarman in droves with questions about their news.

"Alhamdulillah lek!", I answered briefly. As a more experienced person, Sarman sees something is wrong with his only nephew. Butwhat?? He also could not ask many things. Maybe later!

"To the stall first yes Nduk! Luweh isn't your weteng?"

"Let's go. It was breakfast, just not much."

"Yo wes we go straight to the stall."

I nodded in agreement. Yes, this is in my yard.

Hopefully when I talk to Lek Sarman later, there will be a way out that is best for me. He was my father's replacement. He was my guardian who even married me. I don't know what she'd react to if she knew I was going to divorce Alby, even though I was pregnant. And worse, the reason I asked to separate was because I couldn't get honey.

Patience.... Bia... patience.