Hold on or let go!

The Eps 37

Still Febri

I don't want to ask you much more. So I went straight to Mak Titin.

"Sorry Mom, just looked up. Get well soon!", I said.

"Thank You Febri!", said Mak. My eyes met the eyes of that capable girl who was none other than Silvy.

"There's been an event, Mom?", I asked.

Mak Titin nodded slowly.

"Yes, Febri said yes. Mak cepet healthy!", I said to Mak.

Alby was standing in front of Bia. I don't know what really happened. I don't deserve to know what's going on. But like I caught something. Alby's clothes and the girl in a Mak's gurney are like a newly married person.

"So, it looks like I'm just going out." I patted the doctor's shoulder gently.

"Are you ready for Alby or Bia?", the black-clothed man asked me. Sakti who just wanted to say something.

I turned to face the grown man I had made sure he was rich.

"I'm Bia's friend in the village. I called Bia this morning before I got here."

"House. Friend?", the man's circus.

What fellas? he thought I couldn't catch your eyes looking more at Bia when I first walked into this room. Hartama folded his hands on his chest.

"Yes, we're from the same area. And incidentally, I live next door to Mak Titin's house."

It seems I will only be emotionally facing that man.

Bia is seen sitting on the sofa, followed by Alby. He's not as fucked up as he was.

"Bia..!", I approached him who was sitting with Alby.

"What mas? You also want to laugh at me like the Sakti mas?", Bia asked me.

What does Bia mean?

"You're talking about opo anyway??", I asked. Alby looked at me not like it. Okay fine! Maybe I was overreacting to Bia who was crying.

"Neng..!", Alby grabbed his wife's shoulder.

"Go away from A. Don't think about my feelings. He has the same rights as me. I will continue to take care of Mak until Mak can really return to his usual activities. But..I will still register a divorce lawsuit from you!", said Bia loudly.

Whahuh? A divorce?

"You can't be so Neng. Until whenever I won't let go of you Bia. Until anytime!"

"Why? Don't you want me to be happy in my own way? What should I consider here? Try any? Give me a reason to stay here?! The mak? I do love Mak, but again the girl is also more entitled to Mak because she is Mak's biological child in my appeal A. Who am I???!", cried Bia.

I was surprised to hear Bia's words. What weight is there really? Alby's getting married again? That girl Alby's wife? Mak Titin's son?

Now Bia is looking at me with emotion.

"You want to laugh at what I'm dealing with right now mas?", asked Bia to me who was fixated.

I shook my head slowly. I don't understand what he's asking.

"Koe said opo anyway nduk?", I was confused.

"Why? Why is it that everyone never sides with me."

Bia squeezes the robe. I really want to hold her little body. But what right do I have?

"Darling! Listen to Aa!", Alby covers both her hands on Bia's cheeks.

"Aa love Bia. Love is like Bia."

"No one loves Bia. I hate you all!", Bia got up from her couch.

Alby is about to catch up with Bia, but the man in the suit calls Alby.

"How come you get out of this room, look what will happen to him!", the man said threateningly.

Alby froze in there. The doctor ran a little after Bia.

"If anything happens to Bia, I will hold you responsible!", my hardship before the rich man.

I also followed Bia and Sakti.

What exactly is going on here????

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I can't think of anything anymore. All I have in mind right now is to get out of this situation. I'm tired, God, I'm tired!

I don't know where I'm going. My feet continued to move until my shoulders were reached by someone.

"Don't be rash Bia. Remember there are lives that you must protect too!", cried the man who is nothing but powerful.

I was also standing in place. I feel like my world has stopped.

"I lost!", I said softly.

Sakti sat in front of me.

"I'm sorry, I'm a foreigner. I don't deserve to know. But, unfortunately, I have to witness it all."

"Am I selfish if I don't approve of their marriage? Would I be foolish if I chose to stay and be loyal to my husband?", I looked up at the sight that was surely pitying me.

"Whatever your choice, I hope the best. True said Alby, if your disappointment is the reason you do not accept their marriage then your child is also the reason you survive to maintain your marriage. Sorry, I didn't mean to hunt you. As much as possible, you think of all this with a cold head."

Yes, mas Sakti is right.

"Honest Bi. I haven't or will never forget how I feel about you. Sorry, maybe this is a bad time. But.I'd like to dismiss your accusations if I laugh at your slump. Ngga Bi's. I feel the same pain when I see you sad like this."

I want to immerse my face Ki in the core of the earth. My words when my emotions accused Sakti of laughing at me, really embarrassed me.

Waitaminute! Febri also know what my situation is like now? Am I also wrong to accuse the same thing as I accuse mas Sakti?

Clattering footsteps approached towards me and Sakti. Sure enough, the man in a striped shirt was now squatting in front of me. I looked up at the firm face of the man.

"Do you also want to pity me mas?", asked me when he was right next to Sakti.

"What reason does it require that I pity you?", he asked me.

I smiled knot. How beautiful my life. I turned down two established men in front of me just for the sake of being hurt by an Alby. Do I regret everything in my life...???

My mind laughed at my own fate. Nah! I won't regret it. The life to come is indeed a powerful secret. If I had known from the beginning what my home life would be like, I would not have wanted to do it. But...all I have to go through, right?

The two handsome men looked at each other.

"I don't deserve you anymore Bi. But, you should know. Whenever you need me, I will always be there for you" Febri said earnestly. Not to lose to Febri, Sakti also said the same thing.

"We're not taking Bi's chance. If that's you think of us like that, but.we're sincere. You are not alone. And. like I said, don't make a decision. Whatever it is!", said the sakti. After that he stood up, pat Febri on the shoulder for a while and then stepped away from us.

"I'm taking you home Bi!", Febri took me.

"Going home? Where am I going?", asked Febri.

"Bia....?", call Febri lirih.

"I don't have a house to take on Febri. The house was not only mine!", I was bowed and again I cried in front of Febri's eyes.

"You are not that weak as Bia!", said Febri firmly.

"But in fact I'm limp. I lost!", I cried.

"You show them, you're capable. You're strong Bia. You are not a weak woman and are easily oppressed especially by the powerful old man!", said Febri emotionally.

Mas Febri means must be Mr. Hartama.

"Show me, you have power. You can do anything, you deserve whatever is rightfully yours."

"But I don't like to share Mas. I can't share! Are men selfish like that?"

"Bia. I don't know what's the reason that makes Alby double up on you. But I know once, as a fellow man. I know he loves you very much. Even though I have the same feelings as that for you Bi!", Febri was a little carried away by emotions.

"Crazy! Today is beyond the limits of reason. Two men in my past expressed feelings of still having feelings for me while I was down with my future man. I may not be in my right mind!", I said. After that I got up and walked to Mak's room again. My wallet and cell phone are there. That's all I'm gonna take. Without further ado I went back into the room.

Cuiiih .. The first sight I saw was Silvy who was struggling spoiled on Alby's arm.

Seeing me come in, Alby was about to get up from the couch. But Silvy held him back.

I passed both of them and Mr. Hartama was on the other sofa as well. Mak accompanied two more people. Yes, Mila tea. I had a video call with him.

My mother looked at me full of pity.

"Bia said to Mak. Someone is taking care of Mak. Bia wait at home, Mak cepet healthy so yes. Assalamualaikum!", I kissed the back of Mak's hand.

"Titip Mak ya Mila tea!", I said. This is the first time I've told Mila since meeting her this morning. Mila tea just nodded, confirming my words.

I also stepped towards the door. Alby's face was so depressed. Actually I can't bear to see my husband's face like that, but how else. I can't pretend to be okay.

"Neng, who are you going home with?", asked Alby.

"Just like Febri!", I said briefly. I don't know if Febri is still here or not.

"Let's go between ya?", bargained Alby.

"W.hkg! Silvy wants us to go straight to the hotel aja A!", said Silvy sulked.

I smiled cynically.

The hotel??? Imagine them doing the first night alone I've been emotional!

"No need. Thanks you! I can go home by myself!", I said and walked out slamming the door.

It turns out my guess was wrong. Febri is still ahead. His back against the wall.

"Mas take home. Back to the office."

I also nodded. Bodo is very much with the perception of others. Right now I need a place and time to myself, even if it's at my late father-in-law's house.