Hold on or let go!

Eps 52's

The rain left a lot of puddles around the house. Especially near the fish pond, a lot of garbage scattered on the edge.

The clock still shows at six in the morning. There's not much I'm doing today. After the shower and the dawn prayer, I just sat relaxing on the back porch near the pool. I also do no cooking activities. I just eat by myself. There is nothing I have to serve.

Eh??? I forgot! Didn't Febri ask me to cook his daily menu? I forgot about it because I was too focused on my household.

I switched to the refrigerator. There is no food other than eggs. But even shopping at the market feels lazy. Maybe I should go to a stall near Salamah tea house later.

While waiting for a bit of daylight, I chose to sit on the bench near the pool as usual.

I heard the conversation of someone not far from where I was sitting. A voice I know well, of course. Mas Febri was communicating with his flat objects. But, it seems like he is different today. He's not wearing his striped uniform like he used to. Instead he wears material pants and a shirt. Maybe he has a show!

I put my shoulder out. Do I care if he wants an event or not. I'll start cooking for her from tomorrow.

At this hour, Aa has woken up yet? Wanted to call, but was afraid later even ended up fighting if it turns out there is a new wife next to Aa. Maybe I'm partly waiting for Aa to call me.

Eh?? But how does it feel like I'm A Alby's affair anyway???? I'm shaking. No, I have decided to accept this situation.

"Nduk!", call Febri. The call from Febri woke me from my daydream.

"Yes!", I stood before him.

"You, there's no other brother here? You mean, Alby's brother maybe?"

"Yes..ada, why mas?How come you suddenly asked kek ngono?", I asked in wonder. I heard him breathe a little heavy.

Mas Febri had not answered him, until I remembered something.

"Oh yes mas, dig me. Sorry yeah. I should've kept you up all this time, but it turns out I've been busy with my own business. Starting tomorrow, will I cook it?"

"Nduk, don't go.ga. Eum..ini nduk, mas will move duties in the district" said Febri.

I was quiet for a while. Until he finally resumed his words.

"Mas will serve in the nduk codim. And it looks like.mas will stay in mess. If you have to stay here, the distance is quite far."

Oh. I get it, he's saying good-bye to me. Geez, as important as that he must say Tah?

"Oh, yeah. Wait a minute, I'll take the money first. I can't cook for you. No way I can also take it there right!", I said as I moved from before him. But Febri's got me.

"I don't need that money. Udah, make it anytime nduk."

I turned around to face him again. Make sometime?

"What do you mean?"

"Every weekend, I come here. The house I've contracted for six months Nduk. It's a shame that it should be left alone."

I nodded in understanding.

"You mean, Alby's got another brother not to make you here?"

"Oh.git, it's nothing. I can be alone. Just calm down." anyway."

"The thing is you're pregnant, alone in this big house. Moreover, the distance of the neighbors is quite far. I worry you why-why. If mas is still at home, at least mas can be heard if you call or need something even though we are different houses. Well, if you go, you're really alone!"

O God, are you worried about me??? Even we have nothing to do. Is A Alby worried about me too???

"Eum.mas Febri don't have to worry about me. Just calm. I can take care of myself. Later I can ask his granddaughter Wak Mus to nemenin me."

Huh! Gimana want to ask the children of Asep kang, they're all in the hut. But, hopefully this does not make Febri worry about me excessively.

"Oh, that's good. I'm just afraid you're alone!"

"Thank you for worrying about me."

"Even if you say that we have nothing to do, you still consider you part of your life!"

"No need to talk macem-macem mas."

"Alby's motorbike I'm back, yes, later if I go home I just pinjem again."

"Yes, um."

Mas Febri also took Alby's motorbike at his home and pushed it up to the back porch.

"Eum.it's noon nduk. They leave yes. You're fine at home. Take care, Jang is tired."

"Mas, why are you exaggerating like that."

"Mas is just worried. He lost his wife and son at once. And.mas just don't want to feel that. That's why you take good care of yourself."

"But I'm nobody to you. So, sorry! it seems like your worry is overrated."

Again Febri sighed harshly in front of me.

"Time has passed, but my feelings have not changed. Mas do not know what will be like later, but ..if someday you are not able to live like this, I will be there for you Nduk."

"Just pray for the best for me."

Febri said nothing afterwards. He just looked at me. I don't know what's on his mind.

"Wouldn't you want seven o'clock, you don't go?", I asked to break the ice. It doesn't seem ethical if anyone sees us both quite intensely like this. Even if we don't do anything. But people's views and thoughts are different.

"Yes, I'm leaving. Anyway I just want to say, you have to take good care of yourself."

"Yes, God willing, protect me and my baby."

"By the road, Assalamualaikum!"

"Guil, be careful on the road."

He nodded and smiled faintly. After that, he entered his car parked next to my house.

He started the car and drove a little.

"Sir, if there's anything please don't hesitate to contact me!"

"Yes, um."

After that, the car and the car moved away from my house.

Just now I was about to enter the house, suddenly Wak Mus called me.

"Neng Bia?", call Wak Mus.

"Eh...Waw!"

"Yesterday, the commander of the farewell Wak. He said he wanted to work in the district. If the house is empty, mending you tea take Wak aja in Asep's house. Than here alone!", said wak Mus.

"Hehehe Wak, no Wak. How dare to be alone."

"But how many car neng, scarecrow in imah."

"Any calm. God willing, Bia can take care of herself. Oh yes Wak, want to coffee first?", I asked.

"Alim ah's. Arek ka kebon", Wak Mus said.

(Why not ah. Go to kebon)

"Oh nggeus atuh. Beware Wak, slippery abis ujan."

"Heuh!", said Wak Mus.

After Wak Mus's departure, I returned home.