Hold on or let go!

The Eps 204

"Mr!"

I looked at Anika who had just entered my room. He sat next to me and hugged me.

"Mba Bia is fine right?", he asked.

"Huum, you're fine!"

Anika leaned her head against my shoulder.

"I'm like Alby, mba!"

I nodded'', same!"

"The test is a lot mba. Forced to marry Silvy, split with mba Bia! His wife is now in a coma, and his son is still in treatment. Plus.om Tama died. He also has to take care of Tama's company, right?"

I let out a breath. I can't count anymore what's the sad thing Alby has to go through.

Why did I just realize after my separation how selfish I was? Just wanted to pursue my own happiness without thinking about what Alby was going through. He was more tortured than me. Why do I feel like I'm the only one here?

"Mba, cry?", asked Anika. I smiled faintly and nodded faintly.

"Only in a matter of months has everything changed, Dek!"

"I know, I'm like this because I still care about Alby."

I played Febri's ring. There's guilt in my chest. Whose heart is this for, God?

"Mba is not wrong! It's only natural that I still love Alby. Because you're basically separated because of your love that doesn't want to hurt each other."

Anika is this mature? My inner.

"But, mba is also not wrong if you want to move on and open a new sheet with Febri mas" continued Anika.

"Mba doesn't know what his own feelings are like, deck!"

"It does not have to be now to mean the feeling of mba in Alby or Febri mas! Time will answer everything."

I nodded faintly.

"Mba, I.tomorrow back to Jakarta!"

"Have your streets been satisfied?"

"There is no holiday spirit mba, brother Dim already nugas. Anyway ...Ika wants to see Silvy and his son too. The same..takziah om Tama."

Condolence? Do I need to be a takziah? After everything he's done to me?

"When are you guys leaving?"

"The plane was three in the afternoon!", replied Anika.

"Oh, later transfer to the village station. Get off at the new Turi market station to Juanda airport."

"Ngga ngerepotin mba Bia?"

"Ngga, deck!"

Anika lay herself in bed. Maybe he was tired after the holidays with Dimas last afternoon. Sure enough, he fell asleep in just a matter of minutes.

Until midnight I can't sleep. I chose to leave my room. I found Mas Sakti sitting at the dining table.

"Lho, haven't slept yet?", I asked.

"Can't sleep yet, Bi!", he said. How long does Bina get out of the room. Maybe hear my and Sakti's chat. I hope Bina doesn't get me wrong, let alone jealous of my rich widow.

"You can't sleep yet, too, Bina?", I asked Bina, who is now sitting next to her husband.

"Yes, probably because of the effects of drinking coffee this afternoon hehehe!"

"I'm sorry my house isn't comfortable!" I said bad.

"Eh, no Bi. It's not that!", it looks awful.

"It's a nice house to Bi, it's comfortable!", Bina chimed in.

"Thank God you feel comfortable."

The three of us were silent. Just the sound of a wall clock in the dining room.

"You.mau takziah om Tama tomorrow, before his body is brought to Jakarta?", asked Sakti.

I took a deep breath. Confused!

"Alby must be there!", I replied, which does not correspond to Sakti's question.

"Are you not ready to see Alby again?", asked Sakti. Bina who is less familiar with Alby also did not comment on it.

"We met a few days ago, when...Alby handed over my shareholding documents in HS group the same. building certificate homestay, you stayed there yesterday."

"So, um Tama handed it to you?", asked Sakti.

"I've rejected it, but it looks like Tama forced Alby to give it to me and I have to take it."

Silent! No more questions from Sakti.

"Last day, my neighbor said. There's a man who came here when we went to the waterfall."

"Who?"

"My neighbor doesn't know who, because he doesn't have his name. But.he's nanya where the father's tomb!"

After saying that, my throat choked.

"Until the end.the father says, find Tama in the headstone!"

I don't know why I shed my tears. Guilt or what it is, I don't know.

"If I had met him this afternoon and knew he was going to die, I might have forgiven him."

"Astaghfirullah!", muttered the couple. Bina moved the seat next to me, gently rubbing my shoulders.

"You're not wrong, Bi! It was his destiny like that!", said Bina pacifyingly. Even though we only met again after their marriage, I felt that I was a good match for Bina. Maybe because of his age.

"I'm trying to forgive him, Bina. Although difficult!"

My tears are melting again.

"The mistake was too fatal. He's ruined everything I've got. Though he actually just wanted to take his revenge the same Mak Titin. But I was sacrificed by his arrogant nature. Me and Alby became victims of selfishness om Tama hiks...hiks....!"

Bina hugged me so tightly. I just want to spill all the flavors in my chest.

How tight!!!!

"When you say you don't forgive Tama, things don't change Bi. You and Alby already have their own lives right now" Sakti said.

"Yes, I forgive the deceased om Tama!", I said.

"Maybe, I'm sorry you could have slightly stretched out his grave. We will all be held accountable someday!"

I nodded slowly.

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Alby's at the hospital. It turns out that in the hospital there are already some branch employees who standby there. They greeted Alby politely. Alby himself is still fussy with his work shirt that he still wears because after from the office he immediately slid into this city.

Alby went to the doctor and the police who handled this.

"Dok, I'm Alby! Son-in-law of the deceased!", said Alby greeting doctors and police.

"Yes, Mr. Alby."

"How is the chronology, sir? She why? This morning he was fine!" said Alby.

Police first told about the discovery of Hartama's body found on a tombstone by grave pilgrims.

Then, the doctor himself told about the results of the examination which was the cause of Hartama's death.

"So, my papa...had heart failure?", asked Alby.

"Rubber sir. He also suffered from stroke and hypertension" doctors said.

What are you doing on your headstone??? Why did he have to die on his best friend's grave??? Alby massaged his temple.

"Thank you doc, sir!", Alby told doctors and police.

Alby's men offered Alby a drink that looked very yes.

"Mr just rest, let us take care of everything sir. You must be tired!", said one employee.

"You guys go home and rest. You must be tired too!", said Alby. Inevitably, they also obeyed the orders of his superiors.

"Oh yes, sir! This is the deceased's suitcase that the hotel brought here."

Alby received the suitcase and an envelope bearing the name 'BIA'.

Papa wrote a letter to Bia??? Does he know if he's leaving today??? Inner Alby.

But Alby kept the envelope. Maybe he'll give it to Bia next time.

A nurse walks in front of Alby.

"Sus, may I see my father's body?", asked Alby to the nurse.

"You can ask the mortuary attendant, sir, not my authority!", replied the nurse.

I also approached 'mas-mas' who served there. And sure enough, the mas led me to the morgue. Papa's condition is neat with his shroud.

"It's already in sholati mas, but tomorrow morning if mas or relatives want to greet the deceased is also okay!" said the officer.

"Thank you!" said Alby.

The handsome man opened the cover of his father-in-law's face. Face's turning blue. Perhaps the cause of death was related to heart disease.

"Yes, thank you!", Alby came out of the mortuary.

"Mas, where's the mushola? I want to rest for a while. Can everything be taken care of? I will take care of his administration."

"Okay sir!", replied the officer.

Alby walked to the hospital mosque, but before that he turned towards the minimarket.

He bought clothes and toiletries. To be able to pray after cleaning. Fortunately, in the minimarket it provides clothing.

After cleaning himself, alby also prayed in the mushola. He was still thinking until he finally got tired and fell asleep.

Azan at dawn woke Alby because there were worshipers who poked his body.

Alby rubbed his eyes. In fact, he just closed his eyes two hours ago.

Alby cleansed himself and then wudhu, join the morning worship service.

Afterwards, he returned to the mortuary courtyard. He went to the officer who took care of his father-in-law's body.

"God willing, around seven o'clock, the ambulance is ready to deliver the body to Jakarta sir!", said the officer.

"Thank you!", I took care of the administration first!

Alby went to the administration room. It's still pretty dark, but the employees are still on standby there.

After administering his administration, Alby intended to head to the cafeteria. He hasn't eaten since yesterday afternoon.

In the cafeteria, Alby drank only warm tea and torn bread to fill his stomach. Actually no appetite to eat, but he is well aware if he needs energy.

The handsome man had already stuffed his dirty clothes into his father-in-law's suitcase. Wallets and some pieces of cash belonging to the deceased were neatly stored in the small suitcase.

Alby finished his drink in silence. His mind branched out into many things. He squeezed his own head.

Oh God, not enough testing from you? Alby Mumbles.

After finishing her breakfast, Alby returned to the mortuary. It turns out that there is already a doctor who handles Hartama and there are some people who may deliberately serve until finally he found a woman who may be.

Alby walked slowly towards the crowd of people.

"Alby!", call sakti. Alby smiled faintly and then greeted Alby and hugged Alby for a moment while patting the handsome man on the shoulder.

"We are so sorry!", said Sakti representing his wife and sister.

Lek Sarman and lek Dar, Asih and Anton, as well as Pak Bambang and Bu Sri take turns to greet Alby.

I was glued to where I stood. I'm confused what to do! Is this difficult to emigrate??? Slow down Bia, slowly you can!

I approached Alby who looked very tangled with his eyes. I know he's tired, physically tired of heart! Tired everything!

"According to my condolences A!", I said I had to stretch out my hand. Alby looked at me with a look I couldn't interpret.

Grep!!!!

My eyes were wide when our bodies met. Alby hugged me so tightly. No one dared to break his embrace even if it was Lek Sarman.

Is this natural??

I faintly heard him sobbing softly on my shoulder. Maybe since last night he tried to be strong, not shed his tears. At the moment he is unable to, perhaps!

She spilled her weight with a cry on my shoulder. Spontaneous, I rubbed his back. My heart was also sliced to see him sob.

"Prophe A, God willing Aa can get through it all!", I tried to calm her down.

Slowly our embrace loosened. I realize I was wrong! We shouldn't have physical contact like this anymore.

"Sorry!", Alby wiped his tears.

"Yes!", I replied briefly.

"Pardon all the mistakes of the deceased yes Neng. Aa know, a thousand apologies won't be able to change things the way they used to!"

Alby looked the other way. Don't wanna look me in the eye.

"I've forgiven him A!", I said.

"Thank you!", said Alby.

"How's Mak doing?", I asked.

"Mommy.may still be in shock. Aa accidentally didn't activate the phone. I don't want to be asked the same Mak. Mak is tired enough to take care of Silvy and Nabil alternately. Mak must be tired!"

Huh! Bia, patient Bia... patient... look.... Your situation is much better! Thank you for the current situation, Bia. They are facing the bitterness of life!

"Hopefully Silvy is immediately aware of her coma A. And so with Nabil, hopefully he will be healthy. And... You can face everything. Moreover...Aaa! Aa has to be strong, for all of them!", my chest is very tight saying that. Stuck for reasons I don't know why???

Alby opened the suitcase bearing the name Bia, which Hartama handwritten.

"The hotel attendant found this envelope in papa's room!", Alby held out the envelope to me.

I also received an envelope that said my name. After that, I read the paper inside the envelope.

*For Bia....

If it's in your hands, it means it's not here. Actually, I want to apologize to you directly. If necessary, get down on your knees and even kiss your feet Bia.

Om realized, om's mistake was fatal to you Bia. Everything you have will not be able to buy your apologies.

Sorry.sorry..sorry....

That's all I can say. I hope you forgive me. Thanks though.

Xxxxxx*

I folded the paper. It says the date of last month. Did he feel that he was going to leave this world soon?

I took a slow breath to neutralize my feelings.

"I've forgiven Tama, A! May God open his grave!"

"Aamiin..!", cried all of them.

My mother approached me and rubbed one of my shoulders.

"You want to go to the ambulance?", asked sakti. Alby nodded.

"I'm with you. My wife was on a plane alone! We have negotiated it!", said Sakti. Alby stared fixedly at Sakti.

"Thank you!", said Alby. Sakti just nodded slowly. Sakti knows, Alby needs a friend to talk especially along the way to Jakarta is quite far away. He will be lonely later.

"You call the family there! In order to prepare everything!", said Sakti again.

Parents say goodbye first. I'm staying because I'm taking Anika and Sabrina to the station.

Alby activated his phone. The number of incoming chat from business partners and also family at home.

But the call from the hospital number caught his attention. Up to chat from Mang Sapto.

[Where By? When is the body brought home? There is bad news]

[Non Silvy condition decreased By]

[Why not active By? Your mother panicked]

[Non Silvy conditions are getting worse. Activate your phone!!]

Alby rubbed his face rough. Then after that, he contacted Mang Sapto.

Grateful, Silvy's condition is stable again. There's a little relief in Alby's heart. At least Alby knows if ...silvy still survives to this day.

"Why A?"

"Silvy's condition got worse last night!" Alby said. I can see how heavy a burden Alby has to bear! And I left him!!!!

Ambulance is ready to go. Alby and Sakti also entered the ambulance. While Anika and Anika and Bina got into my car drove to the station.

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