Hold on or let go!

The Eps 205

I drove my car to the big station in my town. Anika was sitting on the passenger seat, while Bina was beside me.

Anika may not have been very well last night due to fatigue walking around, so she just got in the car for a while when she went back to sleep.

"Bye..."

I looked at Bina's call.

"Yes?"

"You regret leaving Alby?", asked Bina.

I sighed softly, wrapping my hand around the round thing.

"I don't regret my decision to part ways with Alby, Bin! It's just....."

"Just...what?" asked Bina.

"I just feel like a selfish woman. Think of my own happiness."

"Bless yourself, not something Bi needs to blame!"

"Yes, but...."

"Bi, you've made the right decision. I don't know much about your past. But from my point of view, the steps you took were correct. If you're still with Alby, you're just in a toxic relationship. Except.kalo you are sincerely sharing!"

I'm shaking.

"The main reason I split from Alby is because I can't share Bin. Although I actually know, we both still choose each other's taste. But..I realize, for now.I'm no longer entitled to Alby, so is this feeling."

Bina looked towards the road ahead.

"But you're opening your heart to Febri, aren't you?"

"Maybe...! I. feel comfortable with her. But.. For now, I can't determine my comfort with Febri is purely because I've opened my heart to her or! I still need a lot of time to forget everything."

Bina smiled thinly.

"There's nothing you can forget about Bia, as long as you haven't carved out new memories to bury your old memories! Was it during the time you were married to Alby, you had completely forgotten everything Febri had to do?"

I turned to the woman who now bears the status of Madam Sakti Wibisono. At the same time Bina looked back, staring at her snoring sister-in-law that subtly signified that she was really asleep.

"Not completely!", I replied.

"I feel the same way, Bi. If it is true someday, Dimas is really married to Anika. You must understand how I feel."

I pressed my fingers on the steering wheel. Bina right, memories are still memories that will not be easy to forget but also do not always have to be remembered so that what happens in the future is not in the shadow of the past.

"Febri loves you so much, Bia! If he really wants to take you from Alby, he's done it a long time ago, hasn't he? He won't bother to hear the words of others who consider him a suitor or wait for your widow! He's just thinking about how to make you smile again."

"How do you know?", I asked.

"You know for yourself, what my husband's closeness to Febri was like. Two people who both want to make you happy, it's just that now mas Sakti has turned to me heheheh!"

I chuckle softly. At a serious time like this, Bina still had a slow laugh. Bina is the same age as me, maybe from there he has a perspective that is not much different from me. Maybe!

My car has entered the station area. Anika had been up since ten minutes ago before the car actually reached the station.

"When you arrive, will you please tell me?", I said to Anika and Bina.

"Yes, you also have to take care of yourself. Keep heart! Make Febri mas!", said Bina.

"God willing!", I replied.

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In other parts of the world, soldiers in conflict zones were on guard at all times.

"The time to pray, have not prayed bro?", asked someone who is none other than Seto. Yes, he was involved in the mission.

Febri nodded faintly.

"Udah!", he answered briefly.

"Lo was confused to contact Bia, but couldn't?", asked Seto. Febri.

"Prophey! I am also engaged to Naya Kali Bro!", said Seto.

"Heum, yes I believe!", he said.

Seto nudged Febri's arm as Amara approached the two handsome men.

"Gue pull out Bro!", whispered Seto.

"Don't*ego!", said Febri slowly but with great emphasis.

Finally, Seto still remained seated beside Febri.

"Siang Kapt, Let?!", said Amara to the two handsome men. Both are at the same time.

"Just like Lettu Amara!"

"May join?", asked Amara. Febri and Seto looked at each other.

"Please!", said Seto. Febri elbowed Seto's arm. The man just grimaced a little. Febri was actually disturbed by Amara's presence, because she was in a confiding session with Seto, her best friend!

"Bother you?", asked Amara again.

"No!", said the two. But in their hearts 'bothers, why does everything happen?'

He disliked it in quotation marks, like Amara's example of her never getting tired of chasing Febri long ago.

"Yes, we are good friends Let!", said Seto. Febri agreed with a nod.

Amara nodded slowly. Actually he wanted to say something to Febri, but it seems Seto's presence makes him reluctant to express what he wants to convey to Febri.

"It's lucky?" said Amara.

What the hell? Really GaJe, Inner Febri. I don't know how else he's avoiding Amara. Febri actually did not want to hurt verbally let alone physically, but it seems Amara was quite stubborn.

"Luckily! And God willing, our future wife will also be good friends. Like we are Feb!", said Seto pat Febri on the shoulder as he lowered his eyebrows with his trademark rancid smile.

"Hehe yes, Naya and Bia will be best friends too like us Bro!"

Amara's nose kembis kempis hear the speech of the two friends. Finally with a bit of really stale base, Amara left the two dashing men.

After Amara had completely left, the two were blown away.

"Tega Lo nolak mulu son of a person, kasian tuh!", said Seto.

"Heh, you have it. nyakitin verbally!", said Febri not to lose.

"My shell? Lha...have known that my mouth lemes, why can't you just try??" said Seto again.

"Au ah lap!", said Febri ketus.

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Alby and Sakti sit next to Hartama's corpse which has been wrapped in a shroud. The two men didn't seem afraid at all?

"Have you eaten yet?" asked Sakti to Alby. Alby shaking.

"Why didn't you eat first?"

"Gue again males eat Sak!"

"But Lo needs power By. From here to Jakarta it takes a very long time!", said Sakti.

"Gue ain't eating sak!"

Sakti sighed. Wealthy guy, why doesn't Alby rent a plane? Let's get to Jakarta soon?? But.sakti did not want to talk like that.Maybe Alby did deliberately choose this transportation.

"Later, break the prayer and eat! You must be strong for Mak Titin who is waiting for the deceased at home."

"Huum, I'll eat!', said Alby without enthusiasm. Sakti no longer talks about Alby.

"Gue didn't expect it to be like this Sak!", Alby said suddenly. Sakti looks at Alby.

"Everything feels like a dream, a nightmare coming at me! Same time Bia, okay a few months ago. But that nightmare changed everything."

Sakti pats Alby's shoulder slowly. He still wants to hear Alby's complaint. This is what is really thinking, Alby would need a friend to talk even once just to listen to complaints and all his chatter.

"Gue knows Lo is strong By. You can definitely face all this. What you have to think about now is Lo's wife's son, also Mak Titin. They need Lo, so Lo has to be passionate for them."

Alby looked at the doctor who was now a friend to him.

"Don't waste Bia's sacrifice, By!"

Alby lowered his head, squeezing his fingers on his knees.

"Yes, right!"

"Lo has to be sincere in living all this By!"

Alby raised his face and looked up.

"Gue is trying Sak!", Sakti again pats Alby on the shoulder.

The mood was silent again.

"Lo know, if Febri's parents have proposed to Bia?", asked Sakti. Alby who was about to be closed now straightened his back.

"Applying to Bia?", asked Alby. Sakti nods.

"Huum. Actually, Febri's on border duty. But.yeah.gthat's the point. He took the time to meet Bia just wanted to say happy birthday to Bia."

Alby swallowed the saliva! Bia's birthday? He alone can't remember! Even as long as Alby and Bia get to know each other, Alby never even celebrates Bia's birthday. Or, to be more precise, you may not remember the date.

"Febri only intends to give a gift of a ring to Bia. But before he gives her the ring, his lek keburu brings Bia in. So yeah, Febri canceled giving it to Bia. And he forgot to keep it in his pants pocket until finally, his mother found the ring. That's it, Febri's parents who were upset to ask Bia to be his daughter-in-law on Bia's lek."

"Have you accepted the proposal?", asked Alby.

Sakti smiled faintly.

"Yes, the ring is already on Bia's ring finger. But. for sure when they will get married, do not know. Especially now, Febri served abroad. In a place where there really is a war!", Sakti explained.

That easy you forget about Aa Neng???

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