Hold on or let go!

The Eps 11

Febri chatted with Cecep all the way home, there were also some neighbors who were in the same direction but around the corner they were separated. Febri and Cecep are left.

"It's Bia's cooking, right?", asked Febri.

"Yes, this afternoon I said to the commander if Bia helped cook in my house."

"Yes, she is talented in the culinary field. Like his late father. If you know Cep, in the village there Bia has a pretty crowded food stall. But now it's managed the same Mr. Lik."

"Sir Lik?", Cecep parroted.

"His father's brother!", said Febri.

"But Neng Bia is amazing Ndan."

"Yes. What I wonder is why he can survive in such a state. I'm sorry, I didn't mean anything. Had he wanted to, he could have lived a much more decent life now."

"Yes.that's the incredible neng Bia. Actually if the commander did not say neng Bia people were mah, I would not say gini."

"What?"

"Maybe.neng Bia it's more comfortable here. Living happily with her husband and in-laws. In the village there may be her treasures are abundant, but who knows there are other reasons that make her not want to be there other than because she wants to serve her husband."

"Yes..maybe so Cep!"

The two had already entered the courtyard of Mak Titin's house.

Tok.dok...

"Assalamualaikum!", the two dashing men knocked on the door of Mak Titin's house.

I heard the knocking of the door coming out. Mak who finished the prayer isya immediately sleep because drowsiness after taking the medicine.

"Moskalamic. Yes sakedeng!", I said. I also put up my bergo before opening the door.

When the door opened how surprised I was, it turned out that there were kang Cecep and mas Febri standing in front of the door.

"Assalamualaikum neng!", said Cecep. And Febri just kept looking at me.

"Moskalamic. Kang Cecep!", he's the only one I greet.

"Punten neng, cheque Salamah mah neng Bia moal mawa sangu!", kang Cecep handed me a rice box and a crackle.

(Sorry neng, said Salamah neng Bia tea does not want to bring rice)

"It's so ngerepotin ya kang!", I said not so good but I still received his helping hand.

"Hatur nohun kang!", I continued.

"Sami-sami neng!", replied Cecep.

Then we all fell silent.

"Oh yes, someone wants to be obrolin. Can you take a sip?", asked Cecep.

"What is kang talking about?", I asked confused. The problem is that as long as I'm neighbors with her, I just say hello to each other is never this familiar.

"Can you come in?", now Febri asks. I hesitated to answer. How unethical it is to include another man when my husband is not home. But. Is it not both? What's the time? There is no strange relationship, besides the door of the house is also opened.

"Em.yeah, please come in!", I went back into the living room and let them sit down.

"So soon, I'll take this food first."

I also went into the kitchen.

It turns out there is Mak.

"Who's neng?" ask Mak.

"Kang Cecep as his commander, anterin besek Mak."

"Oh, yeah, make a drink. It's not good to bother nganterin here."

I was silent for a moment.

"Miss?"

"Ah, yes Mak. Make me drink first."

"Yes, Go to the room again. Thirsty with kebelet too. Mah Mak is heavy."

"Yes Mommy."

I brought two glasses of sweet tea and I put them in front of Febri and Cecep.

"It was Ngarepotkeun neng Bia!" said Cecep.

"No bother, just water!"

"Thank you!", said Febri. I just nodded.

"What does Cecep want obrolin?", I asked.

"I am the commander who spoke?", asked Cecep to the handsome man next to him.

Lho....? How do I feel so bad if it has something to do with him?

"You are a cep!", said Febri.

Febri took a deep breath.

Why don't you talk to yourself, Inner Asep.

"So gini neng. Last time we were on our way home, we were both talking tea."

I heard it carefully.

"Neng Bia there are two motorcycles yes, have kang Alby kang kang not in use. Couldn't it be if his bike kang Alby tea is bought or rented like my commander?"

I knit my eyebrows?

"The commander is only temporarily here neng, could have bought a motorbike but if you know-know in the move is reassigned dear or the motor is ge. Most commanders bring a car, but know for yourself if access here is a bit difficult if you use a car mah."

Yes, but why A Alby?

Indeed, A Alby motor is Vi***n. I also can not use, since in living to the city I never even panned at all.

"Eum.gimana ya kang, I asked Aa first yes. It's nothing...Ndan?", how do I stammer. Febri and Cecep looked at it for a moment.

"Yes.nga anything, neng Bia will have to discuss first with Alby."

I also nodded.

"Just one more neng!", said Cecep.

"Naon kang?", I asked.

"But saben dinten neng Bia masakin commander tiasa teu?"

"meaning?"

"I mean tea.jasa keming gitu neng. Kan knows for myself, my commander is single!", said Cecep.

Single from where, I don't think I know if he's married first!

"Kunaon?", asked Cecep. Along with Febri.

"Kenopo nduk?", asked Febri.

Even though it means the same thing as Cecep said, but for now for me the call is not worth saying to me.

"Nothing" I refused.

"I'm jeh mengeneng your cooking!" said Febri with a smile.

Ummm....Cecep. Febri also felt shunned. His eyes immediately stared intently at that subordinate of his. Cecep who was looked at like a sword that drew his eyes was also scared.

"Whatever Bia neng cooks, surely the commander is doyan really. Is it Ndan?", asked Cecep pretentiously though deg-degan with the gaze of his commander's eagle.

"Yes!", said Febri casually.

"Try later Bia discussion is also the same Aa who kang Cecep, mmmas Febri!", I said again stuttered.

Is that her husband's consul first??? Febri's mind was upset.

"Oh.ya no what the hell neng. Good is mah?!", said Cecep. But again Febri looked at him spookily. And the end of Cecep was down.

"Sorry kang, anyone else wants to be obrolin?", I asked.

"Well po takok Cecep wae, don't you think me?", asked Febri.

(Why ask Cecep, don't you ask me?)

I looked up at Febri who seemed a little tense.

"Kan Awit would be represented by kang Cecep!"

(Kan from earlier represented kang Cecep!)

"Saiki I sing arep takok mbi koe nduk!"

(Now I will ask you)

Cecep who did not understand our language also chose silence.

"Tanyao!", I said.

"Well po koe lungo mbiyen kae? Not pamit mas, opo abasie?"

(Why did you leave, no pun, what was the reason?)

"Sing wis Yo wis mas. I've been in the past."

(That's it already. .it's the past already)

"I know nduk yo, mas gur wants to understand excuse opo. Iku tok!"

"The reason for the opo toh mas? Pokok'e kita Iki wes bar. No matter opo-opo neh!", I was upset.

"Ga maybe you'll leave me alone if there's no reason for Nduk!"

Ah, well.gitu kek use the unifying base of the nation. Will understand their chatter, Inner Cecep.

"Five years is not a moment? Nemenin I'm from downstairs, but when I started up why did you leave?"

Cecep realized there were memories of the past they were facing.

"That's the best thing. If I hadn't left, you might not be what you are today."

"What do you mean?", asked Febri again.

"I don't pantes for you. I was born into a broken and immoral family. I'm just a woman from the ordinary, will not be able to be faithful as a soldier's wife like you!", I replied annoyed.

That sentence is like....? Febri was remembering something.

"So the soldier's wife is not easy, you have to be ready to live anywhere while you are on duty. And I'm not such a tough woman!", I said growing more emotional.

Febri shook his head slowly.

"The book that says that?", asked Febri.

I don't feel like my tears just escaped. Why should it be revealed now, is it Allah....????

"Nduk airport? What was my mother's talk that made you back off?", Febri recalls.

"Home home, it's night!", I asked.

"I'm not going home until you explain. Right now you are married. I will not disturb your home either. I just want to know what made you leave me. That's all!"

"What is his current influence?"

Cecep just stared confused at the two people who had been in a romance first.

"Of course there is. So that I learn from the misunderstandings in the past. So that I don't repeat the same mistakes that made my loved ones go away!"

"Istighfar mas, you're a married man!", I said.

"You know I'm married?"

"Yes, I know the mas. Even your wife I know, she's top. Not like me!"

"So you also know that Ayesha died during the covid outbreak yesterday?", asked Febri.

The deg!

Suddenly there was a bad feeling.

"Aisha died with our baby while she was doing her job."

"Inalilahi wa innailaihi rajiun", said lirih.

"I'll learn from all my past mistakes Bia. Please explain it to me. Although for you right now nothing changes, but not for me!"

"Yes.your mother forbade me to continue our relationship at that time."

Febri.

So, is that right my guess? Inner Febri.

"Have heard my answer, sorry, said Cecep. Please take Febri home. It's already night. Besides it seems unethical I receive male guests when my husband is not at home."

After saying hello, they both said goodbye.

I lay my body on the bed. I grabbed my phone. There was a misscalled from my husband. I finally called him back.

[Assynualaikum A!]

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