Hold on or let go!

The Eps 180

In the end, that moment came. When a decision that will change my future, ah. Our future. May the pain pass and be forgotten with new memories to be created. And let it be, the time we have passed will be a story that will be remembered that we were once happy together.

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Since last night I have had a hard time sleeping. Any position can't make me feel comfortable. How can I calm down? This morning is the first hearing of my lawsuit against Alby. Is everything going to go well? Is Alby coming?

"Mother!", lek Dar knocked on my bedroom door.

"Lek, not in the key!", I said from the room.

Lek Dar went into my room. He approached me and sat on the edge of my bed.

"Not yet dawn prayer?", asked Lek Dar.

"No, Lek! Can't sleep all night!", I answered while yawning.

Lek Dar rubbed my head with his hair still disheveled.

"Just the same thought?", he asked again. I nodded slowly.

"Is he coming, Lek?"

"Why is that?"

I'm shaking. Lek Dar grabbed me in his arms.

"You still want to rethink? If yes, do it! it's not too late!"

Hufft. Although I love Alby very much, but I can't afford to have to go through our marriage which is not in line.

"Lek Without! I don't want to change my mind anymore. This decision is best for us."

I heard Lek Dar's breath because I was leaning my head against his chest.

"Yes, you better pray now. Let's just be quieter." I'm nodding.

"You're done, breakfast later. Lek wait! Oh, it's five o'clock past. Abis hunt at dawn!", said Lek Dar.

"Yes lek!"

Lek Dar came out of my room. I got up from the bed to the bathroom to clean up and prepare for the morning prayer.

Do not forget I pray that everything will be launched and also.may I be strengthened to live it later.

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Alby and Om Hotma have arrived at a hotel not far from the staycation that is being worked on by HS group.

Hotma, who is in fact Hartama's lawyer, grieves to accompany Alby. And Alby himself does not mind if Hotma om with him.

"Of!"

"Yes?", said Hotma. They were in the cafeteria of the hotel where they were staying.

"What...the chance to fix our marriage still exists?", Alby asked Hotma.

"You have that chance, but will Bia give it to you? That's the important point because Bia filed the lawsuit."

"But...."

Hotma pats Alby on the shoulder. He tried to convince Alby to be ready for the consequences.

"If you were in your position, you would be just as confused. But if viewed from the position of Bia, om also will not be able to. He's been able to get this far is also an amazing thing."

"Bia is no longer not in love with you. He was just trying to make things a lot easier. Precisely because he loves you, he chose this act."

Alby shaking.

"By, Bia just wants you to be free from your guilt that always hurts Bia and Silvy at the same time. He prefers to give up, so that he can see the man he loves is not a loser because of the injustice to his wife and future children."

Alby gulped his saliva down violently. Really so???

"You see love from a different perspective. You love the same Bia and are obsessed with having Bia completely without knowing what kind of feelings Bia is depressed because of your marriage and Silvy. But Bia, she loves you in her own way without ever having you again."

Alby was increasingly clueless with the sentences Hotma said. His mind was already tightly shut to listen to what was not to his liking.

"According to what Bia wants. With you letting go, you have a chance to see the person you love happy even though it's no longer you who makes him happy."

Hotma stood up from her stool, then prepared to step up.

"PA's from here pretty far, right? We leave in half an hour. Prepare yourself!", Hotma told Alby. Hotma herself is actually kasian on Alby who is in a difficult position like this. But according to Hotma's view, Alby's decision to release Bia was the best.

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"Are you ready?", asked Lek Sarman. He will accompany me there later. I took a deep breath and then I exhaled.

"It's gone!", I replied. It turns out that in the yard there is already my father and also my lawyer.

"Mr?"

"Yes, you also want to accompany your eldest son!", replied Anton with a smile.

I have to be strong. They are the ones who love me.

'Bismillah!' muttered.

We used the same car, Mr. Kalingga's car.

There was no chatter between me and the passengers of the car all the way to the PA office. Just a chat between the father and Mr. Kalingga and the occasional lek Sarman.

Our car arrived at the office yard which is dominated by green and light yellow which tends to be rather white.

Clearly we were in an agency I had never been to. And it never even happened if I was going to be here.

The car has stopped, Mr. Kalingga and the father have gone down first. Me and Lek Sarman sitting on the passenger bench were still there.

"Nduk?", lek Sarman rubbed my shoulder. I'm nervous! Really, really nervous!

"Is this really happening Lek? Is it just a dream?", I asked as I looked at the middle-aged man who became my legal guardian.

Lek Sarman holds both of my shoulders.

"Keep assured, all will be well! You can definitely get through all of Nduk! It's the best decision. And you do alby too. After that, your relationship will also be much better."

"We're going down lek!", I said. Lek Sarman opened the door, and so did I. I put my foot down in this PA office. After I was completely outside the car, I inhaled a lot of air. Trying to strengthen myself. It's the best decision! This is what should have happened a few months ago! Is this too much? Like the women in the novels I read?

I opened my eyes slowly. Lek Sarman is standing next to me.

"You are strong!", said Lek Sarman. I nodded faintly. Trying to smile but not crying. I put my feet together with Lek Sarman, until someone suddenly ambushed me from behind.

"Neng!", he said shrieked right behind my ear.

The deg!! My heart is racing faster.

This voice, this touch, this body scent, belongs to him whom I love so much.

"Sorry Aa neng!", he whispered again. I could not reply to his words, suddenly Lek Sarman pulled me from his arms.

Sreeett. Lek Sarman's face turned fierce. I know what his emotions are like, Lek Sarman, just pulled him away from Alby.

"You..!", Sarman accused in front of Alby.

"Udah lek, we're in!", take me to Lek Sarman. Forcing him to move on from Alby. I. I don't want to look at Alby's handsome face again. And grateful, lek Sarman would obey me.

"By! Not everything happens the same as we want. You know, you love your father. But please, let Bia go!", Anton patted his future daughter-in-law on the shoulder. After that, he followed Bia and Sarman accompanied by Kalingga.

Alby himself with Hotma just stared at the backs away.

"Come!", take Hotma.