Hold on or let go!
The 114 eps
Alby went back to his nursery. Actually, he really wanted to accompany Bia. But maybe not for now.
It was early in the morning, but Alby still could not close his eyes anymore.
"Tos hudang maneh By?", asked Mila tea.
(Have you woken up?)
"Teu tiasa sare tea!", replied Alby still with his gaze to the ceiling of his room.
(Ga can sleep tea)
"Oh...thinking about Bia lin?"
Mila got up from her stool.
"Muhun tea. It's the neng, teh!", said Alby with teary eyes.
(Yes tea. Kasian the neng, tea)
"Prophey or jang. Insha Allah ngke ge di bere deui ku Gusti Allah."
(Propay Jang. Insha Allah will also be loved again with Gusti Allah)
No more word from Alby.
May the occasion be Tea, inwardly Alby.
"The first dawn prayer!" said Mila tea, bidding out of Alby's room. Alby nodded thinly. Mila tea prefers the dawn prayer in the hospital mosque than in this room.
Alby looked at the gurney next to him. His young wife still closed her eyes. His face is still pale. In her young age which is still early twenties she must feel so pregnant women.
Alby grabs her phone, tries to call Bia.
I've been sitting in my gurney. Mak had also woken up, even giving me the warm tea that Febri bought earlier before dawn.
"Thank you, I've wanted to keep me and Mak up all night."
Mak agreed.
"Thank you, Febri."
"Together Nduk, Mother."
That dashing guy throws a smile at me and Mak.
"I'm sorry, but I went straight home. Today there's an apple in the base. So, can't nemenin Bia. God willing, Ika's anterin will run out, I'm here again."
"Do not force it. You're busy! I'm nothin. There's Mak who's really cool!"
"Yes to Febri. Don't worry, there's Mak. Alby seems to be getting better!"
Checkmate!
Who's Lo Feb??? Febri forced himself to smile.
"Yes Mak!"
I know Mak's remark offended Febri and it seems like Mak didn't realize that.
"Yes already, later if indeed Ika there is no lecture, bring it here. If there's Ika, the atmosphere is rame."
Febri's smile came out.
"Yes Nduk! If so, I say yes, Mak. Nduk!", Febri shakes Mak's hand.
But hesitated to touch me. Yeah, you shouldn't, should you?
My dear it was just in my mind. Febri's hand stretched out rubbing my head.
"Reply recover!", said Febri with a smile.
"Assalamualaikum!", his farewell.
"Walaikumsalam!", said me and Mak.
After Febri's death, Mak took my hand.
"Neng, can you ask?"
I looked into hazel's eyes.
"Naon Mak?"
"Did you go to Alby's room yesterday?"
I was silent for a moment. Then nod.
"Is it because you saw Silvy inside, in the same room with Alby?"
I nodded again.
"Can you tell Mak what it is that makes you like this?"
Slowly I let go of Mak's hand.
"Neng, neng already considered neng Mak's own biological child. All that is natural is also because of Mak. So please, tell Mak. You will feel guilty as well. I've been trying to act like nothing. But Mak can't. Make Mak, it's like a real child Mak."
The fifty-year-old looked down, I saw a tear on her cheek. Maybe he wanted to talk to me from yesterday. But, Febri's existence undoes his intentions.
I haven't told you yet, my door is open. Alby came into my room.
My eyes and Alby's meet each other. Is there love in our eyes?
"Neng!", Alby greeted me near the gurney.
"Yes, Mom come out first. You guys just talk. Neng will tell Mak?", said Mak rubbing my head. I nodded slowly.
Now, Alby and I are just the two of you in this room.
Alby almost touched my hand, but I dodged it. I heard a breath coming from my husband's mouth.
He sat himself on the edge of the gurney, sitting opposite me.
"Where is neng? Is it better?", asked Alby quietly.
"Yes." Yeah."
I answer briefly. I turned my face the other way. Really, I don't want to feel shaky after looking into his eyes.
Alby put both his hands on my face.
"Look at Aa!", force alby. Inevitably, I looked at him. But just a few seconds. I mean to lower his hand off my cheek. But in fact, Alby's hands are pretty strong perched comfortably on my chubby cheeks.
"Can I tell you the same story? There must be something that makes a neng like this? Does this have anything to do with Aa?", asked Alby while looking me in the eye.
"For what is Aa still here? Why not just accompany Silvy? he needs you more, not me!"
"Neng..!", said Alby lirih even very soft.
"Let's split up A!", I said as I removed Alby's hand from my cheek. The coverage slowly decays from my cheek without me being forced like that.
"Don't like talking like that!"
"I don't care whether I like it or not. For sure, I just want us to separate. Enough to get here!"
"What does neng mean? Don't bother! We promise to fix everything. Aa knows you're disappointed, you're sad to lose our future son. Aa understand neng! But don't talk like this!", Alby clasped my hand.
"There are no promises. Stop promising. Enough of you to break your promise with me. But not Silvy and your child-to-be!"
"What the hell do you mean?", Alby still asked that unimportant question.
"I heard A, consciously heard it! I think our farewell is the best. Silvy will get what he wants. So did you! You don't bother to think about how to be fair to both your wives. No need for an A!"
"You will never leave Silvy and your son. That's your promise! So, please very, very, I am A!", I continued.
"Miss! I told you, until anytime Aa won't be ningalin neng!"
"But I'll go!", I said in my loud voice.
"Enough neng!"
"What's? Wh why? You want me to stay in this toxic relationship? Ngga! If you really love me A, you should ngijinin I happy A. Not rich gini!"
After venting my emotions, I was stunned in alby's embrace. The chest of someone who has been the most comfortable place but now is precisely the cause of my heartache.
"Ngga neng, don't ever talk like that. Neng knows, Aa love is just as neng. Same darling neng! Please don't ever say goodbye to Aa again."
For a moment we kept quiet. Until I finally said something that might hurt both of us.
"Maybe it's God's way of giving answers to what my questions have been. Maybe HE took it from my womb to make me realize we can't be together. There's no longer any reason I should stick with our marriage!"
Alby's chest holding. He had no idea that his first wife would think that way.
"Enough neng! The child is a fortune, and we will definitely get it again. Don't talk like that anymore. Aa please!"
"She's gonna have a kid soon, but not from me."
"Neng!", snapped Alby.
"I'm tired of A. I surrender!"
That's what Alby heard last night when his wife was with Febri.
"Please neng. Give Aa a chance to prove it...."
"Enough A! Enough's enough!"
"neng..!", Alby tried to grab my shoulder but I dodged it.
"I'll file a divorce lawsuit soon. Please Aa wants to try to make it harder by hiding my documents or whatever it is. I have money, I can pay a lawyer to get everything done!"
Alby's heart paled. Just this time he heard his wife bragging that he had the power of money. Unlike her who was just an ordinary person, but acted as if she had everything to make Bia happy.
"Neng!", Alby's cheeks began to get wet. I know it! But I don't want to see those tears anymore. I'm afraid I'm melting and coming back shaky.
Forcibly, Alby grabbed me again in his arms. This time I could no longer refuse. We both cried with each other.
Wh why? Why does everything have to be like this. Is this the end of our wedding?
Unaware of both, Sakti is standing at the door. He accidentally became a listener to the conversation of a couple.
I don't know what I feel right now. There was the pain of seeing her lady puja cry like that, but ..there was a glimmer of hope in her heart. No hypocrite, right? If Bia escaped from the shackles of Alby's love that only hurt her heart, would it not be better if Bia loose and get happiness. Although later, could that happiness not be with him????
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