I Choose You!
#89 Endless
A warm touch accompanied the base of the hair next to my ears. I recognize it outside my head.
“Why, pa?”
He bowed himself until his face looked straight with me, “Drowsy? Direct sleep.”
I look at my phone. Half an hour ten. It is not wrong to directly suggest so.
“Open fence, garage.”
Oh yea.
I followed his directions and let the big body of the car pass through the fence.
My short steps can chase that car and open the garage door. I think I should wait for him to open the door.
“Rasyi.”
Hm?
face twist. Looking at the direction of the voice that had actually been guessed in my head.
“Harun really..., get here night-night?” my brain was like it was not working when I saw that figure entering the fence of the house that we had not closed.
My confusion continued to play out at one point. What the hell does he want?
Papa, he always doesn't want to wrangle more. He chose to open the door of the house and enter. Chose to let me have a chance to fix it myself.
“I think we better talk directly. So I came straight here,” Aaron approached and took the initiative to close the fence of the house.
Yes whatever it is, as long as he wants to work together, “Udah yuk, enter aja.”
What happened last time at school was unexpected. Messy and unpleasant in all of us. Instead of finishing, I made Aaron angry with me.
Sure oes. Who wouldn't be angry if it was designated that way?
Whatever the problem is. I must still make this matter forgivable and all can return to its original state. Like a little kids fight.
One of them is in Aaron. Being the breeze she wants to talk quietly with me to finish all this.
Aren't you?
Why...? What am I doubting?
It's all good condition.
I pushed my room door, “Masuk.”
“Not papa?”
“Indeed why?”
Papa is here. As much as possible I don't want to provoke anger from both of them.
Talking both is good. Don't you?
I just need to stop if he raises his voice. And proceeding towards him more agree. There must be a middle path that can be reached.
Finish this, then in twins. It's also important to make sure Mr. Fares is not offended and is back as friendly as ever.
Surely can. I can!!
Aaron already let me in first, “I didn't bother you right?”
My head shook. Grabbing my study chair and I comfortably occupy it, “... no.”.
“Rasyi pain?”
Hm? “No. Login aja.”
“No, the..”.
What was?
“I want to take you,” he smiles sweeter between the door he closes, “Street. To the usual cafe? Just a moment.”
Eh? Meaning dating?
My mouth's closed. Silent for a moment, “I can't.”
Feels weird. My body refused to leave.
No, it's not that I'm too comfortable in my chair. It's weird.... Because of something else...?
“Why?” aaron's face, his smile is gone.
“Papa can..., this.. I'm afraid too night.”.
I don't know why that's not the answer.
“We can't find a bright spot if we're like gini.”
However..., I stuck out my hands as if asking for something, “We can talk here.”
“But⏤huuuh!” he looks down on his shoulders, “I understand. We can't keep arguing about small things.”
He understood?
Aaron ended up sitting in a long chair with no backrest on the side of the closed window.
Although the house felt quieter, Aaron showed no signs of going to talk for a while.
“Rasyi,” it seems he is ready to talk, “I love you.”
Heh?! How did it suddenly become like this?!
“The old camp, that's a big regret for me.”
Tabernacle?
What do you mean during the holidays with Junior High class first? He remembered it too?
Everyone thought I, Jagad and aunt Ira were held captive by****** for one week. It was actually my second meeting with my own grandfather, who was trying to take the inheritance from me.
Jagad lost his life just to let me escape. Carrying trauma.
“You were so scared that time. I don't want to shadow Rasyi so again.”
I'm speechless. All this time I knew he was always worried, but I didn't know he bore this guilt.
It will be Aaron who has moved. He was crouching in front of my seat.
Uh, tu, wait! Wh why? How come?!
“You understand Rashi?” he clasped my hand, “I can't relax. For example, every day Rasyi made difficult. Kayak... your grandfather...”.
Worries. It piles up with other worries. That may be the trigger for his overprotective attitude.
It's sweet to hear. But if the disturbance he was referring to was my friends, isn't that outrageous?
His words still continue, “Can I not observe your safety like this? Wrong?”
If his intentions were pure and that was all that affected his behavior, it would be the most moving thing I could accept. But I don't expect obsession to happen like this.
“So I was wrong?”
Ke, why don't I answer? Although the answer was already thought of.
“Where is the harm in making you not want to talk gini? I don't want to be kayak gini, Rasyi.”
“I don't want to either! But...”
This tongue is as if I hold it with all my strength.
Aaron? He, bring our hands closer to his forehead. Makes my finger stick to his face.
“You're everything to me. Don't stay I'm like a gini, Rasyi..”.
If it's that sweet that comes out of his mouth, I can't let my own mouth shut. This is a time when I can fix everything. We can understand each other even though we have a big fight.
My doubtful heart, walk with me.
“Harun..”.
“Iya?”
I take normal breaths as much as I can even though it feels tight.
Just voice, Rasyi, “That's what I understand from you Aaron. I know you're worried. But, should ya control my life to such an extent? You don't think I'm a doll, do you?”
Why, why is he silent? “But you disagree with me? That doesn't understand his name.”
No, I can still talk according to my opinion, “We can find a middle ground from this. I can't possibly follow all your wishes either. I have my own life together another.”
“I can replace all their roles.”
“By staying away from my own papa? No way, Aaron. They all have a role in my life. I'm not just a part of your life, Aaron.”
Eh? Aaron let go of his grasp. Standing out... Aaron?
“You don't need them! They should have known!” aaron's stare was straight at me.
Again he was angry.
Can't, “I can also be without you, Aaron.”
Wow, I really said that? What is my mouth thinking anyway? must apologize now before I lose this opportunity.
“Harun, ma⏤Aaaa!”
“You didn't hear me,” Aaron really held my upper arm. Interestingly, he violently set me up from the chair.
“Harun, pain...,” no more, “Lep⏤hmmp!!”
Aaron?
Aarons.
Aaron stop.
Unleash it.
Please, let go....
“Ra⏤” Aaron, he looks surprised. His hand on his upper arm and his stuff in my mouth he instantly came off, “That's a...”.
That was Aaron....
Aaron, your face was like. Criminals ready for action. I don't know why, I can feel it from Aaron's current facial wrinkle. Close, intimidating from above her height.
Hand⏤
Surprised I covered my own mouth, “Don't!” my eyes closed, evading?
“Now you're scared of me, huh?” a hoarse Aaron's voice did not necessarily make me look at him.
Trembling and stiffening against me who was unmoved, as if agreeing to his question.
L scared?
The sound of loud footsteps and air of fading existence. It struck me that Aaron was going to the door. He could look at me.
Aaron closed the door and left. Without saying anything....
My breath, became relieved for a moment.
I get it now. The fact of the tightness that I always experienced while with Aaron behind this. The indeterminate trembling that gets louder when I come into contact with Aaron's hand.
I didn't expect, the subconscious, to be screaming. Tonight's incident, my trust in Aaron is gone.
