I Choose You!
#Special6 Urdha and Azkia
“Rasyi!” Fares hastily came here.
I just sat down next to Rasyi's bed. Waiting to get better and leave the hospital.
Fares elus the face of his wife who is not awake, “What does the doctor say?”
“He said only because he was tired.”
Even if I don't believe that.
Rasyi's appetite has been getting messed up lately. Fatigue and sometimes prefer to work on comics rather than sleep. More often I see him in and out of the bathroom.
There's nothing I can conclude if I don't run a lot of tests.
It could be CKD, Chronic Kidney Disease. A gradual decrease in kidney function.
With health and age that is not supportive, Rasyi has many possibilities to be able to get the disease. This princess likes to be sweet, and she does not have much strong immunity due to her premature birth. I've been wondering if he'll have complications when he's old.
Hopefully, that's just my over-thinking.
If I leave a message to the doctor, do they believe it? The tests alone do not hurt them because we also pay for everything.
“Abi!” Fares screaming.
So, I'm daydreaming? “Hmm?”
“No papa. Nanna is fine,” she elus my head is soft.
Everyone hopes so.
People never decide their own future. Regardless, it must be prepared physically or by heart.
Huuuh, it turned out like this when Rasyi was waiting for me at the hospital.
Unpleasant.
And it's all getting worse.
.
.
.
“Sick...”
“Rasyi, not papa. Brother's here, baby. Strong huh?”
Rasyi cried every time we went to the hospital. His siren. The lights do not calm down. It feels like I'm sick.
My experience of always being in the hospital was not enough to hold my feelings for this kind of situation.
As the day wore on, this princess withered.
“Abi...”
“Abi here, Nanna,” I hold her hand tightly, “Hold a minute huh?”
Stay right here.
Persist.
Please, stay the same papa. Yea?
“Hihihi...,” Rasyi laughs?
“Don't laugh..,” it hurts more to hear.
Stop please.
The hospital is in sight. They all swiftly secured Rasyi into the room. Operating sign lights on start.
I've studied to be a doctor more than three times in my life. Become a doctor at three different times. But I always couldn't save my loved ones. Why would I ever be a doctor if I just stood outside the operating room?
Pat on the head, “Sorry yes. Abi's birthday can even be like this..”.
Fares is a really good old man. He used to worry that he was only for his grandson. This language doesn't mean much at 22 years old.
Slowly Rasyi struggled with his illness. Chronic and more complicated. Her husband must be hurting right now. And there's only me here.
We both have to accept the situation. Being with each other may be simple, but it has to be done.
Stayed sick. I didn't think I'd feel it again after that 'life'. And now not only my daughter, but also her grandmother's gone.
“Nanna is not papa. Nanna is strong,” Fares reassures herself.
By the time it arrived, all the calmness of this child could explode.
.
.
.
PRANGS!
“Ma, sorry. Pappa not focus.”
Iunderstood it. Rasyi.
I have to clean the glass.
“Pappa go home, keep resting, yes?” I'm closing in there looking for a broom, “Abi guard here.”
“No. Pappa still wants to be here.”
We have both seen the end.
“Abi thinks lawyers understand that conditions affect results. The glass is cheap, but cleaning it is not funny, Pap.”
“Heh,” at least he wants to laugh, “Pappa understands.”
The inpatient room is so quiet.
What do Fares want to say while clapping my head again? “Abi is very similar huh?”
“With her father Nanna? Yes, Abi knows.”
“Then,” he hold my head, “Pappa tell me what Abi doesn't know. Pappa never heard of his father Nanna.”
Uh, hehehe. I suppose.
“So, Pappa stays here. Create Nanna, create Abi.”
I smile. He can't be arranged at all.
I knit, “Walau Pappa should go buy something to eat?”
Play eyebrow him.
“Heh,” finally his hand he loose, “Ya, BRB. Abi just continue the script.”
We agreed with what we did. Fares is still there at his cut-off. I can't go on leave forever. Rasyi.
Huuh. I clean the glass first. Continue my work while waiting for Fares to return.
But even if it was finished, I still could not stop daydreaming while looking at Rasyi's face.
Just like Rasyi did every nothing is done.
“Huuuu,” sit there, hold your own head.
Why is it like this? I returned to this neighborhood because Rasyi had to be happy. He cannot live with the burden of loss.
In fact, I can't do anything until he meets the last second.
“Sorry, forgive papa...,” it hurts, like the time of losing Nisa.
Know what it feels like to lose, time and time again. This time it was too painful.
“Abi..?”
Heh?
I caught her hand. I make him wake up? Hold her hand slowly.
“Yes, Nanna, Abi here. Wh why? White water? Is anyone sick?”
He just saw me. No, by the way, not moving. Her eyes were still wide no different from the last time I left this princess.
I smiled a little. Elus heads her, trim her long hair, fix her pillow position. Just like I do every time this princess gets sick.
“Papa?”
Hm?
He must have listened to me muttering earlier. Maybe he misunderstood. Or did he mean Fares?
“Pappa foraging. Abi can help Nanna. Nanna want what?”
“No...,” she points here, “Dinosaur.”
Whahuh?
“Hihihi,” she laughs? “Dinosaur iceberg guard. Hihihihi..”.
This could be my lowest point.
I never knew why I was reincarnated hundreds of times. The suffering continues. But if it's all to understand the meaning, dear.
“Iya,” I was right crying, “Papa is here.”
“Hihihihi..”.
I kissed her hand. Can't stop being afraid. Losing would really be close to me in a moment.
All I could thank, I could see her face that was much brighter than usual. His smile....
“Heh,” I'm too messed up to be able to cry while laughing, “Rabbit con man can rest now. Papa accompany until Rasyi sleep.”
“Rasyi... dear papa..”.
“Papa also dear Rasyi.”
The tears won't stop for a week.
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“Augly sister! Ugly sister ugly sister ugly sister ugly!”
Huuuh, my life this time will be troublesome. What is my purpose for reincarnation this time? Being the big brother of this fussy little sister?
This time it would be better to go home. It's been too late, shower and eat. Then learn⏤
“Sack Urdha~”
But this sister is getting annoying, “What?”
“Azkia cakep~”
“Yes, who whines for a difference until the rough earlier? Smart once.”
She's a little cute again, “Iiih~ Sister ugly!”
Now I'm tired. There is no point in being angry with a five-year-old girl. I, her brother who is seven years old, should not give her advice. Just keep going.
It was still fortunate that he did not cry because his bicycle tire was flat.
“Ayo street. Later night hunt.”
“Azkia tired~!”
“Street. Later sister stay.”
“Iish!” he's still grumbling but at least he's still willing to follow behind me, “Basic dinosaur iceberg..
Hm?
I stopped and looked at him. She say....
“What~? Azkia road nih!”
“Heh,” laughs I never thought I could hear that after all these years.
“Do not laugh~!”
Just continue my path, “Iya, yes, con rabbit.”
“Heh? Eh?!”
Just keep going.
“Tu, wait wait wait!” he ran and stopped in front of me, “What did he say?!”
I just smile. The applause on his head kept going past him.
“Papa?!”
My legs don't stop, “Let's go home.”
“Wait! Waitin Azkia~!”
I have never experienced life with anyone who has been reincarnated before.
Heh. This life will be unique once again.
^^^APK Special THE END
