I Choose You!
#53 Beginning in a Past Story
“Abi! Ummi!” i ran. Towards those two men.
But I'm quiet. What I see girls being held by ummi. Abi also seemed close to this child. A woman who smiles herself.
Strange woman.
“Rasyiqa, this is Aaron. Auntie son,” ummi push this girl to me.
Strange or something, I gotta give you a smile. That is what Abi always exemplifies when meeting many people.
My smile should be soft, “Halo..”.
He didn't reply. His attention was like pacing from my hair to my face.
We are both silent. See each other. I also noticed her black hair and eyes.
Maybe this is what I say is beautiful. People say if you look beautiful, you will be happy. But I'm not rasain anything. Then she's not pretty?
“Harun play Rasyiqa yes?” ummi grabbed my back.
Alright....
“Iya,” I still smile, “Main to there yuk!”
I don't know what he likes. Maybe I'll take him anywhere. That game seems fun.
I'll give you my hand so she can come.
He's quiet again. This kid is mute or what? Could difficult.
But I have to set my smile⏤
“Yes, come!” he took my hand.
Her smile. It was not like her smile she loved. It's more, beautiful.
My chest is weird. But it doesn't hurt.
Wanna have a smile like her.
Wanna have a laugh like him.
Want to have the spirit of her.
But I don't want to take her. I think I want him to have all that.
Bizarrely. Why does it feel so weird.
His grasp doesn't want me to get off.
To anyone!!
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“My name is Jagad,” he's doing a helping hand, “Quick play with me!”
I don't want to let go of Rasyi's hand, let alone release it to this person!
“Do not ask while angry,” if necessary, I will definitely be angry.
“Who are you?”
She doesn't know?!
“I'm Rasyi's friend,” I pulled Rasyi's hand close.
I don't like this guy. Who wants him, I won't love Rasyi to him!
She's quiet why? “So your name is Rasyi?”
Arg's! I better not say that!
“Iya,” Rasyi to the point of confusion.
He gave me another hand, “Rasyi with me! He doesn't need to!”
What's?! This guy is weird! Rasyi can't want to be as noisy as he is. Confident in his advantages!
Such a strange person must be questioned!
This is only the second time I have played with Rasyi. Don't bother this guy.
Rasyi I take it to another place. Birthday of Fares is cool. There must be a lot of fun toys in that direction.
Aarghs! He pulled Rasyi!
“Do not pull Rasyi!” rasyi's hands and hands cannot be taken off!
“By the same me!” the pull is so strong!
I have to be harder. Rasyi's been sick from pulling him!
“Kalian⏤”
“Rasyi want to be with me!” he's playing with Rasyi's shit now?!!
I can't lose! “No! With me!!”
I must stop him before taking Rasyi from me! Don't make!
“WAAA AAAAA!!”
Handses! I have to take my hand off.
Rasyi....
She cried because I pulled her tightness.
Bizarrely. Every day I never do this. It always feels so bored. Sometimes people say I don't have the spirit.
Now I'm an advantage.
“Pa! Rasyi just go home!”
“Loh? Rasyi don't want to blow up the candles first?”
“No want!”
My heart hurts again. Just like when Rasyi came home. We played a long time but I'm not satisfied. It must be the same now. Because Rasyi wants to go home even though we have not had time to play.
“Cannot. Kan his friend want to play,” his father Rasyi like to persuade Rasyi not to go home, “Try if Rasyi want to play but his friend came home, how?”
Ja. Don't gohome.
If I could, I would do anything to let him play with me. He just had to say what he wanted.
I'm happy to mess with him.
“You promise you won't fight again?” the uncle asked.
“Iya, we promise!” I shouted loudly. Let Rasyi hear.
I must have kept Rasyi with me. We both played together!
Noisy guys follow, “I⏤iya!”
Better that he doesn't exist. If it wasn't for him, Rasyi wouldn't have cried. Where we haven't played yet. But he even maksa Rasyi to want to go home.
“They promised, right? Rasyi invite them to play later also invite to eat chocolate cake. Yes?”
Why wouldn't he? He was always happy to see me. Now he doesn't even want to see me.
Be ill.
That means I don't like it!
Rasyi should play with me.
Cool head. There must be a way to get Rasyi if I can be patient.
“You're holding hands. Could be his Rasyi later want.”
What's?! This uncle is kidding, right? Hands with Rasyi is fun. I am also happy to join Ummi Abi. But the same noisy guy? Not want!!
This guy, he's even glancing at me! Nauseate! Don't let him see me!
But you have to follow uncle. Rasyi will not play with me.
I see another guy who's fed up. No hesitation! Let him be surprised. I'll grab his hand!
Now⏤
“Now want?” the uncle smiled at Rasyi.
My laughter is unbearable again, “Hihihi.. yes~”.
Rasyi.
My heart's weird. But it doesn't hurt anymore. Kayak, play the same guy? It feels weird, especially if I'm not pa-pa. I'm not angry at all. I'm just a little bit sick of it.
Not being sick means I'm happy. Surely so. Then I want to play!
Ja. Rasyi messed with me. So I want to play too. That's not weird. We're both not weird.
He smiles, he laughs, he's happy.
He frowned, he cried, he was sad.
All the toys he has to be the same me.
We should both. He can't go anywhere without me.
He can't!
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Then why is he so far away? He's sad, but I don't know.
Rasyi didn't say. Rasyi also does not want to be with me. He's still smiling. He also did not want to smile brightly like before. The woman who played with my heart. Now this woman has changed.
I must follow! He should be able to play again. How is it.
Six years.
Twelve years or so, I'll be patient.
If he asks, I listen. If she asks, I follow her favorite.if she's scared, I'll take care of her. Watch her. Until he's comfortable. Until he had no protest. Until he just wants to play with me.
He, he needs me. Not his father, not the police uncle, not the ruby guy Jagad. Rasyi needs me!
This woman doesn't have to go far! Don't get too far! don't go too far!!
“If I were, I would believe in myself. As Jagad believes in me,” Rasyi can say very confident.
Then he took the man's name! How far will he go from me?! He needs me!
“Jagad again? How about me?!” angry, I'm so angry, “Who said you weren't papa here? You just keep shaking like that. Why do you trust that con man more than me?”
He doesn't understand! Rasyi just needs me. I am more than enough for him! I'll protect him, I'll make him happy.
It's fun to play with him, so he should be happy to play with me too!
“I care more about you than she does!” I approached him slowly.
Don't run, Rasyi, don't run!
“Rasyi,” we look at each other, “Am I lacking for you?”
Why are you silent, Rasyi?
“Rasyi still need someone like Jagad? What does Jagad have but I don't?” step closer.
“Aaa!!”
Nay!
“Ra⏤!”
BYUR!!
He doesn't need to back away from me. It's weird that he picked the river behind him instead of me. Rasyi would rather fall than me.
So hurt...
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Rashi... Don't lose me.
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^^^actually these scenes have been included in the prequel novel using the Rasyi point of view. Monggo checks into the next novel, in chapters 16, 17 and 34^^
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