I Choose You!
#100 Are You Love Him?
“Happy enjoy~”
Yes, mbak. Now you can go. Please, really! Leaving now.
Less enough what? This cafe already has more than enough pairs of eyes that pay attention to us. Don't add any more who got this close, ma'am waiter. Back to work, there!
“Speaking, we are here not all day,” papa and his warm cup of coffee.
Brother Fares just stirring his drink, “Please let them talk alone.”
Papa chuckles, “Your intelligence is down, Fares?”
Gee. It feels very tense here. Even Aaron, who I thought would be brave, was unable to say anything. Plus me!
Enjoy a point at the cafe with four soft sofa chairs. Good service, food and drink. The atmosphere is also no less enjoy⏤if indeed the work here is just to relax.
Nah! The four of us here are like we want a political debate!
Fares is still hard, “Uncle, we keep an eye out. But they need privacy too.”
“Say that again after my daughter's hand has healed completely,” papa's intent for sure... Aaron could have hurt me again.
It's not gonna be finished. Let's listen to what Aaron needs and it's over.
“Pa, Rasyi would like to talk for a moment,” I look out the glass window and find the famous roof garden mall, “Rasyi same Aaron talking there. Papa can still see, right?”
“There was also an incident like this.”
This kind of incident...what do you mean when I go for a walk with the twins? That was a month ago.
Aaa, I know what that worry means. How I didn't realize, Aaron's been getting out of control since that day. The day Aaron started to almost hit me.
No, maybe the ugliness has come a long way since.
What will we get from just sitting here? It's exhausting.
“Please?” I looked at papa.
“Rasyi know the answer what.”
“Twenty, not fifteen minutes,” I sighed, “Also Rasyi does not like it here. Everyone is looking towards us.”
“Why think?”
I don't know, 'cause they're really looking over here! No more glancing!
If you want to blame, blame yourself!
Just talk, at the mall! What else the faces of the three of you are not ordinary! Time gathered into one like this, want to hope what? The way for everyone not to see that how?!
Don't forget about me. What thoughts are there in these people about me sitting with these three handsome guys?! Dating and getting caught by two stashes?! Really?!!
Directly without further ado I stand, “Come Aaron.”
“Huuuuh...,” papa will not stop me as I understand.
The steps I had taken went to the glass door. Although I knew I couldn't stay calm beside Aaron either.
Even though I was determined to give up. My hesitant steps led him to sit under a shady tree. Fix all this mess.
“Say quickly,” I don't want to linger any longer after Aaron has sat beside me.
“Rasyi already hate me?”
“If your goal is to talk, talk now.”
Can I feel “... You have changed a lot.”
I'm not commenting anything. What was he hoping for after he was so rude to me so many times? Even strangers don't do that.
No, rather everyone I thought knew, they all did.
Ha ha ha ha's. It's hilarious!
“You know about my trauma, Aaron. And you have.. add,” even my youngest can catch how cold my tone is.
“There is really no hope anymore?”
Eh? “What hope?”
“You've already lost it? Do you hate it?”
“Harun, if you talk about hope, we have many opportunities. Papa, let's meet. Even papa didn't protest while I was still trying to get better. But why don't you accept?”
No one doesn't know that. Even the class always let you both because of that intent. They know I feel the same way.
Back then?
The former Rashiqa definitely did not believe what I was feeling right now. Surely he will wonder, what makes me refuse a man in a beautiful and gentle manner of heart.
If I could, I'd like to scream that it's all a lie.
“If that hope is what you mean, yes, it can no longer,” my eyes will no longer look at it.
“Rasyi!”
“Don't even think about doing anything, Aaron! If I fear more than this, I will go!”
Want as strong as I can, I can still feel my hands are not calm. Aaron's figure is no longer safe for me.
Aaron understood the situation and went back to sit beside me. A quiet pause, I guess that was also what made people not dare to continue with their gazes. Papa might not have just slid in here either.
Let me give you what I want, “I think we can still be friends. Ordinary kayak. But, the difference is, there should be no thought to dating. That's it.”
If he rejects this one hope as well, I don't know anymore. Even to get here, I had to oppose my own father.
What else do you want to be forced like?
“I never knew you. It always feels foreign.”
Hm? What did he just say?
“You always, like, want to lose.”
Shut up I'm trying to digest what he means.
“Always hide many things. I always don't know why.”
The direction of speech, as before....
When I was confused with my grandfather, I never talked about it to anyone other than my father and the Hendra family. Including Aaron. Especially since Jagad is not around, I am increasingly afraid that people around me can have the same fate.
But now Aaron knows. At least the outline.
What do you mean trouble again?
“Rasyi,” her sad call made me look at her, “What would it be like if I was nothing to you? Are you going to throw me a kayak now?”
“Nothing how?”
“You always have your own problems, which I don't understand. Afraid of the crowd until now. So sensitive to your papa. Everyone, it's behind me. What am I for you?”
Talk about not wanting me to keep anything from him. This was a problem two years ago.
“There's nothing else I'm hiding from you,” I'm trying to stay calm.
“What am I asking, what am I doing for you, Rasyi?” he replied to my view, “If I was of no use, you would assume I was just a classmate.”
It's getting further and further. My head doesn't understand it.
“Harun want to try saying what to me?” I told him who was still looking at me.
He was silent for a moment, “I tried, desperately, so that I could be everything to you. Let me be your world. Until you don't think of anything else but me.”
Really? “That's not healthy, Aaron,” I threw my gaze away from her.
“Meanwhile I dare not date you. If I don't understand what you want... What if you disappear again?”
I don't want to comment anymore. I told you the reason why I didn't open that big⏤because I'm afraid he's like Jagad. Why does he never understand?
And again, he's my world? Isn't that her name she'd just lock me up to be with her?
I didn't think Aaron's thoughts were that bad!
Talk again he, “That means right huh?”
I still don't understand, “What?”
“You like Brother Fares right?”
She said what's L⏤eh? Heh?
Tu, HEH?!
I know that's the most random word that has nothing to do with our conversation! But why... My heartbeat is excited like this?!!
