I Choose You!
#54 The Stuffy Past
“Bubar!”
I could be so scared like this. I always manage to challenge fear. No one can make my hair stand up.
Rasyi, everyone is afraid that I might have something to do with Rasyi. Not wrong anymore. I always try to meet Rasyi's needs. I leave it all to the girl.
And now he's gone.
This trembling must be because of my hand. She's tense. I was angry. But I don't know what I'm angry about. Because who. Maybe because of myself. Maybe because the people around Rasyi are not becus.
At least I realized one thing⏤Rasyi so far is a white lotus that can drown at any time. And that too from his acquaintances.
I wasn't there when something pulled him down.
“You just go home, Aaron,” one of these guys.
Uncle said he came with us to protect Rasyi. That's lies. Rasyi remains missing at night jurit events. What does he do?!
“I'm looking for,” I'm looking at Fares' brother.
He was wasting his breath, “You didn't rest at all from yesterday.”
Smile, I have to smile, “No pa-pa sis. I can't calm down either. Let me help.”
She's sad, isn't she? “Sorry...”.
I didn't answer. This guy deserves to apologize. But it does not deserve his acceptance. Rasyi is like this because he is not really responsible.
Again I smile, “Don't press myself sister so. How do we know it's gonna be like this. What matters is we look for Rasyi now. She's strong really, definitely not pa-pa.”
I want to think so. But Rasyi is just a weak flower. He was always afraid to leave the house. In this case, instead of making him more afraid, what?!
Cool head. Rasyi won't play with me if I get out of his expectations.
Relax Rasyi, I must have kept you away from your fear.
“Let's join his uncles, sis,” I go first join the SAR team that has spread.
Rasyi must have met today.
I have to meet you today.
I have to meet him today!
He can't go much more than today!
We both need to play again.
My heart played with him again, until I was hooked. I don't know what to do if he doesn't exist.
Please don't go far.
I loved her.
“Hai! You!”
Wh who? Has anyone found Rasyi?!
I'm still with Brother Fares. So I could see Fares' reaction was equally shocked. He realized I was looking at him. We exchanged ideas and agreed.
It must be Rasyi!
“Stop!”
“Dia to here!”
“Quick!”
They all ran deeper into the forest. Tonight is not a responsibility. Too dark. Who is being pursued cannot be seen. I'm just coming with Brother Fares. We ran after these people.
“Talking around!”
“That's it!”
They found it!
I can see! There were people sitting among the roots of the forest tree. Be seen. More clear. Increasingly visible!
“That's Rasyi!” brother Fares also saw the same as I saw.
“True that's him?”
“Iya, sir. It must be Rasyi,”I helped answer one of the SAR team.
My heart's fucked. Be happy. Want sad. My hands are still not silent.
I finally saw Rasyi run out a week lost.
The noise of this hand, not out of relief. It must be because of fear by seeing the state of Rasyi.
He was like a lotus flower that had its petals off.
“From!”
“Rasyi!”
Brother Fares ran straight towards him.
He sat in front of Rasyi. But Rasyi did not want to open her eyes. This woman is too scared.
Rasyi why?
Not this Rasyi.
If it was Rasyi I knew, she would have smiled.
I'm coming close to there. Sitting next to Fares. Maybe if he heard my voice. Maybe if it was me, he could smile again. Must have laughed again.
“It's me, Rasyi. Aaron,” I think I want to touch him.
She's she? Hit my hand?
“Quiet, Rasyi,” Fares still trying to calm him, “Nothing.”
“Do not approach!”
Rasyi still hit our hands. Shouting shut our voices.
Rasyi's screams grew louder. I'm more afraid he's. More echo. It makes me tremble.
“Rasyi...,” I have to persuade him.
She kept screaming in fear, “Let me alone!!”
“Rasyi, look at me,” don't avoid me.
“GO!!!”
“Ra⏤”
“RASYI!!” brother Fares, he shouted loudly while holding onto Rasyi's shoulder.
Rasyi. He looked towards us.
“Hah ah.., sis... Fares..
“Yes, this is sister. It's okay..”
He... hugged Brother Fares?
Bizarrely. Very quaint.
Should've been happy.
I'm not happy.
Should've been relieved.
I'm upset.
Again, Rasyi played with my heart. Now my heart hurts. But it's a different pain when Rasyi goes missing.
It hurt even more when I saw Rasyi pass out in the arms of Fares.
I've learned about this in people's stories. They say that love can lead to jealousy.
Yeah, I'm jealous, right?
Strange, but not wrong. I can't be angry with my situation. In fact, I do not like to see Rasyi prefer Fares.
Fares made her disappear. Because he was incompetent, Rasyi became like this.
I deserve to be jealous. I've been guarding Rasyi all this time. I made him comfortable. I always wanted him.
I follow his game, he should play with me.
I gave up everything. He should also leave it to me.
He's been messing with me. I should be able to play with him.
I've been in love with her. He must love me.
Rasyi can't go any further.
Don't go any further. Don't hide from me. Don't hide anything about us from me.
Wh why? It always is! Always, I'm a stranger.
I'm the most trustworthy person. He can't hide anything. He cannot always hide things. That's why I should know so much. More than just knowing he's scared.
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Rasyi shouldn't be too far away.
I want to hold him, “Why didn't you tell me?!”
“Keep why did Aaron not say if he knew?”
We stay away from each other. I screamed and he did too.
“Papa is not a killer!”
“I know, Rasyi. But like aunt Nita, there are still many who do not believe.”
“You don't believe it either?!”
“Not so!”
But I love her. I don't want to let go.
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.
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Cool head. What if he was angry with me. Just need to be next to him. Fulfill his will. Until he realized, he just needed me.
“Rasyi just as much as Aaron, yes?”
“Iy⏤ Hah?!”
Me, just follow my heart.
Red-faced Rasyi, “Don't exit topic!!”
“Phht,” I can only laugh with him, “I don't hear anything kok~”
Like anything, I'll go with this girl. As far as he goes, I'll go with his game.
I just need to hold on until he can't live without me. Just like he did to me.
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Justjust...
“Actually the one who caught us was already eyeing me papa from long ago.”
Need patience...
“Eatya from small I was locked up at home continue.”
Just sec... So I'll protect him.
“Save only. Rasyi need not be at risk. Rasyi has been sad too often.”
“Harun?”
“What do you do with a father who is not so careful with you? Don't be tired thinkin.”
L loved her. He can't get away from me.... Don'tdon't....
“Same scatter me yuk. So Rasyi don't have to hurt them with your father anymore.”
Rasyi.
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^^^NOTES^^
^^^ If curious, can check more clearly in the prequel (POV Rasyi) chapters 38, 45, 46 and 61.^^^
^^^For those who do not check also does not matter. I deliberately make the story still connected even though I did not read the prequel~^^^
^^^Happy reading~ ♡♡♡♡^^^
