I Choose You!
#131 Wind Coming
Why do I remember all that?
Childhood with sister Riza. Rasyi is a child. Also, uncle's mature plans. I have forgotten a lot.
So, what room is this? Wood multipurpose. No one has a semi-permanent home like this.
“Aa!” pain, head.
“Pelan.”
Anybody else?
“Uncle...”.
It's me sleeping in a kapuk bed. My body is all stiff.
“Cause first. Let's go home soon,” uncle answer again.
Just can sleep. Fortunately, my uncle was still visible. He's tinkering with his HP. While sitting against the wall.
Outside, the sky looks. It's not in an ordinary room.
“A, what's the matter, uncle?”
But uncle didn't answer directly, “Beach. Wharfs. Fall off. Ring a bell?”
Pier... aa... I drowned huh?
Talk again uncle, “Just trouble. Everything created panic.”
“Sorry,” I can only dry laugh, “Dad, mom?”
“Your father exchange info to lifeguards. Your mother's cleaning. You, break.”
“I understand.”
Uncle is not a person who likes to be bothered.
Quiescent. There's no sound.
This one makes me remember what I saw. Beautiful memories. Memory is not good. Memories that I never knew happened.
One of these....
“Uncle,” I'm still sleeping.
“That's it.”
“I just remember something. But...”
“Introduction.”
“Sorry,” I think uncle again tired, “What have I ever met Hari?”
“Hmm?”
It sounds strange, but, “Have I ever met, don't know, when I was little?”
“Where's the question?”
“I suddenly remember. When I was arrested, he told me I was a big boy. He said in the past I can not move if in front of him he,” I still see the roof, “But I never remember meeting him.”
“Hmm...”.
There's no answer?
Try asking again, “Uncle knows something?”
Uncle's breath sounds once, “You've grown up anyway..”.
He does know something, but uncle what do you want to say?
“Uncle just ask once,” he really makes people wait, “You sure you want to know?”
Nothing to doubt, “Iya,”
Uncle is still quiet?
“Your mother is dying to make you forget. You can be unconscious, but after that incident, you can never be as happy as you used to be.”
Was there really something like that before?
“Sari's sister is always afraid, if you can't be happy. That's why he was happy when there was Rasyi. Because only when there is Rasyi alone, you can laugh.”
Me, have you ever been?
“You're absolutely sure?”
That's a heavy topic. But uncle tawari from the beginning because there is a right to know.
If it's important, I should know.
“Please, uncle, tell me.”
His breathing is hard uncle, “You remember when Riza died?”
“Ya?” uncomfortable direction of conversation.
Not mistakenly remembered, it was the time uncle was taken away by Hari. Same with aunt Nisa and sister Riza. I don't know anything after that.
We were suddenly in the cemetery.
Though I heard uncle tried to escape from Hari. Married and has Riza's sister. But it turns out they came back. So messed up⏤
“Riza died. You were his eyewitness.”
Aa... what?
“In fact, only you know what happened.”
That, ever did?
“Based on your testimony, they beat up Riza, until...”.
Never, never a memory of that.
“Time Nisa made it to your room. There's only you two. You just... sit next to Riza.”
Stop, please.
“Why am I there?”
Uncle paused for a moment, “Kak Sari said you ever wanted to see Riza. When uncle wants to take Hari, you come. Only use bicycles alone.”
I did that?
“Nobody knows more. We don't want to ask more either. Sari Mutusin to bring you rehab. Let you forget everything.”
Nothing I remember at all.
Wh why?
I'm a bad brother, and a bad brother.
“Nobody can be blamed either. You were three years old.”
For me it's not good news, “Kak Riza is still four years old. But...”
“Because no one wants to talk anymore. You are too weak-hearted.”
“Uncle, we're talking about his son uncle.”
He, sounds laughing, “I know. Believe it or not, we are both the same. Equally blame yourself for Riza's passing. It's there, but it can't be anything.”
“I understand. Uncle through many things.”
“No. You don't get it. That's why I don't want to say.”
“I understand.”
“If you're just looking for who's wrong, does that mean understand?”
What's he gonna say?
“One more thing,” uncle talk again, “That time. You once said, as long as you are arrested, you are always asked by Riza to close your eyes with your ears.”
Brother Riza?
“Why?”
“What do you think it is?”
I don't know.
Uncle sighed, “If you want to make a mistake so you can pay, look at yourself. It's your fault, don't appreciate Riza's hard work to protect you.”
“Please, uncle, don't make it complicated.”
“No. It's been obvious. Riza was your sister, too. What if he sees you crying? He doesn't want to either. Just think of your position with Rasyi.”
“Uncle means to talk what?”
“Fine. The point is, if you live like a dead man like this, why would my son die?”
“Uncle wish me what?!” turns out I've been sitting.
“Stop thinking. Do what makes you happy. Don't make me hard just because you always feel guilty.”
He was aware of the wind coming in from the door.
“You're not wrong. You did great,” uncle silent, but want to talk again, “Thank you.”
No. I don't know what to answer. The wind from outside really felt very strong.
Uncle focus again on HP, “You think first how you want to take care of my son.”
Oho!
“Rasyi where, uncle?”
Look here, uncle seems confused. He looked at it to my left. Ra⏤Rasyi!
Ter, it turns out he's sleeping on the other cotton mattress beside me. Then he's been sleeping here. His voice was so calm that he slept, that nothing was heard.
“He was tense again when you fell. Even if it still hurts, better see if it's okay. Rasyi is still unstable.”
“Iya..,” I see straight towards Rasyi.
His face looks tired. If you already know how Rasyi, it is not wrong that he must be panicking.
Rash....
Follow the most correct uncle. Can't make a bad impression between me and Rasyi. Whatever it is, I still love Rasyi.
Kuelus Rashi. Sorry brother yes, sister is too childish.
“Hmm...”.
Aa, wakefulness.
So fast he sat. He's not dizzy, is he? But, his face was still, it seemed that he was still unconscious.
Go find something. Look at her papa, keep looking at me. Look again at the others, but there is no reaction.
It always makes me laugh.
“Sister Fares?”
Smile to her, “Ya?”
His eyes are so big, “Kak Fares?!”
“Heh,” I'm laughing really, “Why?”
He still doesn't believe it? Try me to pat her on the head. Can help a little distinguish him from sleeping or not.
Aa, he's crying.
“Rasyi?” shocked, Rasyi suddenly hugged me.
Didn't say anything, but knew he was crying again.
Hug her too, “Sorry. Rasyi is scared? Brother is not papa now.”
The cold wind came again.
