I Choose You!
#71 Mara in the Evening
The tips of my toes could feel the asphalt ground despite the warm shoes. The area is not so crowded, not far from the complex that is not crowded as well.
My face feels frozen. The new evening until this gives a new air of cold.
“Please, enter-” this man is holding the door.
I don't know him anymore. However, I followed him like a candy-covered child. All I know is that in the car it wasn't just me and him. In fact, other than the one behind the wheel, I'm sure there will be someone else added.
“Cute hair is also dikonde that, haha!”
I didn't face him at all.
If this Dhika really belongs to Kirana's brash group, I have no reason to feel for her. He was the one who just casually grinned saying papa was with them.
“Rasyi angry yes I lied?”
I prefer to observe every street light outside the car window. That unstable speed passed through a typical traffic light by the name of 'red light' and occasionally made a turn.
But all four wheels, stopped at one point of the street filled with street vendors.
Relax, Rasyi. They won't hurt you.
“Hai, Rasyiqa~” Kirana come in, already sitting next to me.
The atmosphere of the car is getting crowded with both colleagues. Like I thought he would welcome me sooner or later.
However, this is too soon. I can't see where these guys are going. Bringing papa and me out of nowhere. Didn't heed twice the police call, and now they're acting up again.
Strong, I must be strong. Be aware of everything that can happen.
Don't be afraid, Rasyi! “What do you want?”
“I just want to talk to you,” Kirana is sitting leaning on the door, looking at me clearly, “Not to sell expensive!”
“Yakin you, Na? Ivory will be angry big loh,” one of the colleagues next to the steering chair looks sticking his face.
“I'm sick of kids,” Kirana pulls her hair, “Fear what the hell? Hendra's only big face if he gets proof.”
“Kirana sih pinter. Anybody recorded that we went up and down the highway. Hehehe!”
It's smart, but, what do they plan to do to be so careful?
“Do not strain~ Dengerin aja I say~” Kirana close her face to my ears, “I want to give you a secret~”
My eyeballs point to this woman. I need to stay calm. It was just a bluff.
“You used to want to be thrown away small fitting.”
Heh. What the hell? As news just now.
“That's because you're useless.”
Angry I returned his eyes, “Grandmother pretended to know.”
His face is obviously not happy, “I know our thoughts are the same. Ivory can throw you out when he wants.”
Locked mouth. The fact that I couldn't fight that argument made me feel like I was being stabbed by thousands of wall spikes.
I just know the reason why Papa wants to put me in the parlour. Not how he felt while taking care of me, in the middle of acting like a good parent. Who knows, all this time his actions were just humanitarian. Which has its limits.
Kirana seemed to open a small mirror, “I know how much she loved Ivory to Nisa. The ivory is small just like me. I've never seen Ivory smile. But same Nisa, dilute. Smile continues.”
“I often see papa smile.”
“Oh yes?” Kirana pointed her mirror at me, “Who do you look like? Ivory right?”
I smiled cynically, “Intinya?”
“Stupid you? You are just a copy. He's got you, just because he thinks you're Nisa's son.”
That's....
“For example yes, I mess with you. Not her real son, not Nisa's. How was it?”
“Papa can't be fooled like that! Papa⏤”
“Your father also told you right? We're smart to hide ourselves.”
It was just a bluff. Blank bluff!
“Gading has sacrificed a lot, just for the troublesome child. Ye? Whynot? Luxury living? Centil, showing off everywhere?”
PRAK!
...
Ow....
“Kirana! Die us if you think gini!”
“Blue princess face. You slap that, Na.”
“Whispering!” Kirana draws her breath, “Take her to the river cake to drift!”
“Kirana!”
“Do what if you play the same mouth with him?! She's deaf!”
I touch this left cheek. It was so hot I could not feel anything there.
Honest in the heart. It scares me. I didn't know this was coming back.
Funnier. To be seen from anywhere, I've experienced being kidnapped. And everything I fear is a threat to my life. However, for some reason my body did not shake because of that.
My whole body, scared....
It's all because I know best.
My soul, not the son of⏤
“You're not Ivory's son!”
My hands clenched up on my sleeves. Bite the lower lip until it is held back by tears. Screaming cruelly at myself, I must not be weak.
“Gading has only one child. That's Riza. A child who was definitely born from Nisa!”
Noisy.
“Riza is so dead. People forget about him. Yes, because you are!”
Shutup!
“I told you. Ivory never once loved the same person as Nisa. His son was just let die. It was Riza who was Nisa's son. What if you?!”
It was all a lie!!
“Gading is not dear to you! Not maybe baby! I can just have fun doing it. What do you do if it makes this difficult?”
Stop that....
“You are just a replacement! Ivory is just pity and take you! You're just replacing Nisa!!”
I immediately covered both my ears. With lips I still had closed. Stupid times with laughter in all directions. Those words scared me.
“Hmm!” i'm appalled.
A hand that I believe from Kirana pulled one of my hands that was leaning against one of my listening devices.
“I will definitely make that,” the low voice of Kirana whispering is approaching in my ear, “You will be dumped the same Ivory.”
No crying! It was just a bluff! Papa can't throw me away! Papa told me himself he couldn't be strong if I didn't exist! No way papa dumped me!!
“Yok turned,” Kirana, she sounds very confident.
I feel annoyed to hear it. Angry, scared. But I can't get the truth out of this woman's mouth.
I can be sure, little Rashiqa is the son of papa. Not only that. I'm sure it'll be all her. His past, his identity. How he faced his childhood, to why he changed his name from Gading to Rizki.
But I cannot forget what Rasyiqa really is. He is the child who is inserted into the soul of a woman. The reincarnated woman.
A soul that knows no papa at all.
If papa knew....
Even many parents who throw away their children without feeling. Rizki's the one who wanted to put me in the parlour at the beginning I knew her.
Kirana and I knew it could happen again. What is different from being dumped?!
“Left, bro. Near here there is a regular cafe,” one colleague gave a warning until the car stopped.
The movement of many people down the car. The wide door was closed until the atmosphere was silent. The sobs I still pressed as strongly as possible were increasingly heard echoing in the ears.
