The Woman Ruler of the Altan Clan

Chapter 19 Shanum's Choice

Shanum postponed his arrival to Khan Adrian's nursery. He spent the whole day with his two best friends. They explore various interesting places around the Khan residence. Of course with the help of Taban as their loyal bodyguard. Although at first the man looks reluctant to deliver them.

It seemed that the man was still disappointed in the three of them for having cheated him out the other day. But seeing the pleading view of the Diva made him unable to wiggle. Taban said he still had to report first with the landowner, Khan Adrian. And when they obtained permission to visit the location around the mansion, Shanum felt such great relief. Khan had already made his mood messy. He needed time to explore his feelings further.

A lot of amazing things they did that day, starting with looking at the facilities that were there. Golf courses, archery arenas, shooting arenas, and equestrian courts. Khan owns the largest Mongolian horse breeding grounds in the region. Horseback riding is a fundamental part of Mongolian culture. A Mongolian without a horse is like a bird without wings.

"Are you guys trying to ride a horse?" ask Taban. The three looked at him in silence. "You've never been on a horse." "Ever, childhood. It was also a horse ride around the zoo," replied the plain Diva. "That's a horse ride for the kids. The path is also slow, while the rope is held the same Brother who has a horse," said Farah as she rolled her eyes. Taban looked confused to hear the words of the two.

Finally Shanum explained that they had never learned to ride. If you ride a horse, only to pay the cost to go around, just sit on a horse while still holding the reins held by the horseman from below. The handler will follow the horse from the side. Taban smiled amusedly at the explanation. He said it wasn't a real horse ride.

"So how about Ladies, anyone want to try learning to ride a horse? If I really wanted to try it. But it looks like next time, not today" Shanum said. "I'm the same, not today" Farah replied. Diva also shook her head. "Oke Taban, we'd better head to the next location. To learn to ride a horse, maybe next time," Shanum said next. "Okay, we're going to the rose garden, yes" Taban said.

Taban then returns to Buggy Car which takes them around. Arriving at the rose garden Shanum was stunned and astonished, as far as the eye could see the appearance of so many roses. There are a variety of rare roses planted in the garden. That's the information Shanum heard from Taban. No one expected it to turn out that such a cold and indifferent man had a rose garden. When looking at the garden Shanum so think, a bouquet of flowers yesterday may also come from this garden.

"Well, Shanum, this is your favorite flower. He has a rose garden, what a complete package of a man." Farah smiled smirk at Shanum. The girl only smiled faintly at Farah's chattering. "So Khan loves Taban roses?" tanya Shanum made sure to go back. "I don't really know about that Shanum, who I know Khan used to spend his time in this garden, stared silently at the roses that were here."

Hearing Taban's reply Shanum's forehead looked wrinkled. But he did not discuss further. Shanum's attention is distracted by the screams of one of his best friends. "God is beautiful, there is a rose that is blue" cried Diva. "The blue rose is among the rare varieties in the world" Taban explained. "You know about the rare rose variety?" Diva looked at Taban seriously.

"Not everyone, I've only read about it in a book. Those grown in greenhouses include rare varieties of roses. There are four types of rare roses here, blue roses as we are looking at, golden yellow Cara Luna Gold roses, Britis Rose, and black roses" Taban replied.

"Wow there's a black rose too" Diva said in amazement. "There, Khan brought the seeds directly from Turkey precisely in the area of Halfeti." Taban smiled gently at the Diva. "Let's have lunch here." Taban shows the gazebo in the garden. There is already a full lunch available that is appetizing.

"It is romantic lunch surrounded by the fragrance of roses of various colors" Shanum said in his heart. If only the man were here. Shanum smiled wryly, he still remembered the man, even though his heart still felt troubled.

After from the rose garden they continued to the river and fished there. Fishing activities are very interesting. The three girls enjoyed it very much. And their activity on that day ended when the sun sank back into the dispute. Shanum had just finished bathing and was dressed when the door of his room was knocked on by someone. Shanum headed for the door and was astonished to find Dario standing before him restlessly.

"Yes Dario, what's wrong?" tanyakanya. "Sorry Shanum, you're probably tired. But I don't know how else to explain it" he replied. Shanum frowned, looking confused. "You mean?" "Ehm, look, can I ask you a favor. Khan asked you to meet him in his room. And I can't go back empty-handed" Dario said grimacingly.

Shanum stiffened, he threw an annoyed look at Dario. "You mean that guy forced that? There is no other day. Tomorrow it can be." Shanum said ketus. "Shanum, please... Khan's been uproarious all day. Every time he asks if you've come back from that show. I've never begged anyone before. So please, help me, and come with me to see him" Dario said. Shanum had never heard Dario's heartbreaking voice and pleading before, this man was usually very stiff, and did not say much.

Shanum sighed, he could not bear to refuse any further. "Wait a minute, I change my clothes first." Dario seemed to smile with relief at Shanum's words. Then the girl went back into her room and changed her nightgown to a more appropriate dress. "Huh basic man refrigerator, make people bother," Shanum grumbled.

The closer to Khan Adrian's nursery, Shanum looked increasingly restless. Dario. He suddenly stopped striding astray before they reached the doorstep of Khan's room in the manicure. He looked at Shanum's face. "He won't hurt you. I know, because all this time I've never seen Khan act so seriously as that for a woman. He was so messy, his behavior was getting out of control. Not like Khan Adrian who is usually orderly, neat, cold and calculating" Dario said. Shanum stood stiffly hearing Dario's words. He nodded, not wanting to discuss further.

"Okay, please come in then. Good luck with Shanum." Dario pointed out the closed door with his hand gesture. He then walked back to the elevator. Shanum stared at the door in front of him, he swallowed his saliva. Shanum trembled, the girl had no idea what would happen inside later. But he was not a coward, he had to solve this problem immediately.

Shanum knocked on the door, when a 'in' voice came from inside the room, he opened the door handle. The door opens and features Khan Adrian talking to two men. As usual, his breathing was choked to see Khan, which made his frustration grow even more. Why did that man have such an influence over him? When is he immune? Khan turned and his lips curved up to form a smile slowly and made Shanum's heart stop beating when he saw it.

"We'll finish later," he muttered to the two men without turning his gaze away from Shanum. The two men nodded and paid their respects, then walked out of the room. Shanum tried to normalize his pounding heartbeat. He felt uncomfortable being stared at in such a way by Khan. The man observed Shanum's face with his golden-brown eyes.

"How are you, Shasha?" The electric current that now felt familiar rattled between them, its attraction getting stronger due to Shanum's emotions. "Good." The man smiled as he gestured for the girl to sit on his bed. Shanum immediately shook his head.

Khan's smile turned into a frown. "I've been waiting for you since yesterday. Did you get the flowers?" "Yes. Beautiful flowers. Thank you," replied Shanum stiffly. "That flower reminds me of you and Sintai." Khan stared blankly at the wall across the room. And Shanum looked irritated. What is that man doing? Shanum began to think this man was suffering from a mental disorder. Which girl likes to be likened to another woman.

"Some women might find it romantic, but not with me." The man regained his senses from his daydream when he heard the words ketus Shanum. Khan looked at him, then sighed, giving in to his confusion. "I'm glad you're still willing to take it." Then pause again. "Sorry..."

"I'll think about it, if I can forgive you" Shanum replied. After his attitude and words the other day Shanum wondered if he wanted to be reunited with Khan.

What did he really feel about Khan? If he has no taste for her, why does he feel hurt?

Is she in love with that man? It was a possibility he had feared since yesterday, when he received the bouquet of flowers. Shanum began to realize that if he could not escape the man, though he was upset his desire to remain with him was always there. But he could not justify a moment in between moments where he made the girl feel like a spare woman.

"Adri, we don't have any relationship. We started when you saved my life from drowning, and then I returned the favor by burning people who tried to kill you to ashes. We're already breakeven, so let's just end up here" Shanum said with a flat face. "Shaa." His voice turned hoarse. "I know I screwed things up. Let me explain."

"You don't have to do it. This is not a problem" Shanum said flatly. "It's trouble. I can't accept you leaving me." Shanum gasped, his face looking shocked. "I don't want-"

Giving up on something that could not be avoided, he drew closer to the man. The man's face looked calm and flat, but his eyes were grim and hot. Shanum took a deep breath and trembled. The smell of that man was incredible.

"Every time I close my eyes, I see you beside me, holding me gently and looking at me with that soothing look" Khan whispered softly.

"Don't." Shanum turned his face away, unable to see his intimate way when looking at her. "I can't help myself." Khan straightened his position, then slowly clasped Shanum's hand. He pulled Shanum closer. Shanum gasped in surprise. "I don't know why I can't let you go. My mind was tormented when I heard you wanted to leave, Shasha," whispered the man in Shanum's ear.

"I'm not-" The man pulled Shanum into his body and hugged her. Shanum pecked, his body unable to move. The warm feeling that slowly spread all over his body made him flutter. The girl melted as she felt her embrace tighter, and the man's kiss in her hair.

In the man's embrace Shanum felt an understanding forming in his head. He's fallen for this guy. And that made him very afraid, this man loved Sintai very much. Can he hold his heart from breaking into pieces while competing with other women. How could he accept if Sarna was still intact to rule over the man's soul.

As the man let go of his embrace and smiled gently at Shanum, the girl shook her head. Shanum tried to stare at the man sternly, though his heart still felt indecisive. "Adri, let's just solve this problem. I don't want to be in touch with you anymore." Khan put his hands to his hair and exhaled loudly. "You didn't mean it."

Shanum suddenly felt very tired, tired from fighting against himself because of this man. "i'm serious. You and me, this is a mistake" Shanum said. The man's jaw is hardened. "No mistake. The way I dealt with it after that was his fault."

Shanum looked at him, surprised to hear the sharpness in his denial. "I'm talking about my agreement to your desire not to let me go. This 'stranger but friendly crazy' behavior between us. I knew from the beginning that this was all wrong. I should have listened to my instincts," sissed Shanum.

"Do you want to be with me, Shasha?"

"No. That's the-" Shanum replied. "It's not what you think it is. But more than that" Khan cut.

Shanum's heart started pounding. "What do you mean?" ask Shanum. "Everything." The man looked deeply at the girl. "I want to be with you" he continued. "You don't seem to want to be with me when you turn your face away after you realize that moment." Shanum said as he slowly got up from his seat. His arms tightly wrapped around his stomach.

"I.confusion," he continued. "Then? You think what about me, I'm worried too" the man sighed while hitting the mattress, his jaw hardened. "Don't lure myself into forcing you, Shasha."

Shanum ruffled his waist. "If that's all you have, we're done" Shanum said furiously. "We're not done yet" Khan replied. "We've arrived at a dead end if you turn weird every time you remember Sintai" Shanum shouted.

The man clearly had trouble finding words. He rubbed his face. "I can't forget Sintai. That girl's been here all this time, and I'm used to feeling it." Khan pointed at his chest while saying to Shanum. "You think so? So where's my place, Adri?" ask Shanum.

"Shaa." Khan called the girl. "I've never experienced anything like that. Not even with Sintai. I don't think that's possible. Now that I've experienced it, I have to get it. I have to have you."

"It was just a momentary emotion, Adri. It's only temporary, when you wake up, you'll thank me. Because I saved us from our mistakes."

"Omong-empty. I admit I screwed everything up. I can't change what's happened, but I'd be upset if you wanted to stay away from me. Please tell me your rules and I will adjust to accept them. But I want you to do the same." His face was hardened in frustration. "At least a little bit" please.

Shanum looked at him, trying to think about what he was doing and what the purpose of all this was. "What do you want, Adri?" tanyanya. Khan looked at Shanum, his eyeballs gleaming golden. He sidled down from the bed. The man moved the infusion liquid to a wheeled pole that could be sheared.

Then he pulled Shanum towards her and cupped her cheek with one hand. "I want to keep feeling what I feel when I'm with you. Tell me what I should do. Give me room to make mistakes. I never did this. I have a lot to learn."

Shanum placed a hand on Khan's chest and felt the man's heart pounding. He never expected this cold man's heart to beat so hard because of it. Khan anxiously awaits Shanum's reply. His eyes glowed expectantly. How should Shanum answer that? Does he have to follow his heart or his mind?

"Do what? What about my life in my country?" ask Shanum. "Whatever I have to do to spend as much time as possible with you, and during your time here. About your return to your country we'll think about it later."

The rush of excitement crashing at Shanum was extremely powerful. "Do you understand how much effort and time the relationship between us requires, Adri? I still don't know more about you. Now I'm tired of my personal problems getting confusing. About the power I have, about my dreams, about the answers I keep looking for..."

Shanum shut Khan's mouth before the man answered his question. "But I cannot deny my feelings either. Deep down, I want to be with you too. So I guess I don't have a choice, do I?"

Khan's eyes widened, he was speechless. Khan immediately pulled Shanum into his arms. He brought his face closer to the girl's face. The man pressed his nose against Shanum's nose and closed his eyes.

His breath felt warm and heavy heard by Shanum. The girl's face was red, her body was trembling. In his entire life, he had never been this close to a man. If his father finds out, he could soon be brought home and locked up at home for the rest of his life.

Khan opened his eyes, then turned his face back. He smiled until his neat white teeth were seen. He never saw her smile that wide. His golden brown eyes looked dazzling, he made Shanum gobsmacked. She could not believe it, that handsome man wanted her.

"Shaa?" call Khan. "You're handsome, Adri." Those words shot out from Shanum's mouth without a second thought. Khan's eyebrows shot up, then his eyes softened. "I'm glad you like what you see." Shanum seemed to grimace in embarrassment, as he came to a realization of the ridiculous situation. "Oh, Bucket's mouth, can not be held, just embarrassed," Shanum said in his heart.