Small Stars For Faila

My heart is not like it used to be

Grandpa has very many Business colleagues almost everything comes from good friends Papi Frans also many who come.

After all, the show is over. Grandfather will be buried in Family Cemetery, with both Our Parents in Malang,

I didn't realize Frans was sitting back next to me, I felt my legs had no strength to stand.

“This drink Fai “Frans gave me one bottle, a vitamin drink.

“Still Frans !” I didn't reject him, because I needed him.

Because tomorrow morning, it will be a long journey to take grandfather to his last house in Malang.

Now the atmosphere of the room was really quiet, fortunately Repina, Adira, Dance was there to accompany me, and,

“Ikhlas your grandfather Fai” said Adira was encouraging me,

Although many people have given condolences, but my heart is now petrified, the Soul seems to go with my grandfather's Spirit.

“Fai Mami wants to talk for a while “ sounds wake me up from daydreams. The familiar woman stood in front of me.

“You said what Mi” I asked,

“Sini “ Come on said Mami Frans brought Out.

Rest here Fai” I've booked the next room said Mami suddenly so attention.

That attention just makes me even more disliked, for what else. For me the attention given to me right now means nothing more, it's too late. Not to mention the attention of Frans, nor do I need it anymore,

“No need Mi!” there were my friends there who accompanied me, I rejected it subtly.

“I will accompany you Fai” Rest now Frans who shows his deathly concern.

Hi, brother” isn't it too late? No more use, no need to waste your energy, for me, I felt very irritated.

“No Frans, there is a Dance and Adira inside is not good to leave them, that reason I think is enough, to stop it

“Baik” Frans says seems to understand.

But Faila Kirana!” I'm currently ‘still your husband's status, You don't deserve to be ignored I'm like this! Frans said, His eyes looking at me sharply

“I didn't ignore you Frans, Just, maybe my brain was filled with a lot of thoughts. I can't think which is worth ignoring and which is worth defending.

“Means?’ He asked again, with the gaze of Eyes this time, more investigating.

“Have forgotten Frans, Later there will be a time we talk, about us “ I said leave it

Tomorrow is the day of grandfather's funeral, the motorcade is lined up neatly, the car is lined up,

Frans pulled my hand, to go with him, I thought he didn't want to come after that night, I ignored him

But from that morning, I did not know what possessed Frans Satan, because He always followed me, wherever I went, When his intention I wanted to sit with Dance, Adira, Repina, and Brother Hendro of course

But this one bagol guy, tailing me wherever I go,

“There's with him today?” I'm impinge

In his car even the occupants were just the two of us, of the many people who wanted to come and wanted to take a ride, but I don't know what this handsome man thinks, with his brain that is too smart, it's just that, I don't get it

Choosing to follow what he wanted at this moment, back to the Mode of silence, Frans kept quiet I was busy with his own thoughts.

“UWaaak

My stomach feels nauseous wanting to vomit, Frans's face tense, and stop his car, when it becomes a husband on standby for me,

“Fai” you're okay Frans said the eyes were re-investigating

In Frans's mind maybe I'm pregnant, her hands are still pouring rubbing oil around my neck. But his eyes looked far away

“Stop your mind Frans ! it hasn't happened” I broke his reverie,

“What?” frans said with a look of a wave,

“You must be thinking, I'm already pregnant, it can't be it's only three weeks’ You don't setokcer it kok!” 1 New month there are signs, so stop your mind ! I said.

After a long struggle with the streets, finally arrived also in Malang where Raga grandfather will be buried there.

His contract is up in this world. Now maybe grandfather has met and faced the creator, he said,

“Did grandfather meet Mom and Dad this time’ I daydreamed

Many people who drove the departure of grandfather, the row of cars lined the roadside. Until my eyes were fixed on an unforgettable figure. Ex already , I wasted first, I,

Felix and his family had arrived first, at the funeral. I was just about to approach but the man's burly hand held my hand so possessively

I snorted in annoyance, Frans tightened his grip, and,

Now I just realized why from this morning he was following everywhere. It was because of Felix.

Throughout the funeral . He kept holding my hand, looking like a prisoner of Love,

I want to cry, but it's weird I don't want to cry on Frans' shoulder right now. The thought of Felix right now, though,

The Old man's body was already covered in Land,

The dam in my eyes finally spilled as well I tried to hold it back from earlier but to no avail.

The sense of loss and regret tormented me at this moment, after realizing I had never done anything to please her.

Don't be weak Faila’’ stand firm, I whispered to strengthen myself. I want to keep crying over the old man, for the last time,

Now the three of them have gathered together, Father, Mother, Grandpa

I plucked the grass in the mound of the grave Mother and Brother Hendro also plucked the grass Father.

One by one people had left the burial place, Me and my brother were still staying, busy with the thought of each hand still cleaning the Grass in Mother's grave.

We are both orphans. Just brother Hendro my family

My eyes were still staring at those three tombstones. I wish Mom and Dad saw us both.

“Ayo” brother Hendro patted me on the shoulder

The heaviness of stepping in to leave that place, there's still so much I want to say to Mom and Dad. Hope the three of them help me beg the Powerful for me to be Strong.

Because the burden I carry is very heavy. Dance and Frans were still standing some distance away from our place. They gave us time.

I looked back again before leaving and said goodbye from my heart to them. Leaving the cemetery . But on the side of the road. Unexpected Aunt Mira and Om Sami, Felix was waiting for us.

I thought since that incident Aunt Mira and Om Sami would not want to see me anymore, but they were still being nice . making me feel even more guilty.

“Sabar yes dear” Aunt Mira rubbed my hand.

“We take a break to Home Om first Fai!” sami offered.

Frans is waiting for me to stand next to the car. Showing his dislike.

“I'm sorry Om Aunte” said I felt guilty

“It's okay dear” that matters you are happy said Aunt Mira sincerely

“ Oh Lord !” why did I not choose this family whispered in my heart hugging aunt Mira warmly

Felix just looked at me not saying anything. It is precisely I who feel ashamed to meet him, because of the incident that night.

“Go Husband is waiting for you” said Felix but it sounds like an expulsion for me.

“Baik”I went Auntie, Om” I left that family. But looking at Frans who stood waiting, I drew a long Breath.

“You go home alone I want to go home with Hendro, I said.

Frans' face flushed red and his jaw was hardened. There was anger on that face,

“I come with you Faila, home should be with you too.!

“Lazy arguing with you”Udah come on!” I said even more annoyed, though,