Small Stars For Faila

Must be operated

"Wake up tell me what happened.? I hope what I heard

Untrue” Whisper Frans sadly echoed in my ears

Samar faintly I heard Felix scolded out - exhausted

By Om Sami and Aunt Mira,

"You must take responsibility, If anything happens to her”

Said Aunt Mira loudly.

"Bas stupid Army really is, what would this country be weak women you treat like that” Maki

Om Sami to His Son.

My brain is completely blunt and cannot understand the situation yet,

I'm trying to remember what happened at the hotel last night

Yes Felix molested me so violently and I fell asleep and ended up

In the hospital bed and out of it I can't remember anymore.

"Wake up dong Fai" don't scare me again this time, I can't stand to see you

Suffering continuously the cry of Dance slightly teased me wanting it to feel like I was hugging

my best friend is that.

Again Frans mami joined memekek cryingisisi me who pura closed her eyes.

I don't have the courage. Meet that guy, though,

But I felt my right chest start to hurt, I grimaced holding my chest

“Doctor !" Mohan called the Doctor

but my heart is getting sicker.

"Ah aching” I sat holding my chest It felt like it was burning hot and crowded.

“The collision is megenai in the connecting area and a little detached and really this is very

Dangerous said a doctor whose stature had begun to grow old. We will perform surgery” said Doctor

"Ah what has been missed the hell "my whisper is getting upset

Again the atmosphere was more panicked, the face of Felix was no less pale, plus the attitude of his parents

Who always presses him, though,

I finally found out where the problem was, as a result of being pushed to the sofa, a buffer

The sofa hit my chest, the arrival of the two policemen due to reports of people watching

Felix's mistreatment of me wasn't really persecution

You could say not the fault of FeLix completely anyway, his fault because he can not control

Emotions,

My words were insulting to her because I wanted to return insulting words

To me,

So I think the beating was not a persecution but an accidental act

it's just that my nose and lips are bleeding because of the couch.

This time I'm going to be in surgery ?" OH no longer is my body pushed into an operating shirt, but I don't want any more, that thing

just right to avoid all this back.

"We can't do surgery, though,

if the patient is unconscious’ said the Doctors

I feel like Doctor's statements are too scary sometimes. This isn't

The first I felt and it almost happened. What more if I'm inside

fear, considering that my heart is not the original heart anymore, my heart is the result

loans so this will happen to my body a lot, too,

"I just want to go home Mi" I whispered to my mother who took care of me at that time,

"Fai you're already aware "he stood up to call the Doctor

"Don't Mi-I don't want Operation anymore, this place is what makes me

Can't breathe"

"Keep what do we want to do ?"

"Take me home Mi, from this place"

My request seems very heavy to my mother, taking me away

From that room it's gonna be really hard, my grandfather was there,

Mami didn't want to take the risk of taking me away from her

That horrible place.

Knowing I'm awake, this time they're all in the room.

Form a circle around my bed.

"I don't want to be in surgery "

"This file is for your own good !" My grandfather said his old face this time clearly visible in front of me, almost 6 months I play cat-slinging with grandfather, his face looks tired and wrapped in sadness.

" I know what's best for my life and me" I said still with the usual gnawing attitude,

"May I speak with the patient" said the doctor who looked older than

Another doctor,

This time only me and the senior Doctor were in the room, his face was smiling and

Patience looks at me, though,

"I'm your mom's senior first", we're both Doctors of the Heart !"

"Oh "I said I don't want to hear anything else, just want to be direct

"You look a lot like him"

"HA "I nodded

"Look Faila "His hand holds my daily paper. I don't know why I

Not feeling worried, or feeling uneasy, maybe because I'm used to getting shocking news in my life,

"You have to have surgery, otherwise your heart will really be damaged” said the Doctor,

The heart recipient should have regular checkups to keep an eye on

They, afraid that something might leak or have their nerves severed, were,

The problem is they're not original connections anymore,

"You understand, right ?.

"Yes I said"this isn't the first time I've heard it, just before

Meeting my Frans family, I often wish her veins were broken otherwise,

Don't work all of them, please,

The doctor seemed to see my attitude that did not care much, or panic or martyrdom

"You'll be paralyzed !"

The doctor surprised me, though,

"What..?"

"Yes, "the seizures that you often experience, seem to be slow to damage function

Some important conditions in your body

"Have you ever felt your finger numb or tingling frequently ?"

"Yes" even more often these days,

"Yes maybe in a few months they don't work anymore, starting at your feet they don't

You can walk, and be followed by everything else, your vocal cords, and blindness, and end up paralyzed

Permanent.

"What..?"

"Yes, "the seizures that you often experience, seem to gradually damage the function of your internal organs and

Some important nerves in your body

"Have you ever felt your finger numb or tingling frequently ?"

"Yes" even more often these days,

"Yes maybe in a few months they don't work anymore.!” starting from your feet no

Can walk, and follow the others, your vocal cords, and blindness, and end up paralyzed permanently.

My world is really falling apart, it feels dark my eyes, Paralyzed, blind, and mute, will be just a living bone and flesh, “ And useless to live on, will be,

Not being able to take care of herself would trouble others, though,

When I showed up Frans was the man I loved so much,

How can I deal with it how I tell it,

“Faila we will deal with it, your mother and I used to think about the cure, even your mother used to never give up on you, you know,

“What..?” My illness did my mother know it..?

“Iya..!  Your mother even predicted back then, if you only lasted 10 years, that's also the reason your mother donated some of her heart, she said,

“Not because of accident..! ask me with a astonished tone

“That's only a fraction of your problem.!’ Actually we already know you have a heart disorder since childhood, I tried hard to find a solution to your recovery,

Even your mother, not a Cardiologist but because of you, she had to study hard and become a Cardiologist ,

“Really..! my mother killed herself to donate her heart to me,

“We've been looking for a Heart Donor for you for a long time, but no one's a match, until an accident happened that resulted in your father dying.

“How did my mother end her life Doctor ?”

“ Feeling Depressed for not being able to save you and having to lose her beloved husband,

“He had a work accident, inhaled too much Carbon smoke in the laboratory examination room. According to eyewitnesses who saw it he deliberately set it on fire,

“You already know my mother wanted to kill herself but you didn't prevent her?”

“Faila someone's death no one knows !  it happened at night, the doctors' practice was closed, closed,

It was only me and Doctor Mira who knew it, his will addressed to Doctor Mira, it was originally

we know all this Doctor Santosa said in self-defense

We've been looking for you for a long time, Faila..! But your grandfather didn't let us see you said Doctor Santosa, his face full of patience

“Does my brother know all this..? ask me curious and maybe already” considering the hatred shown all this time to me,

“I doubt that.! If your grandfather already knew your mother's reckless actions. Because the entire hospital until now has not known the real incident,

Doctor Mira and I took her to the hospital that day, and we both found Mum’

So it seems I'm not sure. The reason he hates you is probably because of the loss he has of his son and son.

“How likely is it that I will recover ..?”

But dear Doctor Santos seems to be hesitant for my possibility of recovery,

If I had to stay paralyzed for what I had to operate on.. I'm desperate, though,

Doctor santos left me alone, telling me to think about it,

But all I thought about was one Frans didn't want the man to know about me, he said,

“Fai” Doctor says what Tanya Tari is curious, Ah what a pity this time so many people care about me.! My whisper is in my heart,

“I just need more treatment Tar.!

“We will treat him and I will take care of you Frans suddenly came from the Door

“No Frans !”  he's still gonna be here Aunt Mira suddenly comes cut off our conversation