Small Stars For Faila

The love that is beginning to fade

The clock has shown 10 Hours . Frans is seen still sitting in his room balcony. I thought if I hadn't come home just now. He would worry and call me, but since sitting in the cafe, I wish my phone would ring and wish a call to me from him, calm him home at what time, what to pick up, or remind him not to go home too late. Or calling, just scolding is okay .I'm staring at my phone beeping from earlier

Seeing him sitting quietly in the Balcony of that room made me really angry – . I don't want to go up and see it

Frans' family is asleep. Only Frans is not asleep.

The anger in my heart seemed to want to explode. Can't He pay as little attention as he used to” I said inwardly

Go to the bathroom right now, wander under the shower, to relieve the head heat and heat in the heart

“Is the love that once faded, or you keep it deep in the bottom of your heart “ I monologue myself

If it is still love, it is impossible to see the loved one crying or sad but .

I let the Water flush down every inch of my skin.

Darling in the bathroom Frans there is no bathtub.maybe if there I may have soaked until tomorrow morning, maybe,

Tok Tok Tok TOk

I turned off the water because of the knocking, Frans from the door.

“ You did in the bathroom long warm “ Ask Frans after I came out. Eyes investigated.

“I take a shower “ I answered my hand wrapped wet hair. I purposely got dressed from the bathroom not wanting him to think I was teasing him.

“ It's been 11pm Faila !” Said Frans.

“Keep that 11 o'clock is not allowed to shower? Said trying to reply.

“ Why are you so angry Faila? Frans looked at me.

“Frans! Do you hate me so much ?I said stand in front of him.

“Fai don't discuss it anymore please.! Frans said his face looks frustrated.”

“You just have to answer Frans

“What , do you want Faila.! We agreed Faila.

“I just need honesty from you. Do you not love me anymore? tell me something, so I don't get confused ! I said.

Frans seemed to think he was looking at me.

“Give me time to think” said Frans trying to take his eyes off me.

“Frans we are not just a month or a week meet 4 years, we already know. I've been chasing you all that time, Frans!

What long ago, you didn't have feelings for me? I mean you said you loved me !. Is there still to this day?’

“Fai “what after all that happened is it still certain to ask me that,? Frans asked but the look on his face I could not read, there was a heart wound that he tried to heal.

“Frans !” I just asked, I want to make sure” I said

“ Should have” you already know the answer. Faila.?

“ I only love you Frans !”say

Frans' eyes immediately glared sharply at me. He approached. His Brown Eyes lit up like a spark.

“Stop saying That , right now to me Fai his voice is rising and punching the wall of that room very hard his hand is hurt.

I was surprised not to think He was angry.

“You have to explain where my mistake lies Frans “ so I can fix it I said.

“Listen! It's too late ! frans said he wanted to leave me, but I really couldn't hold back my feelings. I was with someone I loved. But why is it as if there is a gap between us. I can't help my feelings. I hugged him from behind

“Don't Leave me Frans !I love you so much! I said beg.

‘”Don't tell me that, again to me Faila” I really hate you saying that! said Frans releasing my hand from his embrace.

“ But why Frans !” I said still a little bit.

‘Really! That's how you felt about me when I came here?” You should have said it Frans !I said.

“I said Faila” before the wedding, and Naas' day in the bathroom, you should have understood it” Frans said.

“Yes you're right, I already know you hate me Frans but I can't hate you!.

“You have to do it Faila!” you must hate me If you do not want to be hurt” No more Love I have to give you” .There is hatred in the heart. Frans said with a gloomy face

“Hate me a lot and forget Frans said.

“Is there any other love Frans in your heart!” how about Frans, do you love Adella I said

“I don't know , I love if not Faila, but when you decide to marry Felix. We have a relationship, Frans said..

“As soon as it turns out” so true you guys have a relationship” I think, fake” news I said.so it's true I took Frans. I Hold That Water so it doesn't spill

“So I hope you understand my position Faila” I have no future left that I can be proud of. That's why I'm begging you to keep expecting me again.

Adella's father wanted to give me the project. I'm very happy because it's going to be a good start to my career. I hope you can help me, Frans said.

You can do anything, get in touch with anyone including Felix. Just so you can tell me, so I can answer my family. And you can keep secrets from my family . I have no problem Faila” Frans said.

“Alright Frans said. Resisting the shock in my chest,

My heart feels like it's being burned and stabbed

But I've done what I can do.Humans never escape mistakes. What's going on right now, it's starting because I love you too much.

There comes a time, we have no other choice

In addition to being quiet and trying to accept it.

I certainly can, just as I've hated families for so many years, because of the trauma I've been through, blaming them for hating them. The more I hated my family the more my illness recurred and I was tormented . But by the time I began to forgive them and understand them, my illness was getting better and never again relapsed.

This time I will be at peace with myself and have to forget Frans and not hate him.

“Fai sorry” said Frans He looked at me who was sitting speechless after hearing the bitter statement,

“It's okay –apa Frans maybe I should learn to accept reality I said.

‘Iya’ You should be happy Faila” says Frans

I don't know what else to say, I think Frans was jealous of me all this time,

“IYa” let you treat your wounds “my words to Frans.

“No need Fai, Let me treat him”sata Frans

“Let's just say I'm your friend Frans, from now on we have to be friends .One room friend I said”

“Hopefully I'm strong” whispered inwardly.

Trying to accept that fact , If it feels so painful , But life goes on .the journey is still long, try not to hate Frans .

Initial Heart Wound of vengeance .after a new grudge there is an intention to avenge it. I didn't want the Bomb Chain that time in my life. The point is I made peace with myself and tried to understand Frans' position.

It's been a month since Frans' confession and I'm alive breathing, at this point. Frans rarely came home for a month to his family home. He chose to sleep in his apartment. Mami is still with her cold attitude towards me.

But Frans' papa treated me as well as a child himself as ever. Arjun returns to the house he used to live in his school dormitory. Regi has since broken up with Kaila Frans' sister He hates me. But right now we've made up. Brother Dion the second cold man I know. Not as cold as before.

Her grandmother Frans was exactly a month ago, after our marriage was not sanctioned. He returned to India and promised to come in a month.

Right after a month He came again, He still remained with his opinion. To hold a wedding reception for us..

As usual the house will not be quiet if there is a grandmother Frans. As the daughter-in-law of her mother Frans never escaped her babble.

So do I. I also got his prattle. But choose to try to understand and understand it.

A fussy parent advises his children that it is a caring parent. I take it as a feeling of care for me. I followed Ami's will with pleasure. But who he loves me.