Small Stars For Faila

Adventure with Frans

“Mommy just go while baby, later Mother comes home from the hospital,”

“Momy don't go again stay with us,” Arden said looking at me with a cry.

“Alright Mommy won't go, don't cry anymore Mommy can't bear to see those tears”

Intention to leave tomorrow I postpone, seeing the twin boys crying because I want to go makes me undo my intention to leave, meaning to postpone first, I think they are sad because there is no Dance at home, maybe if Tari and brother had gone home the boy would also forget their own Mommy, it was natural because the attention of Tari and sister for them were both very large.

Today Tari will go home, if he sees me he will run amok again, better get out of the house than he gets angry again later, later, when the twins took a nap, it was my chance to get out of the house, sleep in the hotel for a few days before flying around the world.

Seeing them fall asleep like that, my heart aches, why can't we live like a whole family Father Mother and our Children.

“Please take care of them yes mbak, I have a task outside the City, soon father and Bu Tari come home from the hospital.”

“Iya bu” both women easy it nods simultaneously.

Pulling the large suitcase Haris helped me put it in the trunk of the car carrying to the Hotel, arriving at the Hotel room the sense of silence and loneliness was increasingly becoming, fortunately I had recovered from the trauma otherwise, I could have been flaking with my foaming mouth this time.

True, the word love makes you excited and love sometimes makes you strong, for some reason, but when I lose love it feels empty and empty.

Afternoon has arrived I did nothing one day just watch sleep laze , I want to walk around and drive myself maybe enjoy the traffic jam of the capital Jakarta goods times can fill the silence in the heart.

Driving myself aimlessly, fortunately not too jammed, the road was smooth until I ended up in one of the cafes in South Jakarta, Indonesia, still remember that was the place we often hang out with Frans Tari also several times I invited to hang out there cafe-style Dutch era was most suitable place to hang out for long, the place to hang out, located on the roadside and the view is interesting and unique. Coffee robusta flagship Cafe, I ordered a glass to accompany me hanging out to remember the past, but while waiting, arrived someone sitting next to me.

“Frans how did you know I was here?” looking at him confused,

“You forgot Fai, my office is upstairs, I was the one who had to ask why you got stranded here?”

“Stranded? emang Shark stranded,” I grumbled, annoyed,

Frans laughed crisply at me babbling and lips rose three centi meters.

“What a dream I had last night, I had wanted to go home sooner from work, but suddenly there was something in my heart as if telling me to come home a little night to see you here, this time,” said Frans looking seriously right or not only Frans knows, but I can see the sincerity in his eyes.

“I just origin of the road , but arrived to this area, I used to remember we often stop by here then that's me also stop by”

“Hmm, we used to come here often I think you have forgotten it Fai, even though I because often pass from here, I feel it is normal,” said Frans ordered the same coffee as I ordered.

Sitting here together with Frans reminds me of that past, a girl with hair on a bun roll always comes carrying a row of bushels carrying the food I cooked myself for Frans, given that I suddenly hated my old self so much, why did I used to be so cheap and shameful.

“Think what?”

“Reminds me of my former shameful and cheap self,” I said staring blankly at the street. I know Frans doesn't like me discussing the past, he's switching the conversation.

“What are you so going?”

“Iya”

“Frans”

“Ha? That fast, didn't you say a few more weeks,” asked Frans his eyes looking at me with a look of disbelief.

“I feel empty Frans, I feel no spirit of life, I feel there is a part of my heart missing, and I don't know what it is, I want a new atmosphere, I want a new atmosphere, I want to throw all the burden in my life, I have to do it before I crazy”

Frans looked at me with a deep look, there was something he said to me, but he said it hard, I also did not want to force him to talk, because I was nothing at the moment, we kept quiet for a while, my hands were busy spinning the coffee cup I was holding.

“Fai, can I come?” frans asked looking at me with a sad look.

“Ta-ta-but do you want Frans?”my question suddenly felt stuttering because I wanted Frans to actually come along but I was embarrassed to ask her, she said,

“Tentu”

“Ayo...”ajakkku happily, going with Frans will probably be very different from going alone.

“You're sure I can come?” frans asked me again.

“Iya”

**

My relationship with Frans is only limited to ex-husband and wife, but we both decided to adventure together, I don't know what I will be,

My invitation that night turned out to be taken seriously by Frans, after taking care of all his passports, we began our journey from Singapore on a cruise ship wanting to travel the world, one of my wishes from the past. Riding the Hitman Cruise from Singapore will sail to South Korea.

“You ready for adventure?” frans asked with a sweet smile.

“Ready,” I said there was a bad taste also between the two flavors in the heart between Frans and Hendra's sister,

Brother Hendra won't let me be with Frans again even though my heart, honestly still loves him very much, but my brother is like my parents and savior for me to choose and go Frans as he is today, I lied to my brother, but it's about the heart.

Now that we were both on board the luxury yacht preparing to sail the vast ocean through each country, Frans looked happy there was no burden in his face different from me who was wrong, when in Jakarta want to go, but when on board the ship is currently seen carrying a lot of burden.

“Please don't think that much, enjoy what you have chosen”

“But what if Brother Hendra finds out that I went with you?”

“Don't think, won't know already enjoy, Come,’ said Frans clasped my palm carrying me to the top floor of the ship, enjoying every sight seen from the boat, it was difficult to express, it might not feel the same if I went alone.