Small Stars For Faila

Not wanting to get married

“Let me tell him, Auntie said,

“Good..! said aunt mira finally,

Aunty Mira tomorrow accompanied her husband Duties in Papua for a week, it seems that we have not had time to discuss about our failed marriage with her husband. Because of his sudden assignment

Because the next morning he still reminded Felix to look after his future wife, Dan Felix just nodded with a flat face.  Aunt Mira looked at me and did not say what pa and did not know what the woman was thinking,

Go for a week whatever I can do, this house will feel lonely, because one of the Household assistants again came home and a week I will be alone at home

Imagine that I feel bad, though,

That day Aunt Mira finally left and Om, Previously Kaila had left first, there was training in Bandung and again there was a lecture assignment for Three days and will not go home, he said,

Felix and I were at home right now, he looked at me nonchalantly, My intention to teach him a lesson suddenly faded away replaced with a feeling of Fear. Fear of being left alone at home,

I was still standing in front of the house after delivering the departure of Om the same Aunt, I was afraid to enter the house, The atmosphere that came suddenly – suddenly quiet that made me feel crowded, I was afraid to go home,

Aunty for hurrying –hasty seems to have not realized my illness that can not be left alone, he said,

“Why is it still standing there Felix said to me in shock

“Do not go !” I said staring as if begging

He looked at me still with his gaze still cold and indifferent

“I'm not going anywhere, come on in.!

Oh my heart is starting to feel bad if ice cubes are met with me then what would it be !”

Just entering I have started beating my heart is not because, Felix who likes the atmosphere of calm and silence just became a disease for me,

He sat down on the sofa and went back to reading books, again ignoring me, I took a deep breath

“It's okay –apa Faila all will be fine I said in my heart chanting a couple of times,

“Are you off because of me .?” I started a conversation, even though I knew she didn't like it,

“Iya” He replied without turning his head

“Do you want to eat something I'll cook it.?

“Aren't we just absorbed ten minutes ago..! Said with a quotation mark gaze” DO NOT WHISPER”

“Oh yes” sahutku in heart.   But I can die if you ignore me, I said.

Instead of bothering him I set the TV and raised the volume, Again he was angry and upset and wanted to leave me, he moved on and wanted to go to his room,

I ran to follow him from behind and followed him into his room.

“What do you want to do Faila’ this is my room,!

“It's okay that I'm your future wife I said with a breath of breath holding my heart that was kicking incoherently, I said,

It's better if he slaps me all or curses or insults me which is important there's a sound I say.

“I'm not that kind of guy so go, he pushes me out of his room,

“I beg you to let me here I'm afraid I said by hugging her from behind, I don't know what I was thinking but at that time, it was all I could do to save me from a –kejang seizure, kejang,

I sobbed –isak somehow I even called Frans, I miss him so much

“FRans I'm afraid, please save me , I beg you..!

“I'm afraid Felix I beg you not to leave me..!

I cried like a little boy, who didn't want to leave his mother, I held his shirt, it was so embarrassing, he said,

“Well tell me what's up..? he said then turned my body around.

“I phobia deserted dark rain and many more it can make my body convulsing later I said honestly.

“Not just about the heart of your disease said your mother the recipient donor from your mother he said

“That too, and Phobia problem also I said and re-hugged her body, too,

This time he accepted it and let it go, I hugged him, tightly, but in my shadow, even the other man you care about.

Kriiiie

Krinnnng”

Yes ma'am!”

“Geez “ you forgot to tell you, Faila” Aunt Mira panicked

“Iya why BU..!”

“Don't leave it alone Felix. He was afraid of being alone he could convulsify later.  if that happens you can give the medicine at the Mother's Desk said Aunt Mira on the phone and I can hear it clearly because my position is still hugging the man's body tightly, She looked at me

But somehow my hand hit Frans's number, which was almost a month old, I didn't call him, because I changed the new number to try to forget it. But this time I miss him so much,

“Haloooo!”

“Halo this sipa..!”

Frans said behind on the other end of my phone, just hearing that sound can make me calm down and feel a little normal. Although sweat soaked my body because it was outside the heavy rain followed by Lightning that made me want to turn into a Monster, in front of Felix. The man who hated me so much for being forced to marry me by his Parents.

“Haloooo!”

“Is that you Fai..!” frans said very softly and was able to make me cry tormented.  Still in the position of hugging Felix's body, I don't know what he thought the man was because I hugged him, but called another man. But I think “ if he doesn't have feelings for me it won't have any effect on that guy

“Fai.?” I know it's you” please tell me something he said.

“IYa “ I miss you said later..!

“Fai..Are you okay, Frans said worriedly

But it stopped me, it sounded like the voice of a woman, someone who had been chasing her for a long time, a woman who had once kept us away from each other.

“Who dear heard the voice of a woman greeting beside her.

My heart ached, and feeling sorry to call, I turned off my phone and sobbed again at the arms of the – man, he just silently helped me really make it a runaway.

He tuned the audio music in his room the atmosphere could finally revive me and save me from dying that day.

For almost 20 minutes I plowed the man's body, I made him an escape, he simply obeyed and let me wet his shirt with my tears that I spilled on his shirt, tears from my longing for the man I loved for – years, and it seems like my position has been replaced by someone else, the woman who had long idolized Frans even longer than me.

“That's how quickly he forgot me..? I'm impingement

She felt I was no longer as excited, but still hugging her body, she said,

“Already.?” he looked at me with his sliding eyes, no matter what he was thinking at that time, I was stupid to think about his feelings, because you know he will not care how the feelings and words Love.

“Iya “ I said and took a backward position, his eyes still watching but did not ask me anything” why I ?” how bad was my condition ?” , he just kept quiet and undressed his wet clothes and was really very wet for how many quarts of tears I shed on his shirt, and the water from my nose seems to add to that.