Small Stars For Faila

I'm afraid of the dark

Although Mohan and other friends protested and disagreed with my new job, I often had to go home early and get tired and started infrequently  go back with them again.

I received an offer from a restaurant that serves live music at one of the cafe restaurants in the South Jakarta area this time I did not hold a spoon and fork, he said,  I played guitar and piano . Open at night until morning, although the risk is very heavy but the results are also good enough for my practice costs and college semester fees,

That morning I entered the famous university room

I admit, I've rarely been seen again lately,  more busy working and often leave the course in the beginning because arrived - arrived people I know and I want to avoid ,  teaching in one of the courses I took, it made my world feel collapsed why they teased up to campus as well?”  I'm pissed off, though,

and this time I stopped again another figure that I avoided again suddenly stood before me.  Frans and grandfather and brother also why are these three people here?

I don't know how long I have to run away from them, they are family. I turned around before they noticed me, but I was wrong, Frans saw me

“Fai ! wait where are you going?” Frans ran a little after me, but I imitated him meeting these three men for me at this time more horror than having to meet even a bitch.

I hate my brother so much, even my grandfather, I'm not ready to meet them and Frans is also because of the incident in his apartment that when I ran away.

I ran a little away from the gates of the University, although Frans my grandfather and brother, running after me, I ran away and disappeared

I don't know how much I dodged and ran leaving them making me gosher with breathless breath, puffing,

Running in loyalty, like in the pursuit of a dog makes me, limp leaning behind the fast food restaurant building that comes from Pemaksam. But suddenly there was a kindly burly hand thrusting me into a miniral drink, I turned Mohan to look at me with a smile

“Alright thanks”

He didn't ask what happened he followed me leaning his body against the restaurant wall

Did he see my act? I asked in my heart, her silence made me curious.

“What are you doing here” my question after my breath starts to recover and normalize again,

“Talking to you” said casually.

“Haaa, did you see me earlier.”

“Hammm” Mohan, nagging, look not excited too this time, too,

“Let's go from here.  I don't want to go to college today, how about you, Fai?”

“By also” replied me.

It seems like the same thought of me and Mohan, We are again in trouble, looking for the entertainment of the right time at this time.

“Wait here I take my motor” Mohan told me to wait for him near the stop not far from Campus

Mohan's big Ninja bike took us away from that Campus

Stopping at Ancol Beach, our current destination the idea was taken for granted, Mohan quarreled again with his family making him very moody this time, he said,

Tracing the sand on the beach like a couple of lovers is what we do today, discussing time until the afternoon, eliminating saturation.

Mohan is now more open to me, he does not hesitate to tell his family to me , his mother always hoped he would take part in the company owned by his family, while his brother did not want him, he said, his father always trifles him, his mother almost every day presses him,

“What should I do Fai” He asked with his hands busy throwing small stones at the beach, trying to make some sandpaper.

“You have to prove to your family that you can,”

“How?.”

“I just need a little recognition from my father,” Mohan said his man slowly, I can feel what this man feels. He needs attention from his parents, sometimes children need attention and to inspire him, sometimes children behave mischievously to seek attention from their parents. But only people realize it.

Mohan just wants his father to praise him, give him a little spirit and appreciate all that he does,

Mohan is getting closer to me every day we are no longer getting along with each other, sitting comfortably side by side. I asked him to accompany me to find a book in the library for my college assignment.

Not getting the book I was looking for yet, the dark dam in the sky was a little fearful and agitated. Mohan had not realized about myself fully, let alone about my fear for things, he was still calmly searching for books in the porous, porous manner, occasionally his hand reached out to the stove on the highest shelf to get the book we were looking for,

The rain was getting heavier, I began to feel my forehead full of sweat, even though the room was cooling but not sustainable to my body, it seemed like the monster in my body was starting to wake up,

Don't I beg you to make out, I murmured softly.

The sign bracelet I was wearing started to signify the red wink that meant something bad was going to happen. Mohan was still standing next to me, my mind was no longer focused on looking for books, even though my hand was holding one of the books, but I felt my body start shaking my heart was pumping faster, as the rain grew heavier and the sound of lightning seemed as if the sky was about to collapse.

After the second lightning strike, and the rain was getting heavier, my clothes had started to get wet, the red marks on the bracelet I was wearing had already filled one love sign. I held Mohan's arm in fear,

“Why Fai are you afraid of lightning as well, don't be afraid there are Mohan babes here,” he said in a joking tone 'but not turning to my frightened face and cold sweat has flooded my body,

My phone's ringing, my best friend's dance. He called, he was in the cafeteria with Repina.

“Fai where are you?” tanya Tari sounds very worried, my hands tremble and start to feel tight, “Fai you are the same Mohan, right? Fai!” Dance kept calling me, on the other end of the phone I stung her running.

“ Tar, I'm afraid,” I'm afraid I said shaking.

“Wait, I'll come, don't go anywhere just hold Mohan's hand, OKe. don't go where” Tari hung up the phone, he said,

And the second call came from Bang Niko

“Fai, take a deep breath, Okay don't get out of that place ok!” bang Niko's voice was also like running

On the count of manit, finally what was feared happened. Dead lights because the generator in the campus was damaged by a tree.

Die me, relapse again Oh my God, I hold my chest.

Finally the monster in my body woke up, I hugged Mohan firmly.

Bang Niko contacted him, heard from behind his phone bang Niko

“Faila is with you right?”

“Iya bang, why?”  Ask Mohan who is not aware of the emergency

“Tolang holdin, Faila”.

“Indeed why Bang , off the lights in a moment he will convulsing” Mohan's eyes glared at me. What was more when I suddenly hugged him.

Scared of happening too, scary thing happened I convulsed. He panics, but still in the position of bang Niko calls him ,

“Iya bang, he.. convulsions,” said Mohan saw me hugging his arm tightly and one more hand holding my chest which suddenly tight can not breathe,

Why does it have to happen again, why does it have to be this time, I said,

My body had a tremendous seizure because of my phobic illness in the rain, lightning, dark, deserted places.