Small Stars For Faila

Wedding preparations

“Emang there is something worse than what I've been through all this time..! my whisper is

all the bitterness of life I've felt, getting me used to it. Got some bad news.

“You will not ask” Why so” Protest the man with his sharp eyes.

“Not” I replied briefly, Parents will not give bad things to their children I said with origin, if I know, the statement I made was not all true.

“Oh , I see, you think but that's what you think you've been after me” a long time said Felix with his annoying confidence. Makes me sick of hearing him talk.

I want to feel like I married her that day and made her shock and stroke.

“Married me an advantage for you but a disaster for me” he said again full of contempt.

High blood, cholesterol, uric acid, suddenly rose, the glass in front of the table I hold tightly to hold the emotions, if only his parents were not there, maybe I had shouted in solidarity.

But as a good potential ghost I have to keep an attitude.

“Felix keep your attitude,” snapped Aunt Mira looking at her son.

“Oh yes why should application Om ?”  immediately Mikah I said I arrived to make Felix the Ice Desert man was staring at me in wonder.

“Begini,Nak” Said Om Sami with doubt. There are things we need to talk about slowly. You yourself know that his religion is different from yours. You Nasrani and Om Islam is about religion a little sensitive so we talk slowly” said Om Sami. “Your grandfather does not agree that you follow the religion of Om”Say again.

“Oh it's okay –apa Om we are married Islam only religion Om and aunt, we will marry just” I said without thinking long

The two parents looked at me in surprise, Maybe their thoughts were me as their son said he wanted to marry Felix

Felix snorted in annoyance, hearing my decision to hold the wedding quickly

His face was full of anger. Not only her, even her sister looked at me suspiciously,

That day all the families came to investigate me in – ways each and I understood that. It started with her sister Kaila.

“What brother is okay ?” Getting married requires an adult attitude to live it, he said, pretentiously advising me even though he was almost the same age as me.

“IYes I know” I said indifferently..

“You’ same brother Felix has not known each other, not good, you guys engaged first or the introduction stage first.”

“No need, I'm sure” said again

Suddenly Kaila's face looked at me strangely, I know what they think of me,

Maybe they thought I was pregnant from someone else and asked for her brother's answer,

His gaze was directed at my flat stomach.

But unlike Aunt Mira who actually supports me to stay in the house.

“Fai. Auntie knows what's on your mind. But there are always miracles in every life of a person” he said kindly.

“Do aunts know about everything?”

“Iya darling. Honestly, I owe you a debt of gratitude, actually your mother, leave you to me and Doctor Santosa.”

But I'm not looking for you wholeheartedly, because of the busy work problems, or the responsibility as a doctor, you have to remain professional at work

finally the promise just passed, Seeing your current state I regret everything. “Pardon Aunt Faila. For not trying to find and treat mu” said Mama Felix. Hopefully the health records your mother left me can be used again to treat it, hopefully not late” said Aunt Mira with her beautiful round eyes. “If you want to marry Felix I support him because in childhood we have betrothed the two of you, because of your differences in attitude in childhood. You are the same, every time you meet will fight, and who started because yes kamu” said aunt Mira laughed then and supported us to get married stay at Home aunt Mira.Let's love” I still support you !” rest” said aunt Mira leaving me

That day it felt very tiring, so the brain felt could not be invited to think again. Just wanted to break down, the sound of knocking on the door interfered again.

“Do you want to marry me?”

It felt like this body had no energy just to answer his question. I chose to be quiet and squeak my forehead which felt very dizzy.

“Did you hear my question? Who did it?” Inquiry questions,

“Do what?” answer me with shame,

“Who is the one who impregnated you.?”

“Who is pregnant ?” My answer is still with laziness, though,

“You should hold people accountable

Who did it, why me ?

Felix, a north polar human, accused me of being a no-no, his eyes glared at me with contemptuous eyes, and his eyes stared intently at my stomach. Let me say it in my heart.

Defending himself seems to be in vain, his mind has been filled with suspicion towards me since the beginning of the meeting.

“Do you not think this is too evil to me.!”

The person who does and the person who feels

It's good that I'm responsible, said Felix still with his opinion that considers me pregnant at this time.

“I told you from earlier I am not pregnant” I replied cuek

The look in his eyes investigated in disbelief, his eyes again looking towards my stomach.

“Keep what reason you want to marry me

“I want a wedding, I said indifferently without looking

“Do you seriously want to marry Me?

“Iya”kataku again short,

“Loveless marriage is that what you want, aren't you afraid if someday I hurt you ? or will you get hurt ?”

“My life has gotten used to such things I said desperately.

Felix seemed to be able to read the despair in my face, the sharp and cynical look given to me was gradually ordinary. As much as he refused the marriage, I remained married

“All right whatever your purpose is to marry me I don't care anymore, alright let's do as you wish and my parents wish but remember .I will never give you love and will never touch you..!

“Yes” replied I was overjoyed to hear I wouldn't be touched as his wife because that's what I expected,

I don't like to touch people I don't like.

Felix left me alone. Om sami seems to have agreed to my request to hasten our marriage.

Felix is currently on duty in Malang again because he was previously assigned in Jakarta.

Our wedding plans have already begun to be designed by both parties. But somehow I until then did not understand all the decisions that I agreed to,

My slow brain in thinking still doesn't seem to wake up. From his long sleep. Why am I married to someone I hate?” whispered in my heart,