Holy Prison

PS 9 - Sound of Laknat

Let me look like this time a pathetic poor man asking for help. Just for a few times. I'm no longer strong here and I feel like I'm starting to run out of sense. I want to call Revan. I'm sure he can get me out of here. My boyfriend has a thousand and one sneaky brains in a hazy affair like this. And I'm sure he'll help me. Because he loves me so much.

This guy in front of me just looked at me as if he said ‘want to say what?’

“Pinjemin I mobile lo, please.” I said, begging.

“Eat first.” said.

“Gue promises to eat after I call. I promise.” I said, sincerely promise.

Without replying or answering, he quickly exited the room. I started to expect a lot from him. I looked at the food in front of me, it looked delicious, but why I had no intention to eat it, but my stomach still hurt, needed intake. Come on, maybe after the phone my appetite will increase.

I promise, Lord, when I call Revan I'll eat

Shortly after, he re-entered, and gave me his phone. The phone is equivalent to the manager's, regular phone. I pulled out the phone and turned it on for a while hopefully enough to record the number. And sure enough my phone is on even though the warning ‘weak battery’ keeps popping up. After I recorded Revan's number on this phone, my phone went dead. I handed him this tray and he immediately greeted him.

I pressed the green button to call.

Once.there was no answer. I'm not giving up. Maybe Revan's sleeping.

Twice there was no answer. I'm still sure he'll lift.

Three times..

“Hal-h hello?” revan's voice. I want to scream right now. There was nothing happier than hearing Revan's voice this time. I'm sure my chance to go is wide open now.

“Hallo Rev, Rev, it's me!” I said, excited because I felt the universe was on your side.

“Ah, ahhh, ahhh” sounds over there. I cringed confused. Then one female voice was also heard there with the same tone of voice, asking for the phone to be turned off immediately.

The deg!

My heart was instantly broken. I began to realize what was going on and what they were doing across the street. The voice belonged to Mia. My best friend. They're...

“BY GOD! WHAT ELSE DO YOU BOTH SELL?!” my yelling.

Heart's broken. The sound of the curse is so real. It hurts so bad. No matter how cold my attitude is, am I not a human being? I also have a heart, my heart is not ‘roller coaster’ that can be overturned arbitrarily. This heart is not as joking as the Dufan rides that can be freely played.

God, why are you never fair to me? - my mind shouts.

“NINDY?” revan was heard from there. “Nin, I can clearin.” said Revan. I who was disgusted to hear his voice immediately cut off the unfinished sentence.

“NINDY IS DEAD!” CLICK IT! I'm disconnecting the call. I immediately gave the phone to the Empyrean. Then gripped my own phone tightly. I could raise my head up so that tears wouldn't come down, I didn't want this stranger to see my tears. I'm not that weak.

But, in fact, in vain. Holding back tears only made my body tremble and then whimper. Ah, to hell with my shame on that foreign man. Honestly my heart really hurts, really bad. What makes me cramped is not that I love Revan so much.

No part of the world wants to help me, no one really loves and loves me, no one wants to come close to me. Look, all the people I thought were on my side were lies. False attention, false worry, and togetherness are false.

What else is this, God? Is that how angry you are that you never let me feel sincere affection? – my bath. My tears are hard.

“Eat as you promised earlier.” he said while giving the tray containing the food to me again. Before taking it, I glanced at my dead phone, it had too much to do with Revan and Mia. Because, my closest friend right now, counted before I called earlier. Unable to stand it, I threw my phone into a small trash can near the table. Then take the food tray. I will not break any promises.

“As-salamu ’alaikum. Ehh, Gus Faiz.” Farha looked misbehaved and immediately stepped aside as usual.

“Wa ‘alaikumus-salam wa rahatulli wa barakatuh.” After answering Farha's greeting.

The man just left. Farha knew him. If my situation wasn't what it is now, I would have asked Farha for her name.

After the man left, Farha approached me.

“Sorry, Ma'am, I was at the cottage for a while. I'm sorry, Ma'am. You know, Mom, crying? Why cry, Ma'am?” farha. She hugged me.

He seems so worried about me. Revan and Mia used to worry about me when I was sick. Remembering them, I began to ask myself, was Farha also insincere? I think only he and God know. It feels so tired. Knowing I was just silent and crying, he fed me patiently. This time I really did, it felt pointless to refuse. Let it be like this.

Shortly after, someone came into the room, she's Linda. The manager who made me deal with Umi, the manager who threatened Farha, and the manager whose friend I once threw using high heels.

“As-salamu ‘alaikum, Mbak, no phone make, Mbak” he said.

“Wa ‘alaikumus-salam wa rahatulli wa barakatuh.” Answer Farha.

“From whom?” my question, limp.

“Mamanya Mbak.” said again.

“Say Nindy is dead.” I said, who immediately got the plot from Linda and Farha.

“Astagfirullah al-‘azim, Ma'am, ndak can say that.” said Farha.

“Say so.” I say again. Then force yourself to come out. My appetite is gone again hearing Mama's name called.

Why does my mom use all the phones? Remember his son? From yesterday where have I been?- Bathinku shouted.

“But, Mbak.” says linda again. “Kasian Mama Mbak called from earlier.” he continued.

“Lo has no ears? I said, say I'm dead.” I said. Immediately accelerate my steps out of the room who was it, while holding my stomach that still hurts.

I'm very disappointed. When I called Revan, I really hoped he would help me get away as soon as possible. I felt like the universe had time to side with me. But in fact I was wrong. Ntah Revan, Mia, Mama, Papa, Ka Ulfa and everyone no one really loves me, including the universe.