Holy Prison

PS 43 - Trial

“Mbak Nindy, after visiting me.” said one of the managers named Atin. I just muttered.

Until here I was, in the courtroom. Now I'm in front of 10 people I don't know whose names are other than Linda, Arum and Atin. Apparently this is really a trial.

Linda in her pretentious style began to open this event. And soon Umi came accompanied by several students. He looks at me pity. Then I should be able to defend myself. Why don't I let Umi down. So I'll throw away my silent mouth.

When I doubted Umi yesterday, I felt very guilty. Making Umi sad also makes me far more guilty. This time I'll prove it to Umi that I'm not wrong.

“Mbak, please tell me honestly, is it true that Mbak stole Supri money?” I've been going crazy for a long time. They all use Indonesian language which is really raw.

The prefix that I assessed was bad, because it was still early but had been heard to corner me. All right, I'll follow their game.

“I've said many times. I never did anything that bad. I'm not that poor to take something that doesn't belong to me!” I said. Look, now my language is starting to match them.

“We don't mean to say Ma'am poor. But Brother Mbak himself who said that the Mbak family did not give a penny to Mbak since the first time Mbak was in this boarding school.” is now the turn of Black hooded santri. They all sat in line before me in a green suit. Now I really feel at the court. Depressing.

“In truth since I was thrown away this pesantren.” my words stopped when accidentally my eyes met with Umi's eyes. I can't be rude, there's Umi. I don't want Umi to be sad. I exhaled and then continued. “I mean. It is true that since I was put into this pesantren I did not hold the money my parents gave me. I refused when Mom gave me the money. But I still have my own savings.” I said.

“But I got information from Farha that Mbak on the first day spent his own money in large quantities to buy clothes, mukena and so on. Farha accompanied Mbak to buy these items at the Bu Nur store?” ask one of them who. Linda smiled cunningly at me. I can only snort.

“Iya! I shop for clothes with Farha until my money is almost thin. But I have an ATM card, I can take my money again.” I said. Finally can not stand using the default language.

I dare not look at Umi. I know Umi must be very disappointed in me. However, I really can't stand being accused of stealing.

“What Farha delivers Mbak to ATM?” ask again.

“Heh! Where should I go with Farha?” ask again.

Can't answer he's silent. Then another santri asked. From the beginning of this trial there was Arum who continued to smile towards me encouraging me through his gaze which indicated he believed that I was innocent. And every look at those eyes. I felt guilty and thought back to how cruel I was to water him with cold water in the pool until he cried heartbreakingly. Another fact is that even though we were close enough, I have not apologized to him at all.

“When the incident happened only Mbak was there. Aini the manager who was on picket guard also did not see a courtesan into the room, Ma'am. There is only, Ma'am. Now money can go its own way. And Mbak who does not hold money can give 400 thousand Money to Supri with a wallet that is back empty does it make sense?” ask Linda.

I rolled my eyes irritated. Why is there such a coincidence. It's totally unfair. I choose to be quiet. I knew anything I said would be for nothing. Just a waste of energy.

“Gini only, Ma'am. Ma'am just look at the ATM card, Ma'am, and we can see the Mbak balance as evidence that Mbak is innocent. If the balance Mbak much yes means the money given to Supri is indeed the money Mbak. If indeed Mbak money a lot of Mbak ndak maybe steal.” said Arum. Eyes twinkling. He was very hopeful about this idea. But again I disappointed him.

Arum's explanation makes perfect sense. I know in here he can't openly defend me.

Hearing that explanation, I came back lethargic.

“Well, there it is. ATM's gone.” I said, really lethargic.

The universe is really evil to me right now. Just look, almost all of them happen to be cornered me.

“ATM lost. Why is there a coincidence like this. it feels too.” said Linda deliberately hung her sentence. “Eh, Astagfirullah.” said with a tone that sounded coquettish in my ear.

Linda's words really got me on a blackboard. I don't accept being humiliated like this.

“Basic of Slanderers. I just found out if a crafty person can call the name of God too. Hypocrite." I said.

"Mom!" exclaim Linda. He looks very angry. Don't want to be called a hypocrite but want to slander me a thief. How shiny.

"If stealing is just me, ma'am. Fucking thief. Stealing doesn't want to confess. Shameful." said Linda.

The atmosphere is getting hot. If Umi wasn't here, I would have slapped Linda.

"So much revenge are you the same as me? Just because I never accidentally stacked your temen, some bad lo who likes to ngaku-ngaku prospective wife Gus Faiz, and accidentally make you jealous see me with Gus Faiz who really has nothing to do. All my mistakes are looking for. There was also this incident that I was slandered." I said.

"I don't like it the same, Ma'am. But I'm not slandering anyone" Linda said.

"What is the name of claiming that a person is driven away without any concrete evidence?" I said.

"Lho, it's our goal to convene Mbak yes it is. Looking for evidence" Linda said again.

"The trial's not over yet but you've told me I'm a thief. What's his name if it's not slander?" I said.

"The only part in the room is Ma'am" Linda said.

"In my room there was only me. But you said yourself there was still Aini in the cabin. Why isn't Aini slandering too? Why just me?" I said really upset.

Linda was about to say something but was immediately detained by one of the managers.

"From you I learned, Lin. It turns out that the paradigm of santri that is always good and right like an angel is wrong. Santri is also an ordinary man who can do wrong. Although superior in terms of religion but not all students can practice what they learn. Elo for example. Elo know slandering people is wrong but still lo lasain just because you do not like me.” said I exhale.

I'm really tired.

“Now gini aja, if you guys do not believe me yaudah. I actually am honest. God never sleeps if you want to know.”. Then step out just like that. I feel like the room is starting to have no oxygen and I need to get out to breathe free air.

“Wait, Ma'am, we're not done yet.” said one of them.

“What is the use of being held in a trial night-night like gini, if for example you all who are said to want to hear my honesty, even closing the ears to hear my honest story. Why else am I here if only in a corner to confess the actions that I have never done.” I said. Then start moving again.

“But, Mbak.” says someone again.

“Gue follow what the result of the trial this time.” I said.

I'm approaching Umi. "I'm sorry Nindy, Umi. But by Allah, Nindy was honest. Nindy never stole that money" I said.

"Nindy, can you prove it to Umi?" ask Umi gently.

I nodded steadily.

"Umi, believe in you" said Umi.

He rubbed my head, then patted my back. I know he really believes me but I'm still very afraid to be too hopeful.

I kissed Umi's hand. Then leave.

When someone tries to stop me from leaving. Umi's voice sounded. “Let Nindy go.” says Umi.