Holy Prison

PS 35 - Aaron's Promise

I ran from Ndalem Abah. Fuck the whole thing. My heart hurts so much. This time the name reappears Gus Faiz. I'm really disappointed. Everything he said from the beginning was a lie.

God, who should I trust.

I'm really sad right now. Umi who I considered her own mother also involved in this lie. Is Umi's love fake?I'm sure that affection is just Mama's order. Not really a sincere banar from Umi.

And Farha. The closest person to me right now, next to Arum. He lied to me completely. He can hide the truth about ka Ulfa. I'm sure he also has no genuine affection for me.

What about Arum. It seems the same. Surely everyone involved with me is just setting. It's all just lies. A truly painful falsehood.

Suddenly I remembered Aaron.

This time the world is on my side. I met a friend of Aaron's who during the veil incident met Aaron. Because I was confused to do anything else. I approached.

He panicked, the article is currently crowded, and if caught alone with the opposite sex will definitely be punished. He quickly led me to a quiet place. Narrow Aisles, no lights. It is only the moon that makes it dim.

"What's wrong?" tanyanya.

"Gue please be the same. Please find Aaron. I wait. I beg you." I said

"Okay, wait here" he said.

My tears are already running. Thinking life is always unfair makes me feel so much pain. I sobbed as I tried to connect the pieces of events that began to melt my heart. It turns out everything is just a setting. I was lying all out.

Soon after, Aaron arrived. He came alone. I hurriedly hugged her. He was flinching in his place.

"Are you okay?" tanyakanya.

Touching both cheeks with his hands. Forget about me being shy, forget about me that nobody wants to touch, forget about anything that smells good about me.

"Why are all bad guys the same as me?" I said. My tears are hard.

Aaron wiped my tears.

"Not everyone. There's me. I will never be evil. Relax, yeah" he said.

"Gue really doesn't know you there, Ron. I was embarrassed to come to Elo. Just, I. I.." I really can't go on.

"Lo sit down first" he said.

He took me to sit. I comply.

"What's wrong?" tanyakanya.

"Lo really, Ron. This school is not my home. It will never be my home." I said. I sobbed again.

She's quiet. Listen in.

"All the comforts I've got here, everything is set, everything is a lie. G-gue.. lied to everything." I said no longer strongly continue.

"The Faiz who made you this way?" tanyakanya.

I can only cry again. Totally powerless to answer questions. He'll understand. I kept crying really stifling. Aaron was silent beside me. It seems like the only person I can trust right now is him.

After better, Aaron stood up. "Gue will prepare everything. Just calm down. In a moment" he said.

I can only nod.

"Gue can take you away now. But we'll get caught now. We're here to make sure we're here. Wait a few days, okay?" richness.

"What words can I believe?" my many.

"Is there anyone else you can trust besides me?" said. Answer the question with another question.

I'm shaking.

I'm nodding.

I stood up, Aaron intending to accompany me home but I refused. I don't want anyone to suspect us. Looks like only Gus Faiz knows about Aaron. Mercifully.

"We split up here. I don't want anyone to suspect us." I said.

"Okay, you go first" he said.

I also walked out of the Narrow Gang first. I don't look at it anymore. I continued forward although occasionally still as busy as possible.

When I got close to the cottage. I saw Gus Faiz. My heart ached again. After all, Gus Faiz played me. He's liar! My tears are back in the air. I rubbed it rough.

I evaded. It seems he has not realized what is going on. He doesn't know that I know all the rot.

"Wait" he said.

I hastened my steps. But he's blocking me. I don't want to come into contact with him. So, I stopped my steps.

“What's up, An?” ask Gus Faiz. One question that could drain my tears.

“Liar!” I said. I no longer see his face.

“Ann.." said

“Don't call my name! Lo liar! Lo evil! You have no feelings! Lo liar! Evil Elo!” I said, right in front of him. I would love to run away leaving him. I don't believe in all of his words anymore. But he's back in my way.

“Wait An,” says Gus Faiz."What lie?" continued.

"Lo know, Gus? You're the worst person I've ever met in my entire life. Fucking shithead. I thought you were the kindest man I ever knew. What actually? Lo opposite. Lo cruel Gus. Lo cruel." he said.

This time I really want to go.

"What's really going on?" ask again. This time he held my hand.

"Deliver! I don't want my hand held by a bad guy like you!" I said.

"Sorry.” said.

I don't know, sorry for what he said was his fault, for the lie or for the fact that he dared to touch my hand.

“You only know what your lie is like me!” I said.

"Basic, shit ain't got no heart!" I shouted while stepping on his feet.

Then ran straight to the cottage. I don't care about Gus Faiz anymore. Now, he's really gonna put a blacklist on my life.

When I was in front of the cottage, I felt very strong if I met my friends, especially Farha. Imagining all that togetherness and kindness made my chest throb.

I decided to go into one of the bathroom booths. Trying to clear myself by flushing my body with cold water continuously. My tears keep breaking.

I don't care if I get out of this room gets sick. Because I just wanted to cool my head.

Why, God? - I asked.

I really don't understand. And don't try to understand. Obviously, it hurts a lot.

The more I felt the pain the more I splashed my body with that cold water. I repeat, again, and again.

“Mbak Nindy, what's Mbak inside?” ask someone.

Farha Voice. Especially when he actually came here. Isn't he making fun of me? Is everything he did still less painful? How far was he really involved?

I flushed my body again.