Holy Prison

PS2. 3 - Three Reasons

After the shower, Gus Faiz came out. I keep on being in my heart. My heart kept beating so hard. He's approaching, I don't think I can see him approaching. I gotta go. No, I mean I have to take a shower.

Really, this is the first time I've seen a bare-chested adult male. Especially in the same room as me. Why was I suddenly filled with fear.

“A-I have to take a shower.” I said, terrified.

I ran straight to the bathroom until my feet hit the wall when I wanted to get into the bathroom.

“Awww.” ringisku while lifting my legs. Make sure my feet are okay.

“Be careful, An. Try me see.” says Gus Faiz.

Gus Faiz blew my leg. My body went limp. I just fell in front of him. However, luckily, Gus Faiz quickly caught me before my ass kissed the floor.

Gus Faiz panicked. “Why are you, An?” tanyakanya.

That face seemed very worried about me. I feel guilty. I shook my head, “A-I just limp.”

“Your feet?” tanyakanya.

“It doesn't hurt, just limp seeing you like that.” I said honestly.

Gus Faiz chuckled. She unexpectedly went to my closet to get me a towel, and carried me to the bathroom. Arriving at the bathroom he gave me the towel he had taken, then came out. He closed the bathroom door from the outside.

How'this? I'm so shameful and pathetic. –inku.

After the shower, I did not rush out. Why do I really feel scared. I'm scared, so scared. Anyway, I'm just wearing a towel. I don't want to go out.

I leaned my head next to the bathroom glass. Banging my head slowly. I was really confused what to do. If I'm not mistaken, I've been in the bathroom for over an hour. My body started to shiver in the cold. I was scared and embarrassed to go out of the bathroom.

“Until when are you in the bathroom, An?” gus Faiz asked from outside.

“S-in a moment.” I said half-screaming to be heard from outside.

This time, I feel like I really need to get out right now.

After coming out, I saw Gus Faiz already wearing the nightgown I had prepared. He looked at me with a look I couldn't understand. I hurriedly picked up the matching colored nightclothes with her then went into the bathroom, after putting on the full outfit I came out again.

I dare not look him in the eye. I'm scared back.

“Am I so scary?” ask Gus Faiz.

I shook weakly. Then, approaching.

“Sorry.” I said.

“It's okay. I will sleep first.” said Gus Faiz. He's turned.

I feel guilty. I lied to him. But if I told her I was scared, I was afraid to hurt her heart. I don't want him to be offended but I don't think lying makes him this way.

I don't know what to do right now. I also lay down beside him. I looked at the still bright ceiling. Looks like I have an idea to lure Gus Faiz to speak.

“Can I turn off the lights?” my many.

“Please.” says Gus Faiz.

I hurriedly turned off the lights. Then again lying beside him, I glanced at Gus Faiz who was still behind me. I also changed my position to face his back.

Considering she took care of this, it made me feel sorry for her. He must be tired. Although he did not reveal it directly, but the tired look on his face could not be hidden.

Looking at his back, I felt more and more guilty. I have disappointed him. I was scared of him just now, you know, I feel so stupid because of that fear. Though Gus Faiz was not scary, he was so friendly and considerate. There's no reason for me to be afraid of him.

I rubbed his arm, he turned around. I looked into his shady eyes, “I'm sorry.” I said. I felt so guilty that a tear fell on my eye.

“Do not cry. It's okay really.” said Gus Faiz. He wiped my tears.

“You were right, I was scared.” I said.

“I know, already yes, I beg you not to cry. I will not do anything without your permission. So, I beg you not to be afraid again.” said Gus Faiz.

I'm nodding. “Can I hug you?” my many.

Gus Faiz nodded, I shifted my body to embrace him. He hugged me back. It's cozy.

“Mas?” call me.

My thoughts flew over Gus Faiz's line stating that he had deliberately switched my phone with his. Gus Faiz did tell me and apologized about it, but he has not said a reason to do so.

“Iya?” the answer.

“Why did you change our phone?” ask Gus Faiz.

“I have 3 reasons.” says Gus Faiz.

“What is it?” I said.

“If I say, I fear you are angry.” said Gus Faiz.

“I won't be mad at you, G-Mas.” I said, almost calling him Gus.

“All right, promise not to get angry?" said Gus Faiz.

I nodded steadily. Seeing me Gus Faiz smiled.

"My first reason is I want to have a reason to meet you again.” said Gus Faiz.

I don't want to smile at her words. How can I be angry if the first reason alone is this sweet. “There-is just.” I said, while smiling shyly.

Gus Faiz chuckled. “I really don't want to lose you. And I feel like I should have a reason to see you again. So, I switched the phone.” he said.

“While when you met, you did not give the phone directly to me, the phone you put on Kak Ulfa.” I said, sebal.

“Don't be jealous like that, An. Really, I completely forgot at the time. You know what, An? Being close to you often makes me forget many things.” Gus Faiz said while chuckling.

“Gombal.” I said. I feel my cheeks hot.

Gus Faiz chuckled again.

“No, An. I said the real thing.” said Gus Faiz.

“I already have a new reason.” said Gus Faiz.

“New reason?” my many.

“Iya, propose to you.” says Gus Faiz.

I bite my lips to hide my smile. I really can't figure out why a man as cold as Gus Faiz turns out to have a warm heart.

“Do not get bitten.” says Gus Faiz. “Smile only, you are much prettier when you smile.” Further.

I covered my face with both palms. He said I was beautiful. I'm really embarrassed. He took my hand.

“Can I continue?” tanyanya smiled.

I'm nagging.

“The second reason, I want to know you.” he said.

“Didn't you know me well?” my many.

“I only know you through Inspiration stories. I want to get to know you better, not just through the story of Ilham.” said Gus Faiz. Why do I capture the aura of jealousy hidden there.

“Can't you ask me directly?” my many.

“We didn't have much time back then.” said Gus Faiz.

I nodded, and what Gus Faiz said made sense.

“Why never contact me?” my many.

He looked at me, thinking. It was like he was weighing something.

“I don't dare.” he said while grinning a horse.

I laugh. It's a shame he never called me. No matter how perfect Gus Faiz is, he's human, right?

“May I know how you know me through that phone?” my many.

“You allowed me to access your phone right?” tanyakanya.

I'm nodding. “Of course, I allow you to access anything you want via that phone.” I said.

“Nah, because it has got permission, I dare to access your phone. I opened the writing app on your phone and read all of your writing. From there I feel I can get to know you directly through the stories you write. I also feel you are always near me every time I see your photo on wallpaper.” said Gus Faiz.

“You didn't open my photo gallery?” my many.

“I never accidentally opened it, there are photos of men. I don't like it, I feel like I want to remove it, it's just that I feel unworthy. Since then, I never intended to open it.” said Gus Faiz.

I got out of bed, got my phone. I honestly don't know who that guy Gus Faiz meant. I took the phone and went back to bed. This time I chose to sit down, Gus Faizpun took a seat.

I thrust the phone at Gus Faiz.

“You can delete anything you don't like. I don't mind at all, Mas.” I said.

“Really?” ask Gus Faiz. He grabbed my phone. But not open it.

I'm nodding. I don't want to make Gus Faiz misunderstand anyone. I want to live openly with him. He's my husband anyway.

“Explain the third reason first.” I said.

Gus Faiz chuckled. Then nod. “My third reason is to want to know anyone who is my rival.”

I laughed at Gus Faiz's third reason. Rival.

“How to?” my many.

“I opened your social media account. I didn't open your message, An, really. I just read every comment below the photos you've uploaded.” he said.

“And you found it?” my many.

She shook her head. “I just got annoyed.” he said.

“Lho, why?” my many.

“Almost everyone who comments on your photo is male.” says Gus Faiz.

“You, jealous?” my many. I can't hide my smile.

“I don't know, which obviously I feel annoyed.” he said.

I laughed at the adorable Gus Faiz.

“Sini deh I deleted all my photos.” I said.

Gus Faiz gave me the phone. I grabbed my phone and opened my Instagram account. I saw the photos I had uploaded. However, I did not find any of my photos there.

I looked at Gus Faiz. Gus Faiz scratched his nape which I guarantee is not itchy. “I'm sorry, An. I really can't bear to see all the guys say that you're beautiful. S-I..” said Gus Faiz.

I chuckle.

“Eh, but I didn't really delete it, just. just archive it.” said Gus Faiz.

I laughed at Gus Faiz who looked wrong.

“I'm sorry for being sassy, An.” said Gus Faiz.

“It's okay, Mas. I am just grateful. I don't have time to take care of my social media. I forgot to delete all my photos. Thank you for that.” I said, while smiling sincerely at Gus Faiz.

“You are not angry at everything I do?” ask Gus Faiz. His eyes seemed to be searching for the truth in my eyes.

“No, Mas. I am thankful though. Thank you.” I said.

Gus Faiz nodded. “Oiya, even if I use your phone, believe me, I never open all your messages, An.” said Gus Faiz.

“Open it if you are curious.” I said. Then I put my phone away. Gus Faiz picked up the phone and placed the stick on the bedside table.

“After night, let's sleep.” says Gus Faiz.