Holy Prison

PS2. 1 – New Bride

In this room, there were only the two of us. I meani. Ah, how do I explain it. This was our first night after the wedding that had just finished this afternoon. I was really confused what to do. I saw, Gus Faizpun was thinking something.

I would love to ask Gus Faiz how I should call him. Do I still have to call him Gus or something. All I know is that the calling of all married people must change, no longer as it was before marriage.

“Can I ask you something?” my many.

“Tany as many as you want.” says Gus Faiz.

“I..” how do I ask this to Gus Faiz? I also racked my brain. But I started to doubt. I don't know if the question I'm going to ask is ethical or not. How'this?

“An? Ask, do not hesitate.” said Gus Faiz.

“B-how do I call you?” my many.

Gus Faiz chuckled. My heart melted to see him laugh. To be honest, I still can't believe that Gus Faiz, this near-perfect human who I think is really my husband.

Now my heart is pounding again. I feel my cheeks hot, my stomach too, Ah, how do I explain it? It's like butterflies flying in there.

“As of you only.” says Gus Faiz.

“Gus?” my many.

“No-no, we're married, I don't want that call.” said Gus Faiz.

“Didn't you just say whatever?” my many.

Gus Faiz smiled, shaking his head. “In addition.” said.

I'm brain twisting. In my heart I want to ask if I can call him 'honey'? But I'm ashamed to say it. Remembering the word love just makes my cheek feel hotter, what if I really say it? I bit my lip imagining I was going to call her by the word dear. I want to smile. However, I'm ashamed.

“May I guess what call is now on your mind for me?” gus Faiz asked with a seductive smile.

Seeing how he looked at me, it seemed like Gus Faiz could read my mind. I don't want him to misunderstand. I mean, I'm embarrassed and I'm afraid he doesn't want that call. I need to get this straightened out quickly.

“I really don't mean to say baby. Really.” I said. “I.. I just.” I can't lie, can't afford to continue my sentence.

Gus Faiz approached me. I backed off a little. However, Gus Faiz placed both of his hands on both of my cheeks. I feel dejavu. It's like I've done something like this, really. However, I can't remember when.

I turned my eyes the other way. My heart is really beating hard. I was afraid that our closeness could make Gus Faiz hear my heartbeat.

“See me, An.” says Gus Faiz.

I comply. Our faces are really close. I tighten my grip on the sheets. I would very much like to close my eyes. However, Gus Faiz asked me to look at him. He is my husband, I must obey his request.

“I don't mind you calling me dear. I'm happy.” said Gus Faiz.

Gus Faiz removed his hands from both of my cheeks. I reflexively held my cheeks with both hands. Deep down there I felt something was gone. What do I expect from our closeness. Gus Faiz rolled his gaze in another direction.

“S-honey?” my mouth refeks said that word. I hurriedly smothered my mouth with my palm.

Gus Faiz. He smiled, looking into his other eyes. He also approached quickly. This time I couldn't stand it. I also closed my eyes.

Suddenly the door creaked. I reflexively opened my eyes and circulated my gaze at the door. Gus Faiz did the same thing, turned to the door, then he hurriedly distanced himself from me when he saw Mama there who was holding the outside doorknob, and then he hurriedly distanced himself, like closing the door from the outside.

“Aduh, son, instead of closed. Already, just continue. Mama help close ya.” said my Mama, while smiling unpleasant.

Click!

Closed door. Gus Faiz chuckled. I could only bite my lips holding my smile. It feels so shameful. Really embarrassed. My cheeks are now completely red.

“I'm sorry, An. I am not used to closing doors when with you.” says Gus Faiz.

I'm nodding.

I now understand why, four years ago, he always left the door open when he was in a room with me. That's because it's urgent. He never really wanted to be with me in one room. To him, he did not want to invite Slander.

“Your cheeks are red once. Smile if you smile, don't hold it. Don't bite your lips.” said Gus Faiz.

Thank you, O Allah. –inku.

Looking at Gus Faiz's gaze, it really made me feel very lucky. I'm so grateful. Through the path that is destined for me, God has brought me to meet him.

If I hadn't been in Abah's boarding school, I wouldn't know how I am now, if Aaron had been stubborn enough to take me away, I wouldn't know how I am now, if Gus Faiz hadn't seen me in the hospital in the past, I wouldn't know how I was doing right now.

Will I be happy too? I really don't know. All I know is that God is fair to me. God's scenario is beautiful. Thank you, O God. Really, I can only thank you for all this happiness.

“Why you?” ask Gus Faiz.

“I'm fine.” I said. “I'm just happy.” I said honestly.

“It looks like I am much happier, An.” said Gus Faiz.

Instantly I was short of breath. I think I need more oxygen. The air feels hot. I went back to biting my lips. I want to scream happiness. However, it was disrespectful and embarrassing.

“Already, do not bite your lips again, An.” said Gus Faiz.

Gus Faiz again held my cheek gently. I'm nodding.

“Do you feel familiar with this?” ask Gus Faiz.

“With this?” my many.

Gus Faiz nodded.

“B-isn't this the first time we've been in one room?” my many. "Eh?" I seem to have spoken wrongly. But as I recall we were in one room, in Gus Faiz's room when I passed out.

“Hahaha, sorry An, that's not what I mean.” said Gus Faiz.

I tried to rack my brain. Find out where the context of Gus Faiz's sentence is. I don't want to look stupid, really. I feel ashamed.

He peeked at my cheek again. “I mean this.” said.

My memory goes back to the past. I hurriedly looked at him. I remember very much what happened. I once did something similar to a man I hit in front of a mosque near Ilham's house. However, how could Gus Faiz know all this?

"Collision?" my many.

Gus Faiz nodded.

“How do you know?” my many.

"I really know everything, especially this.” said Gus Faiz while making a heart symbol by uniting his thumb and index finger. Typical heart shape of korean people. "You know what, An? I was even laughed out loud when I asked Ilham and Akbar for this meaning" Gus Faiz said. She laughs.

I chuckled, until my tears just came out on the edge of my eyes. I think I know what Gus Faiz means. It looks like he's that guy.

“That's you?” my many.

Gus Faiz chuckled while nodding. He wiped my tears.

“I'm looking for you everywhere.” I said.

“I know, forgive me who can only wait for you until that afternoon, because you have to return to the cottage.” said Gus Faiz.

“Pond?” my many.

Gus Faiz nodded. “My cottage is near Ilham school, you know right?” ask Gus Faiz.

“That big modern cottage?” I asked Gus Faiz to make sure.

Gus Faiz nodded.

“You must be a genius.” I said.

From the news circulating, the cottage mentioned Faiz is a modern cottage that is very good and equipped. And obviously only the elect can enter the cottage. Because there are many tests to go through. Really great this husband.