Devotion of Love

A Promise

"Assalammualaikum!" greeting Arkan, Hanna looked up at the older brother. Hanna nodded slowly, allowing Arkan to sit in front of her.

"Glamma!" sahut Hanna. Arkan sat right in front of Hanna. Both brothers sit at one table. Fifteen years ago they were separated.

"What do you want to say? If we just want to blame our departure. I don't think there's anything to talk about!" arkan said firmly, Hanna silently heard the cold voice of her brother.

"Why?" hanna said, Arkan scrunched his forehead in wonder. Arkan did not understand the meaning of Hanna's question.

"You mean!" sahut Arkan, Hanna turned to the big road. He saw the vehicle passing nonstop. Many endlessly, pitched with his lonely heart.

"Why did my sister leave me? Why did you forget me? Why would you go with your mom without me? Why did you leave a festering wound in my heart? Why would you come back if you didn't want to know me? Wh why? Why?" lecar Hanna with tears. His clenched hands held back the anger.

Arkan stared at the sister. Hanna's tears broke her heart. Hanna's shrill voice shook her heart. Stabbing right into his deepest heart. At first glance Arkan saw Hanna biting her lower lip. Hanna's fist clearly said. How broken his heart.

"Hanna!" greet Arkan softly, with Hanna slowly looking up.

Both of his own eyes stared fixedly at Arkan. Hanna's hatred and anger rubbed her heart. So many questions in his heart. The pain and suffering in his heart was no longer able to bear. Hanna was unable to hold back the tears. Hanna's last chance to know the truth is saved. Arkan's departure today, becomes the last day he finds out.

"Answer! I beg! Fifteen years I've been waiting. The question in my heart that I've been keeping close. Questions that are the reason for my hatred for you and my mom!" hanna said softly, Arkan nodded slowly.

Arkan took a deep breath. Trying to calm his heart. Answering Hanna's question is easy. But considering the bitter pieces of his life. Not something easy. Arkan searches for words he thinks won't hurt Hanna. Words that won't make Hanna slump or feel guilty.

"Because we love you!" arkan said short and firm. Hanna looked up in disbelief at Arkan.

Hanna shook her head weakly. He doesn't believe in Arkan's short answer. The answer that did not give her peace in her heart. Hanna grew increasingly incredulous at how calm and relaxed Arkan replied.

"You love me! What goes without saying goodbye? Leaving me as if I were useless! That's what you call affection!" hanna said in emotion, her hand squeezing the drink glass in front of her. Hanna's strong handcuffs, making the glass shake. Some of the water came out of the glass.

Arkan calmly took tissue. Moved the wet table because of the water from Hanna's glass. Then held Hanna's hand, gently releasing the glass. Arkan took the glass from Hanna, shaking his head slowly.

Hanna was aghast when Arkan's hand touched her wrist. Arkan's gentle touch sputtered into Hanna's innermost heart. Warming a frozen and lonely heart. Instantly Hanna's body shook violently. Hanna's longing for Hanif filled her mind. It felt as if Hanna's head wanted to explode withstanding the intense longing.

"Warm, these are the warm hands of a sister. Is this the warmth I have been missing all this time? The first touch, after fifteen years. It felt so warm, like the dawn rays touched my skin. Brother Hanif, is that you in front of me? Or Arkan who left me and wanted to forget me!" hanna patted her chest softly.

"Tell me, at least I want to hear your self-defense. I'm alone here without you, deserted without your affection. I should have heard the reason behind your departure. So that I feel right by hating you!" hanna said coldly, Arkan nodded in understanding.

Arkan thrusts a glass of water towards Hanna. A nod of Arkan's head towards Hanna. As if asking Hanna to drink the water she gave her. Hanna slowly receives a glass from Arkan. Without breathing Hanna gulped down the water Arkan gave her. Hanna felt her throat and heart feel cold. A drop of Hanna's tears dripped down her cheek. Shortly after Hanna put the glass on the table. Arkan sees Hanna's tears. Arkan realizes Hanna's longing. Hanna's tears, Hanna's pain. That's not wrong, because Arkan feels everything without anyone noticing.

"Fifteen years ago. Big brother is just a little boy who doesn't understand anything? But when you see your tears, you feel you have to be big. You have to take care of your mom and always be with her. Mama left us, not because she hated us. Mom loves us and dad. Mama chose to give up for our happiness, but I chose to go to take care of my mom. For years my mother and I lived in want of purpose. Your delicate hands are not as rough as your mama's. When we have to be a washing worker for our lives. White skin is not as white as my skin, because every day I have to help mama dry trading chips. Our difficult life, inversely proportional to your easy life. I once regretted coming with my mom. But I finally realized I had to be with my mom. I had to wipe away my mother's tears that were never seen. I had to wipe away my mama's sweat that kept flowing for my life. I should be your smile when she cries and misses you. Hanna, the loudness and calmness of the mama you saw. Just the way mom made everyone feel calm. When papa always uses anger, instead, mama always calm to deal with problems!" arkan said at length.

"I have never hated papa or envy your life. Because my mom taught me the meaning of gratitude. I have been indifferent all this time, because in my heart there is still doubt about papa. The one who was supposed to protect me, still remains the same as before. Never able to take a stand!" arkan said, Hanna looked up in disbelief.

"Sir Arkan is wrong, papa is not like that. He protected me and took care of me. Papa is not weak, he has changed!" hanna said loudly.

"If he is firm, then Zahwa's aunt won't be at a table with him. Grandma won't keep insulting mom. Even when I first came to your magnificent home. Papa was silent to see me insulted, even though at that time I was just a stranger. Tell me, where's papa's change!"

"Sister changed too, forgetting me after so long!" hanna said, Arkan shook weakly.

Arkan stood up to Hanna. He stroked the top of Hanna's head. Hanna's body shook violently. When Arkan stroked Hanna's hair. Arkan gently stroked Hanna's hair many times. Then kiss the top of Hanna's head slowly.

"I've never changed, forever you're my sister. Even if we were a dozen years apart, but the thick blood would never melt!" arkan said shortly after peeping the top of Hanna's head.

"Sister!" hanna lirih.

"I'm sorry, brother, now remove your tears. Brother must leave, after the exam brother will meet you!"

"Must brother go now!" hanna said softly, Arkan nodded slowly.

"This test determines whether or not your brother is worthy of becoming a doctor. With the knowledge that you have, you want to be a useful person and boast of your mother!"

" I'm coming!" hanna said, Arkan shook weakly. He sees Hanna's fear of Arkan's departure. Hanna was afraid of losing a second time.

"Go home, brother will come back. My sister will bring my mom back. We'll get together, with or without papa!" arkan.

"No promise!" hanna said, Arkan nodded.