Devotion of Love

Misunderstand

"Hafidz, you're home! Clean yourself up, mama'll have dinner ready!" Tika said kindly and warmly.

"Thank you ma, Hafidz just for a minute. After greeting Davin, Hafidz went straight home. Tonight Hafidz sleeps in the apartment, tomorrow morning Hafidz departs for the city!" Hafidz said softly, as Tika sighed. Tika saw the heart of Hafidz.

For almost three years Hafidz lived with him. Tonight, the first time Tika feels a different Hafidz. Clearly visible from the look of Hafidz's face, turmoil and even awkwardness when meeting with Hanna. Tika sees Hafidz glancing at Hanna. The reason Tika could guess Hafidz's awkwardness on Hanna. Hafidz's reply was uttered, shortly after he looked at Hanna. Clearly proving, Hafidz felt it was not awkward to meet Hanna.

"Why not stay? You can leave here!" Tika said, Hafidz shook his head without looking at Tika. Instead Hafidz looked at Hanna who remained indifferent to her existence.

Hafidz was really messed up, Hanna's indifference upset him. Although Hafidz was aware, Hanna's indifference was indeed correct. When Hanna didn't remember, who was Hafidz? What is the relationship between them? But it all hurts, when clearly Hanna already knows the relationship between herself and Hanna. The reason that made Hafidz feel awkward was under the same roof as Hanna. Hafidz seemed to have received a real rejection.

"Mama's right Hafidz, stay the night. You must be tired, rest here. Tomorrow you can leave with a fresh body!" Arkan said, Hafidz fell silent and glanced at Hanna. Arkan followed the direction of Hafidz's view. Suddenly Arkan nodded in understanding, the reason Hafidz hesitated to stay over.

"Since when have you lost to Hanna's cold demeanor? Did you back out today? After three years you wait!" Arkan relaxed, Hafidz turned his head.

"He doesn't care about me. Hanna was sitting right in front of me, but not one bit did she care about my arrival!"

"Since when have you complained in Hanna's cold manner?"

"I'm not complaining brother!" Sahut Hafidz's.

"Then!"

"Sir Arkan, Hanna already knows the status of the relationship between us. But look now, let alone admit me as her husband. Just saying hello to me, Hanna seemed to be unwilling. Tell me now, should I hold on. Although I know, Hanna doesn't care about me!"

"Hanna remembers you!" Tika said chimed, Hafidz immediately shook his head.

"Want to!" Arkan's voice doesn't understand.

"Without Hanna accidentally coming to our house. I don't know who brought him home? While at home, Hanna meets her mother. At first Hanna knew the relationship between us!" Hafidz said softly, Tika and Arkan nodded in understanding.

"It's worth it that you're awkward to meet Hanna!" Said Arkan smiling. Arkan found it funny to see Hafidz's weak attitude and as if giving up on Hanna's cold demeanor.

"Sir Arkan, I'm serious!" Hafidz was upset.

"I know, that's why I'll help you!" Said Arkan, a moment after he nodded. Hafidz was stunned to hear Arkan's reply. He doesn't understand the meaning of Arkan's words.

Arkan walked slowly closer to Hanna. Hafidz and Tika stared in confusion. He doesn't understand, the reason Arkan approached Hanna. Let alone the help that Arkan had said, something that Hafidz really did not understand. Right beside Hanna, Arkan turned to Hafidz. He thumbs up at Hafidz. Hinted everything would be fine.

"Hanna, can you talk!" Say hello to Arkan, Hanna was silent. Arkan scratched his non-itchy head. She couldn't believe it, Hanna ignored herself.

Hanna was busy with her laptop. Hanna's hands were doting beautifully on the keybord. Obviously Hanna was focused on doing something. Even Arkan's call couldn't distract Hanna. For a moment Arkan was fixated, he was worried about having to call Hanna again or not.

"Hanna, my dear sister!" Say warm Arkan, Arkan's hand touches Hanna's shoulder slowly.

"Asthgfirullah!" Shouted Hanna hysterically, Arkan retreated a few steps. Hanna felt shocked, as she felt that something was touching her shoulder. Instead Arkan was afraid to hear Hanna's scream.

Hanna stood facing Arkan. His hand rubbed his chest slowly. Trying to calm his beating heart so hard. Both Hanna and Arkan were shocked. Only a confused Hafidz looked at Arkan and Hanna. While Tika smiled seeing the misunderstanding that occurred.

"Why yell?"

"Why did you suddenly touch me?"

"You said I suddenly touched you! Ever since I called you, you've been ignoring me!" Hafidz said a little emotionally, Hanna pensively looked at Arkan.

Then with his leisure, Hanna took off the headset that had since covered both ears. Without feeling guilty, Hanna put the headset on the table complete with her phone. Arkan growled with emotion, he felt fooled by Hanna. Hafidz seemed to nod his head, while putting on a smile. It was as if he felt he had misunderstood Hanna.

"Hanna stays the same, she's always focused at work. Such a beautiful face, never changed. Even though time is no longer the same. One thing's different, Hanna's looking for peace, not me. But the smartphone is held by his soft hand. The phone is now much closer and always there beside it. Replacing an inch by an inch my meanings and memories. Lucky she was so close to you!" Inner Hafidz, between meaningful headbands.

"So, you've been wearing that since!" Said Arkan while pointing towards the headset. Hanna nodded innocently.

"You need to ignore it!" Arkan Gumam.

"Who?"

"What?" Arkan Sahut.

"Who does brother mean? The man I ignored!"

"You heard it, but I just muttered. I called you, you didn't hear me. When I don't want you to hear. You clearly heard it!"

"Who?" Hanna said, as if not caring about Arkan's convoluted words.

"He!" Arkan said, setting his eyes on Hafidz. Hanna turned her head in the direction Arkan pointed. Instantly Hanna averted her gaze, as her gaze met Hafidz.

Arkan saw clearly Hanna's cold demeanor. Instead Hafidz was getting crushed, seeing the attitude of Hanna who did not care about his presence. Arkan shook his head in disbelief, Hanna's demeanor really confused him. It was as if Hanna who was in front of him was not her biological sister. Hanna further wounded Hafidz. At a leisurely pace Hanna sat back staring at her laptop screen.

"Why do you ignore it?"

"Who?"

"Hafidez!" Arkan is firm.

"I just don't want to see it. If he wants to greet me, I never forbid him. I have been sitting on a task since. If he wants to greet me please, but the proof is that he just passed me by!" Hanna's cold.

"He was afraid to greet you, your gaze became a gesture of your rejection!" Arkan said firmly, Hanna remained focused on the laptop screen in front of her.

"Hanna!" Call Arkan, Hanna looked up at Arkan.

"Why brother?"

"He's your husband, you already know that fact. Davin's son born of your womb. So why do you keep ignoring them? Two people waiting to warm your arms!"

"Do I have to admit to a relationship I never remember?"

"If that's your reason, why can you acknowledge the family relationship with me!" Arkan said emotionally, Tika and Hafidz were shocked to hear Arkan's words.

"If the blood relationship between us. Obviously I can admit it, without needing to remember. The birth certificate I have, the files that are. Prove I'm the daughter of this family. The same blood flowed, without me being able to dodge it. As for him, I can't just admit it. No blood relation can make me his mahram!"

"But your marriage book and she can prove it!"

"Maybe it can, but my heart rejects all that?"

"It is not your heart that refuses, but your ego that does not want to acknowledge Hafidz as husband. The priest who was in your life!" Arkan said emotionally, Hafidz held Arkan's body. As if he didn't want to argue for her. Tika shook her head towards Hafidz and Arkan. I hope this discussion stops.

"Not my ego, rather I refuse his return. If he ever was in my life. If he had ever been my prayer priest. If he were the father of my son. If he was my man of choice. Let it be the past, a lost memory and I don't expect it to come back!"

"What do you mean Hanna?" Sahut Tika does not believe in his hearing.

"Yes ma, let me bury all those wonderful memories. Forgetting the sweet and bitter life I once lived with her. I never wanted to dig up that lost memory. I'll let it all stay in my deepest memories. Buried with two years of my coma!"

"No way!" Hafidz said in disbelief.

"You're delirious of Hanna. Maybe you can forget Hafidz, but Davin. He's your son, there's no way your heart can forget him!" Arkan Sahut.

"Sister is right, my heart can't lie. From the very beginning I met Davin, I felt very familiar with him. His soft voice, his warm touch, his footsteps. As if it ever filled my days. But whatever my day, I'm nothing more than a phone with no memory. White paper without writing. Plain and empty, like a dark space that never feels the warm sunlight and cold night wind. Strange vibrations are tormenting me more, making me directionless. There's no way I'd disavow, if I knew my son Davin!"

"Why did you forget Hafidz?"

"Because Hafidz and papa are the same!" Sahut Hanna.

"You mean!" Agam Sahut.

"Papa forgets papa's biological son for mama's sake. The child was born without love and nothing more than a mistake. The boy who intentionally ignored me and Arkan's brother. A wasted daughter, ever since mom came back in my life. It's like he's nothing more than an item worth wearing and worth throwing away!"

Plaaakkk

"You talk Hanna!" Tika said, shortly after slapping Hanna.

"Darling, since when do you know that fact?"

"Not only I know, Arkan also knows about the truth!" Hanna said loudly, Agam took a few steps back. Her body staggered, if not for Tika supporting her. Maybe Agam has fallen to hit the marble floor of his house.

"Tika, I'm sorry!" Whisper Agam, Tika nodded in understanding.

"If you could say all this. Then your memory's back!" Arkan said happily, Hanna shook her head weakly.

"Lantas, how do you know all that!"

"There's one place where I can remember everything that happened!"

"You know everything, but you refuse to acknowledge Hafidz!"

"It's not a matter of rejecting brother, but a choice and I choose to forget the relationship between us. Husband and wife relationship that separated more than 3 years, can be said talak!"

"But Hafidz never dropped a talaq on you!"

"But she almost married my sister Qaila!"

"Hanna's enough, if you want to reject me please. You don't have to reveal the buried past!"

"Thank you, Brother Hafidz, as you say, let the past be the past!" Hanna said relax.

"Hanna, before you go. I want to ask you one more thing!" Tika said, Hanna stopped her steps. Calmly Hanna looked at Tika's two eyeballs.

"What is Qaila why you stayed away from Papa and Hafidz?" Tika said, without hesitation Hanna nodded.

"You're willing to let Davin go, is that all to make up for your guilt?" Tika said again, Hanna shook her head weakly.

"Lantas, what's the reason you're sure you took Davin off?"

"I never let go of Davin, because he's a life that's fused into my soul. Davin isn't some heartless thing I can give anyone? He lives and breathes me, when age takes away my power. But again and again, I'm a powerless mother. For it is not I whom she calls mother, but Qaila. It wasn't me who clung to her good times, but Qaila. It wasn't me who carried her when she was tired, but Qaila. I was the mother who gave birth to her, but Qaila raised her. If it were for ego's sake alone, today I would tell Davin. I'm not Qaila's mother, but I'm sure it's not the smile I see on my son's face. But tears, when she had to be separated from the mother who raised her!"

"Hanna, then why did you forget me?"

"Because love in your beautiful eyes is no longer for me!"

"you're delirious, Hafidz is still loyal to you!" Arkan.

"Ask him, did Qaila fill his heart? If he's honest, then I'll believe he's a good priest!"

"Hafidz, answer Hanna's question. Tell me it's all wrong!" Arkan said, Hafidz lowered his silence on a thousand languages.

"Thank you big brother for being honest, big brother is indeed a good brother!"

"But then, now there was never that love!" Sahut Hafidz defended himself.

"Now or before it would have been the same, had I been unconscious a year ago!"

"Hanna, please listen to my explanation!"

"There's nothing to explain, brother deserves to be happy. I'm willing to let you go!"

"But I don't!" Hafidz.

"Tell that to your son Davin. Tell him you're going to marry me, not Qaila!"

"You heard it!"

"So, I deserve to be happy!" Hanna ended the debate.