Devotion of Love

Forgive My Selfishness

"Father!" said Tika lirih while holding Dimas' hand. Tika kissed the back of her aging hand. Although the age of Dimas is no longer young, but the charm is still visible.

Right after Arkan drove Vahira to the inn. Tika went straight into the ICU room. He accompanied his beloved father. A man who would never betray him. Dimas is not a man like Agam who is never assertive. The way Dimas maintains each other's love is different. Agam did not understand the root of the problem that finally made the marriage between them destroyed.

The ring that was embedded in Tika's finger had come off. Tika's status is no longer Agam's legal wife. Tap the hammer when it indicates a status that is no longer the same. Tika and Agam's relationship is now limited to partner in nurturing Hanna and Arkan. There is no love relationship between them anymore. Although the love is there, all have turned into a sense of mutual help in the nurturing of his two children.

Divorce is something that is very hated and wrong. But it will feel right, when ego and arrogance rule the heart. The love story of the teacher and student has now ended. It leaves two separate hearts and two hearts adrift. Agam and Tika's hearts are no longer together. And Hanna and Arkan's hearts won't be separated forever.

Tika looked at Dimas's tapered face. Tika's tears kept dripping. It was as if he had paid fifteen years. Tika poured out all her regrets and justifications. The most basic reason, why was Tika able to leave without wanting to be found? Only on the weak body Dimas now Tika leaned.

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"What do you want to see me? The judge's verdict is soon. I will completely return your son. No longer do you feel the fear of being left behind. I'm the one who went away from her!" tika said firmly and coldly.

"That's why I came to see you. I want to ask for your mercy. A mother came to you asking your son's life and life!" said Agam's mother, Tika scrunched her forehead did not understand.

Tika looked at Agam's mother. I hope there is some meaning to his words. Tika was looking for a puzzle that Agam's mother tried to say. But Tika's efforts were in vain, Agam's mother was able to keep the secret she was thinking about. Tika can not guess.raut the face of Agam's mother.

"Say what do you expect of me? I'm honestly tired of all this. I can no longer afford to be in the maelstrom of your relationship with mas Agam. You've destroyed everything I have. There's nothing left. What do you expect from me!" said Tika cold and ketus, Agam's mother fell silent.

Clearly Agam's mother realized how much she had ruined her son's happiness. But ask Tika to return with Agam. As if his heart could not say it. The jealousy he felt blinded his eyes. The fear of losing Agam must be paid for with the destruction of Agam.

Since the divorce papers Tika and Agam entered the court. Agam began to often silent daydream. There is no more life that Agam feels. Let alone a smile, just to eat. Agam is no longer ready. Spending time at the work desk. He forgot the day that revolved around him. There were no tears dripping from Agam's eyes. But Agam's silence was enough to say his destruction. He no longer remembers his mother and father. All forgotten along with the farewell of her and Tika.

Agam's mother was devastated to see the destruction of Agam. There was no spirit visible from his son. Agam was devastated not all, because of the separation he created. With his own hands, he broke his son's heart. The hand that used to caress and hold warm Agam. Now it is the hand that destroys the life of Agam.

"Tika, I'm sorry for making you and Agam separate. If only I could hope. Will you cancel this farewell!" said Agam's mother, Tika was silent. There is a sense of disbelief in hearing the request of Agam's mother.

The one who desperately wants his farewell with Agam. It was impossible to easily ask him back. If there is no reward for that good. Tika was afraid of the happiness offered by Agam's mother. Happiness that has been fought for a long time without certainty. Now it is offered by those who want to destroy.

"What do you expect in return for that kindness? I can't believe it's free!" tika said firmly and coldly, Agam's mother smiled cynically. As if justifying Tika's words. Tika lowered her head while shaking her head slowly.

"I thought!" tika lirih said almost inaudible.

"Sign the dossier. Everything I want is inside. Including you must be willing to accept Zalwa as Agam's second wife. One more thing, remove the surname Anggara that is behind your name!" said Agam's mother cynically, Tika shook her head while thrusting back the file towards Agam's mother.

"I have no right to forbid Mas Agam from marrying Zalwa. You don't have to accept me on those terms. One more thing, I was born from the Anggara family. So I'll never leave them. Had Mas Agam asked for it a few years ago. I'll do it, but I'll never do it now!" tika said firmly.

"So you refused all my terms!" said Agam's mother, Tika nodded firmly. Tika shifted the chair she was sitting on. Tika decided to go home. Talk about something that is definitely the result. It'll just be a waste of time.

"Wait for Tika, if you really don't want to go back to Agam. Leave him with your two hearts. I couldn't watch my son die slowly. He is alive now, but as if dead. If only Hanna and Hanif lived with you. My son will be completely absent in his destruction and sorrow!" test Agam's mother with a hoarse voice.

Tika sees a mother's tears dripping down for the sake of the son. Tika pity to see Agam's mother begging for the happiness of Agam. But pride clearly fortifies Agam's mother. Tika quietly bowed to think about the words of Agam's mother. It was clear that Tika and Agam were separated. Hanna and Hanif's custody will be in Tika's hands. Moreover, Agam was proven guilty, because of his proximity to Zalwa.

"Why did you just wake up now? When your tears are no longer meaningful. The destruction of your son is real in front of your eyes even though I left Hanna and Hanif with Agam. Not necessarily Agam your son is back alive!" said Tika.

"I beg you Tika!" said Agam's mother while cupping her hands in front of her chest.

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"Papa, could it be what I'm experiencing right now. None other than the same road you used to walk. I find it difficult to live away from family. How empty would I be without both hatikua? But I'm just an ordinary woman who can't keep getting hurt. Now I'm not coming back to be with mas Agam. I came back just for the sake of my two hearts and you're my parents!" said Tika lirih, on the body of Dimas who lay unconscious.

Unknowingly Tika's tears dripped down Dimas' back hand. Tears full of guilt have egotistically left Dimas and Nissa. Tika felt ashamed to have ruined her family. Now that his regrets were no longer useful, it all ended with Dimas' weak body.

"I'm sorry Tika, sorry!" tika said while crying.

"No one can judge right and wrong. Only Allah SWT the Khalik has the right to judge you. Everything that happens, make it a self-learning. Now what you have to do. Fix what you want to fix, but don't damage something that's broken. Hanna needs you, her anger just now seems appropriate. Considering you left her by choosing to go with Hanif!" nissa.

"Surely Hanna need not be disappointed. I never choose who to go with? Because both are my flesh and blood. I never thought about separating them. For both are one, but Hanif chose to come with me. Living in simplicity is far from the word luxury!"

"Where have you been all this time?" nissa.

"A place where no one knows me? Living without the surname Anggara. Forgetting the wounds that once existed and I came back without the slightest injury. No more tears will fall. All my wounds have healed without a trace!" said Tika.