Devotion of Love

Walking together

"Hana, don't run. You will fall!" agam shouted anxiously, he was chasing after Hana who was running around here and there. Hana looks very happy to be able to walk with Agam. This afternoon Agam picked up the twins from school. Agam took the two to a shopping center that had a children's playground. Hana was running happily. Hanif just silently followed Hana's sister's footsteps. Hanif smiled as Hana teased him. After that, Hanif no longer smiled.

"Papa, it's mama!" hana shouted loudly, while prancing happily. Agam turned to Hana's gaze. Agam saw Tika sitting on the podium. At a glance Agam saw the theme of the event that took place. It turned out that this afternoon was held launching a novel by Tika. Not far from Tika standing, Agam saw Rayhan standing up. There is jealousy over Agam's mind. But the jealousy was no longer appropriate. When Agam realizes he came with Zalwa and his parents.

Hanif walked slowly towards the event venue. Agam followed the little steps of the son. The distance between Agam and Hanif was clearly visible. The distance that Hanif created from being disappointed in his father. Agam saw Hanif staring fixedly at Tika. As if there was a deep longing. Agam felt a tightness in his chest. When he wanted to hug his son. His hands seemed unable to reach him. Such a close distance, like an invisible abyss of its depth. Pain that must be felt, in order to pay for the disappointment of both of his children.

After almost half an hour Hanif looked at his mother. Tika looked at the son standing not far from her. Finally, Tika dropped off the podium. He approached Hanif who was standing looking at him. Tika also saw Hana playing not far from Agam. Tika sees Zalwa and Agam's parents watching over Hana. Hana's joy is more than Hanif's. Since childhood Hana was very agile and difficult to stop playing. If only he had found a game he liked.

"Today finally came, you brought your two sons to Zalwa. Trying to introduce both of them to their future mama. I may be hurt by this fact. Yet I must be strong, as long as their tiny hands and faces still accompany me. Hope you are happy with this meeting. So that you can let go of my hand. I'm getting tired of waiting. The hand that should have slipped off, should not have continued to be held. I'm not as hard as a reef, which continues to endure the pounding of the waves. Coral rigidity is actually not that strong. Sometimes the fragility is invisible, because it is hidden and disappears in the loud sound of the waves. Abdillah Abqari Agam, let me go!" inner Tika.

Right in front of Agam Tika nodded softly greeting Agam. Tika crouched down in front of the son, Tika hugged Hanif with warmth. Hana runs when she sees Tika hugging Hanif. Hana hugged Tika from behind. Tika is overwhelmed by Hana's embrace. A few steps back, there was a great sense of pain. He saw that the family that was once united had to be destroyed unceremoniously. The sound of Hana's laughter, like a knife that slashed his heart. Instead Hanif was silent, a salt bath that was perfectly sown upon his heart. Pain and pain can no longer be said. The pain felt tightness in the chest, when both eyes saw two of his heart had to choose.

Tika let go of her embrace, then stood facing Agam. There was no more hurt or happiness that Tika felt. His heart froze and even died seeing Agam's wavering attitude. Then Hanif pulled Tika's hand. He asked her to face Hanif. Tika crouched down to look at the son who would protect her. Hanif took a handkerchief from his pants pocket. Hanif rubbed the sweat on Tika's face. The little sweat that Hanif's beautiful eyes look like. Gently Hanif rubbed Tika's sweat. Then he gave me the mineral bottle he had been carrying.

Hanif is waiting for Tika, not wanting to see the mama. Hanif just wanted to give his mother a bottle of mineral water. Tika received the mineral water with a haru feeling. A drop of tears fell down her veil. Tika put down the water Hanif gave her. Tika gently kissed the son's forehead. Tika's thanks go to Hanif.

Agam mute silent sculpting. The tube is stiff no longer able to move. Complete is his heart wound. He lost as a father. His son was precocious. Maturity that shouldn't have happened. During the time of his children.

"I'm sorry, baby, it's all papa's fault. Your silence hurt papa, but your maturity far hurt papa. You forgot your sweet smile. All because of the weak. You are silent in the crowd of this place. All because of my selfish father. Papa loves your mom, but his tough attitude doesn't want you to get close to him. Forgive me, if you continue to selfishly hold your hand. Papa's too scared to lose his mom, but to live with your mom. Papa's not fit yet, snicker and your grandmother hasn't received mama. If only they had seen how broken your heart was. Will they accept your mother? How long did all this happen? Mama is waiting for papa or mama will release papa forever. Hanif..Hana, forgive papa!" batin Agam.

"Thank you!" tika said softly, Hanif nodded slowly. Tika held Hanif and Hana together. Agam could only silently watch his wife and son together full of warmth. Without him being able to get close or feel the same happiness.

"Mama, don't be too tired. If Hanif is big, you don't have to work. Hanif will work for Mama and Hana!" said Hanif lirih, while putting his hand on Tika's neck. Hana did the same thing, Tika held the bodies of her two children. Perhaps her hand was firmly holding her second tiny body. But his heart was no longer strong, when he heard the simple dream of the son.

"Hanif, my mom never gets tired. Didn't Hanif want to see mom smile. Writing makes my mom happy. Don't worry mama, now Hanif and Hana are playing with papa!" tika said softly with a slashed heart. Hanif and Hana nodded almost simultaneously. They came down from Tika's sling and pulled Tika's hand to kiss the back of her hand.

"Mama is often nauseous, Hana's candy is for mama!" he said, again and again just a nod of the head that Tika gave. Instantly Tika pulled the bodies of her two hearts. Closely shutting the tiny body that was born from her womb. Proof of his love for Agam.

Agam and his two parents could only silently stare at the warmth of Tika and her family heir. Nothing can keep them apart anymore. But the selfishness of Agam's parents, as if not see the wounds of his two grandchildren.

"Thank you!" tika said, Hanif and Hana nodded slowly. Tika stood up and walked over to Agam.

"I let you take them, to make them happy. Never hurt them with your weak attitude. Enough of me being hurt with your worries. They are too small to understand and know the other people in your life. If you're going to be happy with Zalwa. Be happy, without forcing them to know Zalwa!" tika said firmly to Agam.

"I took Zalwa, not Agam. My grandchildren deserve to know their future mothers. Are you afraid to see their closeness with Zalwa? So you're angry it's not clear!" said Agam's mother, Tika turned her head while smiling cynically. Then approached the old man Agam and Zalwa stood up. Tika looked at the three in turn.

"A mother is never afraid of being forgotten by her two sons. They were born from my womb, my arms that warmed and protected them all this time. The breast milk they drink will remind them of my meaning. If you think Zalwa can replace me. You're so naive, your son just hasn't been able to forget me!" said Tika loudly, Agam's mother was angry. He raised his hand, but was held back by Tika.

"Don't keep you low in front of everyone. I won't shut up if my son cries to see my wounds!" tika said softly, then threw out the hand of Agam's parents.

"You are arrogant, Agam has forgotten you for a long time. The proof is today he went with Zalwa!" his mother Agam said proudly, Tika approached Zalwa. Then extend your hand into the air. Offering a friendly hand to Zalwa. With doubt Zalwa received Tika's hand.

"Mother, stop that shit. I have no plans to marry Zalwa. I'm not gonna let go of Tika, never will!" said Agam loudly, Tika smiled cynically at the words of Agam. If all that Agam say first. Maybe Tika feels happy to have been fought. But everything has changed.

"Congratulations on your wedding plans. I hope to be happy, I will come to be a witness. Hana and Hanif will be ladies and gentlemen at your wedding!" said Tika loudly, then walked towards Agam.

"Take off the ring in my hand, so that it all ends in peace. Two years is enough time you decide. Both your parents wish you happiness with Zalwa, not with Tika!" tika said, Agam shook his head while walking back a few steps.

"I won't let you go, let them hope!" --