Devotion of Love

He's your son

"Hanna, eat your breakfast!"

"Thank you ma!"

Hanna sat down at her place. The chair is directly opposite the seat where Hafidz sits. Hanna looked down at the plate in front of her. Hanna turned to Hafidz. Just to the left of Hafidz, Davin sat next to Qaila. Hanna kept her head down, silent as if she had not seen Hafidz. Hanna ignored, not even assuming there were other people around.

"Davin, sit next to papa. Mommy's gonna get you your breakfast!"

"Thank you mother!" Davin's voice plain.

Qaila got some food for Davin. Every morning Qaila always prepared breakfast, even feeding Davin himself. Qaila did it all by herself, as though Davin was a son born from her womb. Qaila loved Davin more than herself. The affection that Hanna clearly saw. The reason Hanna sincerely let go of all the relationships that ever existed between her and Hafidz.

"Davin, eat your breakfast!" Pinta Qaila, Davin nodded slowly. Hanna silently lowered her head, staring at the windfall given to her today.

"Hanna baby, you're leaving this morning!" Tika warmly.

"I'll go, but after all sincerely let go of Hanna. In the meantime, Hanna will serve at the village puskesmas. Hanna's energy is needed there!"

"About your dreams!" Agam said, Hanna shook her head weakly.

"I will close the sheets of dreams that I will never be able to achieve. The project I want to work on. Nothing compares to the gratitude of those who need Hanna's help. The puskesmas need extra power!"

"Alright, do whatever you want. Papa will support your decision. Tell me what you need?"

"Hanna wants to fix the top of mama's halfway house. There's a leak on some sides. If you don't mind, papa have some people fix it!" Hanna said firmly, Tika and Agam were stunned to hear word for word spoken from Hanna's lips.

"Hafidz, if it's not busy papa wants you to see the halfway house!" Agam said, Hafidz nodded without hesitation.

"No need pa, Brother Hafidz much more important affair. No need to bother her!"

"Hanna!" Tika said while shaking her head slowly. Tika doesn't like the way Hanna talks. Hafidz felt excluded, immediately lowered his head.

Hanna looked down, her hands shaking. Davin laughs with Qaila, breaking down the walls of his sincerity. Hanna is helpless, her bones are fragile. Hanna is silent without a word, she is hurt to see the warmth of Davin with Qaila. Relationships that stay away from him. A clear drop of her tears fell, slowly and secretly. Hanna wiped away the tears full of her longing.

"Until when do you save your tears? How hard your heart sees the togetherness of Qaila with Davin our son. He's your flesh and blood Hanna. Witness our love, your silence will only continue to hurt. You hurt your honest heart. You hurt my loyal heart. You hurt Davin's heart that believes. Hearts are intertwined, with no word or covenant. You and I may be able to deny this feeling. But the real Davin exists, he's a sinless being born the sacred symbol of our love!" Inner Hafidz while looking at Hanna who kept her head down.

"Davin, finish your breakfast. Mommy will take you to school!"

"I'm leaving with a pretty aunt!" Davin said plainly, Hafidz turned his head with a gestureful look. Hanna kept her head down, as if Hanna was afraid to look at Davin's face.

"Listen to Hanna, that's your son's voice. Your son feels comfortable with you. You keep dodging, but his heart keeps getting closer. Blood ties between you, no rope. Water, it can't be divided. Let alone the thick blood flowing within you two. Hanna listen to your inner voice, don't decide something that isn't necessarily true. Davin may not know you, but he feels the warmth of you. Your womb's been guarding her for nine months. Three years away from you, doesn't make him forget you!" Inner Hafidz with real vexation.

"Davin dear, today beautiful aunt busy. Davin goes to mom and dad!" Hanna said, Davin looked down. Why does Davin look sad? Qaila looked lethargic at Davin, the son she grew up with hurt.

"Sister, Davin wants to go with you!"

"I'm sorry big brother Qaila, big brother is busy!" Hanna said, Agam and Tika can't say anything? Hanna always firmly closed her pain. No one can persuade Hanna. One word from Agam and Tika, will make Hanna go forever.

"Davin, get your bag. Papa will take you!" Hafidz said loudly, Hafidz's tone of voice full of anger and disappointment. Hanna kept her head down, not one bit Hanna saw the disappointed look on her son's face.

Although actually the wound in Hanna's heart is real. Without anyone knowing, Hanna continued to suppress the pain in her heart. Hanna doesn't want anyone to see her tears? Pain that seems to expect the happiness of others.

"I'm sorry dear mama, bad mama. Hate your mom, forget your mom. But believe me, my mom never wanted to hurt you. I once felt far away from my mother who gave birth to my mother. Sepi without affection mother who gave birth to mother. Away from the warm embrace, a figure named mother. Sick and lonely that mom didn't want to give you. Qaila's the mother who took care of you since childhood. You're the son you put in the mama's heart, but you're not the man you deserve to call mom. Qaila's a sincere mother loves you, a woman who loves your father affectionately. Right now you only know Qaila as a mother. Forever only Qaila your mother. Mama won't let there be two mothers in your life. Mama will be silent, though her heart screams. Your lips will continue to smile, even though your soul is crying. Keep smiling, for the sake of the mama you never knew!" Hanna's inner self-conscious, squeezing the tip of her hijab. Hanna was sick without complaining. Just shut up, the road that was now in front of him. Withstood the wound to its fullest, until his body was helpless.

"Hanna Santika Ramaniya!" Sapa Hafidz loudly, Hanna turned her head. He saw Hafidz walking up to him.

Hafidz pushes Hanna's body against the wall. Hafidz stared intently at Hanna, both very close. Hafidz's breath touched Hanna's soft cheek. There is no distance separating the two. Hafidz and Hanna were so close, that the heartbeats were heard beating in tandem.

"I'm angry, hate me. But don't hurt Davin, he's our son. Davin was never wrong about our relationship. I hurt you with my comfort in Qaila. Not my little Davin, he's a kid who's starting to miss his mom. It's not his fault to miss you. Don't throw my mistakes at him. You have the right to ignore me, consider myself dead. If it makes you calm, but don't ignore Davin's affection. He's your son!" Hafidz said full of emotion, Hanna silently lowered her head.

"For you to keep your tears, the bigger the wound you inflict on Davin's heart!" Hafidz's whisper was right in Hanna's ear.