Devotion of Love

Sincerity of Love

"Go!" Hafidz said, disperse the reverie of Hanna. Hanna looked up at Hafidz who was standing not far from her.

Hanna stared in wonder at Hafidz who was standing right in front of her bedroom door. Hafidz unintentionally watches over Hanna who is daydreaming. Hafidz sees Hanna's laptop screen on, but Hanna's mind isn't in place. Clearly Hanna's gaze was not pointing towards the laptop.

Hafidz saw the obvious uneasiness implied from both of Hanna's eyes. File scattered on the bed. It clearly shows how unfocused Hanna is right now. Since the beginning, Hanna has been involved in the business world. Hanna never acts like a mess. He always does all his work. Hafidz never even saw Hanna do her work at home. But everything looks different tonight.

Hanna was very unusual, she was quiet a lot. Especially after his meeting with Arkan, after dinner. Hanna lives in her own world. Hanna forgets the time that revolves around her. Hafidz felt anxious and afraid to see the change in Hanna's attitude. Everything became clearer, as Hafidz entered the room. Hafidz saw Hanna pensively thinking that Hafidz had never known. Hafidz's fear seemed to be true, after Hafidz asked Arkan. Arkan's honesty opens the veil tightly closed. The secret that Hanna deliberately harbored. The restlessness Hanna hid from her husband Hafidz.

"Where should I go? I need something!" Sahut Hanna shriveled, as she turned off her laptop. Hanna arranged the file scattered beside her. Instead Hafidz continued to notice Hanna's unusual movements. Hanna's hand seemed to shake, as she moved the file she was carrying.

"Hanna's enough, I can't see you like that?"

"Sorry Brother Hafidz, I just want to move this. After this, you can sleep comfortably!"

"Go Hanna, meet him. Right now your presence is very much awaited. Be a booster in his weak spirit. That he may rise from his destruction!"

"What's the boy talkin' about? Who am I supposed to meet?" Hanna said evasively, Hafidz looked closely at Hanna. There was a sense of pain that was felt every time Hafidz spoke. A request he could never say.

"Honest Hanna, so that your heart may be at ease. Free of charge you cover, it will only add to the burden of the mind. Your lies are hurting me. Even if you do, because you want to keep my feelings!" Hafidz said coldly, Hanna was getting clueless.

Hanna did not understand the direction of Hafidz's conversation. At first glance Hanna thought, if everything Hafidz said was related to Ghibran. But Hanna quickly forgot about it. Hafidz does not know what happened to the Ghibran.

Hanna saw Hafidz walking towards the window of her room. Hafidz leaned his body against the window. Looking out the window. Feel the cold of the night outside. As cold as his mood tonight. When she heard there was a much greater love for Hanna. At first glance Hanna saw the look of Hafidz's face was very cold. Hanna felt something was being thought out and deeply disturbed Hafidz's mind.

"Why do I feel like you're starting to doubt me?"

"I never doubted you. I believe in you so much and you know it. But sometimes there is a sense of disbelief. When the heart begins to feel betrayed!"

"What does Brother Hafidz want to say? Please speak firmly. No need for a sister to turn. I'm not that smart, so I can guess your heart!" Hanna's cold.

"You seriously don't understand what I'm saying? Or you deliberately pretend to be stupid. So that I can say everything clearly. A real honesty makes me sick!"

"As for Hafidz, I won't force it. Maybe I'm not the perfect woman. But lying has not been my nature since childhood. As bitter or as painful as any truth. I'll say it out loud. I wouldn't smile, just to cover up the pain!" Hanna said loud and firm.

Hanna stay away from Hafidz. With slow steps, he walked out of his room. Hanna wanted to calm herself down, move away from the debate that began to lead to the quarrel. Hanna didn't want to argue just because of misunderstanding. It was better for him to dodge, if close would only make things more runyam.

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"Ghibran!" Hafidz said loudly along with the sound of the door opening.

Hanna stopped her steps right in the middle of the door. He twisted his body 180° facing Hafidz. Hanna stared at Hafidz's back. He felt a cold chill freeze his bones. Hanna was silent, when the name Ghibran came out of the mouth of Hafidz. Hanna's unbelieving headband Hafidz knows the truth. Show me how Hanna didn't want to hurt Hafidz. Hanna's refusal to ask Arkan. Real to keep Hafidz feeling. So that there are no unnecessary misunderstandings.

"Sister Hafidz!"

"I already know what happened to him? Brother Arkan said everything, even your true rejection would be their last hope. I don't mind you seeing Ghibran. If with your arrival, it will raise his spirits!"

"Rejection of your lips, not in line with the restlessness of your heart. Maybe you can make me believe in your sincerity. But your eyes cannot lie. Obviously in your heart and mind, there is a sense of unbearability to the Ghibran!"

"Maybe I feel sorry for her, but she and I have never had a relationship. Obviously the opinion that Arkan said, is just an option without us needing to believe!" Hanna said firmly, Hafidz smiled wryly. As if Hanna's words were nothing more than justification for her anxiety.

"Hanna, you're clearly aware. How big is Ghibran? How far do you know each other? How long has it been in Ghibran's heart? Long before I came, Ghibran was the one who loved you. He who is firm loves you. Faithful and sincerely waiting for certainty. Despite your rejection and indifference it received!"

"I never wanted to know him!" Hanna lirih.

"You don't want to know him, but Allah SWT brought you together. Honestly, Hanna, you can't see a Ghibran destroyed. Just like I am now no longer able to look at your worries!"

"I won't see him!"

"Quite your refusal all along Hanna. Ghibran does not deserve it. He is a good and sincere man. Don't keep your eyes closed will be great love. Meet him, if that's the beginning of his spirit. It's not you who determines that it's just a theory or a certainty. Only Allah SWT has the right to decide. What is best for His servant!"

"Sister, don't force me. If you are sure of Arkan's opinion. Trust me, if all will be well. I'm sure Arkan's brother can help him!" Hanna said, Hafidz shook his head weakly. He disagrees with Hanna.

"One name he kept calling. Tears are dripping in between he said. Heartbeats waiting for your presence. It's all real Hanna, just for you and forever for you!"

"But I'm your wife. There's no way I'm gonna see him. Even for the sake of humanity. I don't want to give Ghibran false hope. On the other hand, I hurt your heart!"

"Are I ready for that pain?"

"But I can't see it. The pain is not as easy as it says. Because I've felt it!"

"Trust Hanna, I'm ready to budge. As long as your heart is for me. Let your body come to see him, but set your heart just for me!"

"Sister Hafidz, you believe me too much. Or your heart is really good!" Hanna said softly, as she walked over to Hafidz. Hanna embraces Hafidz's body, resting her head on the chest of Hafidz's field. The sound of Hafidz's heartbeat. Full of warmth and love for Hanna.

"I believe you, the reason my heart softens!"

"Thank you, Brother Hafidz has trusted me. I'll go, if brother comes with me!" Hanna said, Hafidz shook his head weakly.

"You go alone, my presence will only add to Ghibran's wounds!"

"Sister Hafidz!" Hanna was full of wonder.

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"I'm fine!"

"Thank you, Hafidz!"

"I'm fine, baby, I'll be fine. Though I really want to feel like I'm screaming. I hurt when someone loves you more than me. Your meeting with him won't hurt me too much. But if only he had really come to his senses after meeting you. Will I be able to endure this jealousy. If he's real he's not for you and he's alive because of you. Is it love or a match? One thing is for sure, I love you so much. I never wanted to lose you. You are everything in my life!" Inner Hafidz while holding tightly to Hanna.