Devotion of Love

Savira's my best friend

"Savira!"

"Hanna, you're sober!" Savira's hysterical. Hanna's blink of an eye answers Savira's question.

Savira approaches Hanna, looking happily at her best friend. Savira rubbed Hanna's face, tightly hugging Hanna's cold body. Hanna silently receives Savira's hug. Her bones were too weak, to return Hanna's embrace. Savira kissed Hanna on the forehead, rubbing the clear hairs on the edge of Hanna's eyes.

"You'll be fine, I'll take care of you. My nephew will be born safely. He won't lose you, I'll fight to keep you!" Whispering Savira softly, Hanna nodded slowly.

Savira lets go of her embrace, she checks on Hanna's body. Savira carefully checks Hanna's condition. Savira and Arkan fight together to take care of Hanna. They took turns to accompany Hanna. Hanna was not left alone for a second. Arkan and Savira do not want to lose Hanna. They are ready to fight for Hanna's recovery.

"Where is he?"

"Mushaola!" Savira is cold.

"How is he doing?"

"He's fine!" Savira relax.

"He knows my condition!"

"If you are unconscious, he knows. If it's your real situation, he just knows. Since you went to the hospital. He became quiet, clearly a sense of guilt on his face!" Savira's cynical voice, Hanna puts a smile on her pain.

Savira's regret is evident from every word. Savira's way of speaking, shows how much she's disappointed. All the anger was there, none other than the pain Hanna was experiencing. Hafidz's insensitive stupidity will hurt Hanna. It obviously disappointed Savira, very disappointed.

"Never blame him, for he is not wrong and never wrong!"

"That's your opinion, but to me he's wrong. The stupidity of the reason for your pain right now. Its insensitivity that ultimately makes you endure pain yourself. He was not only wrong, but stupid!" Savira's voice is full of emotion.

"Savira, he's my husband. Have you forgotten his status? I can be mad at you, if you keep blaming him!" Said Hanna soft and weak, Savira turned to look at Hanna fixedly.

"That's you, under these circumstances. He's all you think about. You forgot your wounds, for good. You endure your pain, so that he may calm down. You keep giving in and keep quiet, all for fear of being agitated. When is Hanna? Until when will you continue like this? You forgot how to defend yourself. You are no longer able to fight. You can no longer laugh. Every step of your way is organized, afraid of being wrong and hurting him. All for her sake, the one who's never been sensitive to your needs!" Savira said.

Savira's anger has reached its peak. His disappointment was too great, until he could no longer endure it. Savira's fear is reaching a threshold. He couldn't afford to lose Hanna. Especially if all that, because of the attitude of Hafidz who never cared. Either Savira or the people who love Hanna. Never could lose Hanna. They blamed Hafidz, though he was not the one at fault.

"Savira!" Hanna said softly, Savira lowered her head.

At first glance Hanna saw Savira rubbing her eyes. Without Savira noticing, her tears fell down. His heart really hurt. His soul was wounded, not just the disappointment Savira now felt. The fear of losing Hanna, became the main reason for his uneasiness. Tears long held back, dripping without excuse. Savira is strong and firm, now fragile and broken. Hanna's calmness was no longer able to make Savira relieved. Instead Hanna's smile, was like a sharp dagger slicing through her thin heart. A real smile would disappear, a smile that became Hanna's farewell gesture to her. Savira could no longer bear the pain.

"Savira!" Call Hanna a second time.

Savira was silent, no words from her tiny lips. Hanna looked at her best friend. His weak bones felt weaker. Savira's fear is clearly visible in Hanna's eyes. Savira's most formidable companion, his weak self-support. Now fragile without being able to support it. There was a feeling of dread in his heart. Fear of the suffering of those who love him so much. Savira could be ruined, let alone a person so close to him. Hanna silently looked at Savira who was no longer strong.

"I'm fine!" Hanna said weakly, her hands clutching Savira tightly.

With the rest of her strength, Hanna reached out to the soft hands of her best friend. The hand that always gently caressed her bulging stomach. The hand that patiently, took care of Hanna's weakened body. The hand that patted Hanna's shoulder slowly. Calm and keep encouraging. For Hanna to be strong and believe everything is fine.

But now right next to him. The strong hand was weak, no longer able to strengthen it. The hand is boneless, fragile and fear-eating. The hand was no longer warm, cold filled with anxiety. Savira's hand could no longer hold him. Even that hand needs a crutch. Everything has changed, Hanna's pain is obvious. Savira's fear can no longer be covered.

Only his Ridho was able to change everything. Returns a smile that is covered in tears. Restores the heat that is replaced by the cold of fear. The real surrender cannot be said. A brother who no longer has hope. All gathered together into one, in sincere prayer full of hope. Giving the owner a chance to look at Hanna's smile.

"I never lose, as long as you're by my side. Live and die, not lose or win. We do not have the ability to defeat or succumb to the owner of life. If I could, I would fight to defeat HIS destiny. I will not yield to His decree. Yet you realize right, we are just helpless servants. All are only HE's entitled, no one can sue!"

"Why are you so calm?"

"I'm scared of Savira, very scared. I am sadder than you. I was disappointed when I remembered the fate that would happen to me. A decision that made me part with my son. Without me being able to see or hold her. I want to be angry, if I can I want to curse. But all is impossible, I'm a helpless servant!"

"Hanna!" Said Savira, then rushed to embrace Hanna who was lying weakly. Removing Hanna's dripping tears. Hanna's inner voice is revealed, opening Savira's eyes. Showing how devastated Hanna is about her condition.

"I'm fine, as long as you're loyal to me. I am strong when you are strong. I'm fragile when you're fragile. Help me fight this pain. If I can't smile, at least don't let me see your tears. Trust me, we can fight all this. Fight so that I can see your niece born and grown up safe!" Whisper Hanna with the rest of her power.

Savira nodded in Hanna's arms. The two strengthened each other, though they were weak without strength. Savira is afraid of losing Hanna, but Hanna is afraid to leave her baby. The same fear, with a different love.

"I will accompany you when you are sick. I will be awake, though both eyes are asleep. Both my eyes will forget to be tired. As long as it can erase yourselves!" Savira.

"Thank you!"

"There is no word of thanks in our brotherhood. But there is one thing that bothers me!"

"What's that?" Sahut Hanna wonder.

"Why do you love Hafidz so much? You are silent in resisting Mother Hafidz's refusal. Hanna my best friend isn't that weak!"

"Because he was the first man to teach me the meaning of affection. The love he offers opens the eyes of my closed heart. His sincerity illuminates my dark soul. He's a priest who shakes the dark walls of my heart. Ijab qobul said, shaking the pillars of Arsy. The promise of responsibility that is not easy has been borne. Guarding and guiding me, with the witnesses of the angels of Arsy. A sacred promise I will never break. I'll keep my last breath!" Said Hanna, Savira pensive Hanna.

"Hanna!"

"Yes Savira, if he is ready to take all my sins. The same thing I was ready to do to repay her great love. The promise of the afterlife is much greater. Compared to my pain and my wound now!"

"I'm proud of you!" Said Savira firmly, while giving a thumbs up towards Hanna.

"If there were no Ghibran in your heart. Maybe I'll ask you to marry Hafidz's sister. Put him and my son to you. At least they'll be fine with you!"

"Hanna, you're delirious!" Savira is shocked, she shakes her head to refuse Hanna's request.

"That's why I didn't ask you. I don't want you to marry without love. Your great love for brother Ghibran, can't be replaced by anyone?"

"I refused not for that reason, but because I'm sure you're okay!" Sahut Savira firmly.

"I will never betray our bond of love. I can't replace you with another love!"

"Sister Hafidz!" Savira and Hanna were almost at the same time.

"No need to find me another love. Because forever I will hold our love!" Hafidz said coldly, Hanna smilingly saw Hafidz standing right in front of the door.

"I can finally see you on my breath!" Inner Hanna pilu.