Devotion of Love

Come back

"Why not go in? Hanna needs Brother Hafidz!" Sapa Aura was friendly, Hafidz lowered his head. His gaze was empty without direction. The cold gust of the night did not bother his bones in the least.

"He needs a strong Hafidz, not a weak and helpless Hafidz like me!" Hafidz said, shortly after shaking his head.

"Whoever does Hanna need? It was appropriate, brother was next to him. It's sister's hand that might bring Hanna back. The voice of the older sister who will awaken Hanna. The breath of brother who became the warmer of his cold body. A love that can't be replaced by anyone? An unchangeable bond of heart with any relationship? Trust me sister, Hanna doesn't sleep and she's always waiting for you. Maybe Hanna's body is asleep, but her soul and heart are awake. Waiting for the glare of your presence. Wake up from his long slumber!" Aura said firmly, Hafidz was silent.

When everyone was calm, even the toughest accepted Hanna's condition. Hafidz is the only person who is broken and fragile. Fear of losing Hanna. Anxiety about Hanna's departure. Anxiety about Hanna's pain. Real makes Hafidz bones crumble. His body was no longer able to stand up straight. The collapse hit the marble floor of the hospital. Leaning against the sturdy wall of the hospital that felt almost collapsed hit his body.

Aura walked slowly towards him. Aura saw Hafidz crushed without a handle. Everyone stood up supporting their weakened bodies. No one cares anymore about the destruction of Hafidz. Instead Aura felt, the loneliness that Hafidz felt. The support that Hafidz is waiting for, when no one wants to support him anymore.

"Aura, could it be all that!"

"As long as we believe, no word is impossible. Did Brother Hafidz forget? Kun fayakun, happened then happened. Where is the faith of Brother Hafidz, until there is doubt about His power!" Aura said steadily, Hafidz grew silent.

Aura sat leaning against the same wall as Hafidz. Staring at the ceiling of the hospital, inversely proportional to Hafidz who was looking down on the hospital floor. Although in the same position, but their anxiety and fear are the same. A stressful event that happened a few hours ago. It was still clearly reflected in the minds of Aura and Hafidz.

At exactly 00.00 WIB, Hanna was rushed to the hospital. Hanna's condition suddenly worsened, Hanna experienced a decrease in consciousness. Blood pressure is too high, making Hanna's condition worse. Moreover, Hanna's pregnancy has entered the third trimester. Being a scary scourge for the Hanna family. The fear happened tonight. It was an unforgettable midnight for Hafidz and the people who loved Hanna.

After nearly two hours Arkan struggled, Hanna's condition finally improved. Although Hanna was unconscious at this time. But Hanna's vital organs are getting better. At least Hanna would still continue to struggle with her condition. Fight pain, for the sake of his beloved baby. Hope's lamp in Hanna's dark life. A glimmer of light encouraged Hanna in her step. Hanna's focus in her old age. The real evidence of Hanna's sincere love for Hafidz is beyond doubt.

After all the tension that occurred, finally there was such great relief. There was no longer any anxiety in Agam's eyes, when both eyes saw the pain Hanna was experiencing. Unseen the turmoil of Tika, the anxiety will lose his poor little daughter. No longer seen the anger of Arkan's brother, the frightened cries of Savira Hanna's close friend. All were destroyed when Arkan came out of the IGD room. It was as if the dawn was shining in the morning. Arkan came out carrying a glimmer of hope that almost faded away.

"Aura, why is everything happening to me? The happiness I look forward to is coming soon. Should everything be lost? If I had to choose between my son or Hanna? I better not choose, I'll never be ready to choose!"

"But life must choose, for nothing is perfect in this world. On the bright side, there is always a dark greeting. In happy times, there is an ambush. In the moment of laughter, tears followed. All there is inequality, because it is the color and the true nature of life. Selfish if you want perfection without disability. Believe it or not, tears come with the end. Tears sometimes come to cleanse the eyes of our hearts. Reminds us of infinite happiness, because when we cry and are hurt. That's when we remember Allah SWT, we remember the great pleasure that has been felt. A pleasure that we unconsciously deny!" Aura said warmly, Hafidz was silent.

Hafidz tried to find a bright light in Hanna's words. Hafidz felt that there was a violent slap touching his heart and soul. Hafidz was ashamed of his disbelief all along. He began to forget his relationship with Allah SWT. Hafidz dissolves in the life of the world. Busy pursuit of real happiness getting away from his life.

"Is this a rebuke for my negligence?" Hafidz said, Aura turned his head. Aura's gaze was flat, as if confused as to what to answer? But one thing is certain, what happened must happen?

"If this is a rebuke for your negligence, then what happens to me? I never forget my duty, I mention Allah SWT in every joy and sorrow in my life. I pray in prostration, giving His pleasure for happiness in my marriage. But I have to accept that I am not perfect. I cannot resist this sadness. I can't get that blessing either. Is this punishment or is this a form of Allah SWT's affection for me?"

"Maura!" Sahut Hafidz.

Aura turned her head while winking her two beautiful eyes. There was a smile behind his veil. He looked at the gaze of Hafidz who was beginning to realize his mistake. The aura clearly felt the turmoil of Hafidz's heart. At once the understanding that began to exist in the heart of Hafidz.

"Yes, Brother Hafidz, my brother and I experienced the same thing. But under different conditions, the same weak feeling with unequal expectations. Trust me, everything is in its rightful position. If we believe in His ordinance. Niscayakita was also convinced of the goodness and wisdom behind the pain. Later we will realize, how much Allah SWT loves us? Although sometimes the affection is with reprimand or pain. The pain that will lead us back to Him. Be grateful, Brother Hafidz, as Allah SWT continues to test your faith. If Allah SWT pleases, HE will not test or remind you. But Allah SWT will stay away from you, because we are the ones who need His help. It is not God SWT who expects our faith!"

"Maura!"

"Hmmm!"

"Stupid me!"

"Sister Hafidz is not stupid, but the world has made you forget the true nature of life. Brother is after something that has been written, the sustenance that has been set for you. The sustenance that seems lacking, even though the sustenance of brother exceeds others. If Hanna was silent with her pain, it was none other than that big sister's changed self. Hafidz who shook his heart first, the priest who was firm in faith. As for today I saw, Hafidz who forgot the faith. Not disbelief of Allah SWT, but brother put Allah SWT after world affairs. It's not this Hafidz brother I know, if possible come back. Rediscover the faith that once existed in your heart. A firmness that is not easily swayed by the world!"

"Hanna wasn't disappointed by your change. But hanna regretted being the reason for your change. When you met Hanna, your figure was so polite and personal. Now that I know Hanna, the change brother is worse. The reason Hanna was disappointed, blamed herself!" Aura said firmly, Hafidz was silent.

"I'm sorry Hanna, sorry!" Hafidz.

"Tell that to Hanna, she waits and misses your voice. Prove to Hanna, you haven't changed. You're still the old Hafidz, strong against anything!" Aura said, standing up.

Aura stood away from Hafidz, as she watched Arkan walk slowly towards her. Aura did not want any misunderstanding, even though Aura had kept the boundary between them. But the past relationship with Hafidz, will not be easily forgotten. There will be disappointment in Arkan's heart, even if the word is unspoken.

"Aura, it's a mistake if I can't be strong in front of Hanna!" Hafidz said, Aura turned and shook her head.

"If Hanna reasons weak sister, instead weak sister reasons fragile Hanna!"

"I can't afford to be calm. Hanna everything in my life. Just thinking about losing Hanna I can't afford it. I'm so scared of losing her!"

"Berwudhulah brother, pray two rakat. Call Hanna's name on your night bow. Pinta Hanna in the third of your night. Only in HIM will the owner of life return. And so I beg of HIM, that Hanna may return beside us. The wife is able to sacrifice everything for the sake of the husband, because the husband is the helper of the wife of the afterlife!" Aura said, Hafidz nodded slowly. Understand the implied meaning of the word Aura.

"Hafidz, Hanna's fine. Savira kept looking after him. If you want to see him, come in. Maybe you can help Hanna regain consciousness!"

"Sir Arkan!" Sapa Hafidz shrewd and weak.

"Trust me, I will try my hardest. Hanna's not just your wife, she's my little sister. All my soul will help him!"

"Thank you brother!" Sahut Hafidz, hugging Arkan.

"Sir Arkan!" Sapa Aura, just after Hafidz left.

"Hmmm!"

"Son Arkan is angry!"

"I'm not angry, but this heart hurts. I don't know, honey, why does my heart hurt to see you close to Hafidz? He's the man you trust to be your priest!" Said Hafidz.

Hafidz walked towards the IGD room. Right in front of the door, his footsteps stopped. Hafidz's tears dripped, his legs trembling. No longer can Hafidz step up. Without him noticing his body staggered.

"Berwudhu Hafidz, calm yourself. Hanna's gonna be fine. If you are weak, who will look after your son? For Hanna and your son to hold on. You are strong, you must always be strong!" Whisper Agam while supporting the weak body of Hafidz.

"Father!"

"Papa knows, meet Hanna after you calm down. We'll take care of Hanna, trust Hanna to us!"

"Good pa!" Sahut Hafidz accompanied by a nod of the head.

"Dear, I'm sorry!" Inner Hafidz pilu.