Devotion of Love

Pick up Love

"Arkan, can we talk!" Sapa Hafidz, Arkan nodded in agreement. With a blink of an eye, Arkan invited Hafidz to sit in front of him.

Arkan is not busy, but Hafidz meets Arkan in the hospital. There's no way Hafidz met at Arkan's house. Because Hafidz is still reluctant to meet with Tika. A calm woman full of wisdom. Hanna's dear mother, someone who might change Hanna's mind. Changing the principle of life is the reason Hanna rejects her love.

"Why so serious? There's an urgent problem. You don't need to come to the hospital. Just call me, we can meet outside!" Said Arkan, when he saw the silence of Hafidz.

Several times Arkan heard the sound of Hafidz breathing. A Hafidz deepest voice that wants to say. If his heart is agitated, it is filled with anxiety. Hafidz's body gestures showed how confused he was.

"What's wrong?" Said Arkan again, as Hafidz looked up. Hafidz's daydreams instantly crumbled, as Arkan's voice rang out in silence.

Hafidz stared at Arkan, Hafidz's last hope of understanding Hanna. The person Hafidz believes is capable of changing Hanna's decision. If Arkan can't change Hanna's decision either. Hafidz will give up on Hanna. There's no longer a shred of hope, if Arkan can't convince Hanna.

"Hanna!" Hafidz said, Arkan looked down at the floor. A few seconds later, Arkan stared at the Hafidz nanar.

One word came out of Hafidz, shrinking Arkan's guts. There's no need for Hafidz to say the problem. Arkam was already able to guess, the problem that Hafidz was trying to say. But Arkan was unable to help Hafidz. A moment to make Arkan's guts shrivel. No more words to appease Hafidz.

"What do you expect of me?"

"Why do I feel like you can't help me?" Hafidz said, a short word Arkan. Make Hafidz sure Arkan can't help him.

"Not that I can't help you, but it's too late to fight now!" Arkan said softly, as Hafidz stared fixedly at Arkan. There was a sense of disbelief, when Arkan said the word too late. I don't know what that late means? One thing is certain, Hafidz felt a bad feeling.

"What's wrong?"

"There's an hour left on Hanna's flight. He will be leaving the country for two years or more. Hanna will be studying business there. He decided to study abroad. So that Hanna can focus!" Arkan said, Hafidz shook his head weakly. Hafidz did not believe Arkan's words. A reality that once again shattered his hopes.

"It's more precisely away from me!"

"I don't know the exact reason, but that love is in Hanna's heart. The love that began to feel in his heart, clasped by his tiny hand. But Hanna held onto that love. Like grasping water, there were only empty hands left when it opened!"

"Whatchu mean? Gripping water!" Hafidz did not understand, Arkan looked at Hafidz closely. A belief in love that is reciprocated with Hanna's boundless doubts.

Arkan gave a letter to Hafidz. The letter that had a sky blue cover, shaded when looked at by the eye. Hafidz slowly took the letter. His name is in the middle of the letter. A beautifully written name, as if to show the gentle person of the author. The writing that made Hafidz's heart shake violently.

"The letter that Hanna intentionally left for you. He was sure you would look for me. That's why he gave me the letter!"

"Why didn't he give it to himself?" Hafidz said, his hands trembling with the letter Hanna had left.

"If Hanna could, maybe she'd give it to herself. But his heart was still very fragile admitting everything. Hanna hopes the letter answers your heart's doubts. Hanna's decision will be your offer of sincere love. The holy hope Hanna wants for your happiness!" Arkan said firmly, Hafidz looked down at the letter in his hand.

Arkan was standing right next to Hafidz. Arkan saw fear on Hafidz's face. Fear of the destruction of her love hopes with Hanna. Arkan was about to leave Hafidz alone in his room. To have Hafidz calm down in reading the letter from Hanna.

"But!"

"Trust me, all the best!" Arkan assures Hafidz. Hafidz slowly nodded. Just as Hafidz opened the letter, Arkan stepped out of his room.

Hafidz opened Hanna's letter carefully. It was as if the letter was Hanna's heart left for her. Hafidz doesn't want a small tear on the cover of the letter. With trembling hands, Hafidz opened Hanna's letter. Hafidz's heart rang out loud in Arkan's room.

^^Dear: Hafidz, imam of my dreams^^^

Brother Hafidz, I left a letter with a sky blue cover. As a farewell that cannot be said from my lips. I was too afraid to admit my weakness. I am too cowardly to admit my race. I was too stupid to consider myself valuable. So that it constantly brushes off your heartfelt feelings. Rejection that has hurt your sacred heart. The love you offer no longer deserves a grip. There are many things that are not the same between us.

Brother Hafidz, the blue cover of the sky that I left behind. It may be my last gift to you, but the blue of the sky will always remind me of you. The sky that I hope to shade me, at every step of my life. The sky that I will keep staring at in every breath. It's like your shady face I'm looking at. The sky will be wherever I am? It's like you are next to me. The face that infiltrated deep into my innermost heart. Fill my empty, dark heart without love.

Brother Hafidz, if I feel love. Then it's true that I love you, but I'm not a teacher worthy of you. I'm not a woman made from your ribs. I'm a woman without faith, I'm full of weakness, I'm no longer perfect. The priest is as perfect as you, deserving of happiness. There's a mummy created for you and it's not me.

Brother Hafidz, I hope my letter answers your sincere love. I hope you understand, there will never be a common word for us. Love is real growing in our hearts. But there are many things I can no longer offer you. You don't deserve this bitterness. Let me feel this bitterness. I hope someday when we meet. There is only happiness in your life.

Forgive my weak love for not being able to reach you. Hanna Santika Ramaniya is nothing more than a cowardly woman. I run away from your love, I get away from the pain of heartbreak. Pretty soon I saw your hand holding another woman. No longer can I bear, the pain I can't endure. I will return when my priest is happy.

One request of mine, though our love is not united. Don't ever hate me, my memories are in your silence. Because when you hit me, I felt your warm embrace. Goodbye, Brother Hafidz, forgive my cowardice.

^^Hanna S. M.^^^

"Why should you give up if there is love?" Said Hafidz.

Braaakkkk

"Where are you going?" Said Arkan, when he heard the slamming of the door of his room.

"I have to go after Hanna, she can't go. He couldn't leave me, after he told me love!"

"Slowly, Hanna may have gotten into the plane!"

"There's no certainty before I try. I'm going to pick up Hanna, she doesn't have the right to make me like this!" Hafidz said, then ran away from Arkan.

"Go, that's what I was hoping for. The fort built by Hanna. Reassure him, your love is strong invincible. As doubtful as it would be for a blissful love!" Inner Arkan.