Devotion of Love

Maaf

"Hanna, before you go. Mama wants to show you something!" Tika said loudly, Hanna stopped her steps.

Tika took Davin down from her sling. Tika hands Davin over to Hafidz. Then without further ado, Tika pulled Hanna's hand. Bringing Hanna into the magnificent house of Agam. A house built full of love, as a united place of his extended family. The results of Agam's efforts, proof of Agam's loyalty to Tika and his two children.

Tika continued to walk deeper and deeper into her magnificent home. Without looking back or talking a word to Hanna. As for Hanna, follow Tika's steps without asking. Hanna felt the anger and disappointment of Tika. His heart was full of pain, when he felt the cold hand of Tika. The warmth that was replaced by a great sense of disappointment.

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The sound of the door breaking open, awakening Hanna to Tika's anger. Agam and Arkan walk the tail of two meaningful women in their lives. They felt worried, when they saw Tika's anger. I don't know what the reason for Tika's anger is? But clearly the anger is real, there is no calm that has been in the person of Tika. When all were worried about Tika's anger. Hanna's the only one confused. He did not understand the reason for Tika's annoyance. But Hanna realized, had disturbed Tika's calm.

"Come on Hanna, tell mama what you saw?" Said Tika emotion, Hanna shook her head weakly. Tika looked at Hanna. It was as if he didn't like Hanna's answer.

"Why?" Tika is upset.

"This is papa's room and mom's, it's not appropriate for Hanna to go inside. Hanna felt awkward, if she had to go inside!"

"Its awkward, uncomfortable. Two words that now fill your heart and mind. You feel alien to your family. You see us as enemies. Ever since you woke up, you haven't learned to remember us. It's not supposed to force you, but at least you can appreciate the blood relationship. You forgot about your mom and dad, but you can't possibly forget that the blood that runs through your body is the same as your dad's. Arkan and you were born only a few minutes apart, but during your womb. You grew up and shared for months. Should it all be forgotten and replaced with your doubts that continue to hurt us!"

"Tika, don't force Hanna!" Agam said, Tika silently stared hard at Hanna. Instead Hanna lowered her head, feeling confused by everything that was happening.

"A year more we wait. It's time for Hanna to appreciate us. Not to continue to doubt and feel his family is different from him. Did you hear the way he judged his family? Hanna should behave like that. She's not our daughter Hanna. But Hanna is trying to find a new identity. Thinking he's more comfortable living simply, forgetting the luxuries we offer. Thinking Hanna didn't deserve to live in real sufficiency long ago she felt!"

"But Tika!" Agam said, Tika covered Agam's mouth with her hands. Expect Agam to keep quiet, letting himself solve all his problems with Hanna.

"Mama, Hanna's not stable!" Arkan said, Tika shakes his head in disagreement.

"He's very stable, even fine. Hanna is even more mature. He is capable of studying, what am I going to say? Even Hanna can understand more than you. Because of the current Hanna, it was much wiser and broad in looking at the matter!" Tika continued with his cold attitude.

"So please stop. Nothing needs to be extended. Let Hanna choose the path. At least he's still with us!" Agam.

"Hanna, you hear all that?" Tika said coldly, Hanna nodded without looking at Tika. She was afraid to see Hanna's anger.

"Does your heart believe? We all love you, especially your father and brother. Is your heart still doubtful? Are you still blind to their love?" Tika said firmly, Hanna lowered her head even deeper. Nod Hanna's head clearly, if Tika's anger is real.

"I'm sorry Hanna!"

"No way!" Tika's voice was cold, and Hanna looked up. His gaze was sad, he felt the coldness of Tika piercing his heart. It hurt, it hurt so much to stab his heart.

"Aika!" Said Agam in disbelief, slowly Agam touched Tika's shoulder. Thinking her touch could calm Tika down. But Tika gently brushed it off.

"Let me finish it. Hanna must realize her mistake. Not always I defended him. He should be able to accept the consequences of his attitude!"

"But, Hanna hasn't fully recovered yet!" Sahut Hafidz.

"She is healthy and inwardly born, but it is Hanna who makes her sick. He doesn't want to remember anything. At least remove his doubt of our affection. Believe in our sincerity. Hanna was nothing more than a cold person, but as if she was gentle!"

"Mama, forgive Hanna for accidentally hurting your heart!" Sahut Hanna.

"Mama won't get angry, if you act a little warm. At least to those who love you. Papa who always thinks of you, Arkan the brother who always misses you, Hafidz the man who is always faithful waiting for you!"

" Boy Sister Hafidz!" Hanna said she didn't understand.

"Mama, please stop. Hanna can't accept the truth yet. We'll wait for Hanna to get better!" Hafidz prevents.

"Until when? Two years we've been waiting for him to wake up. One more year we waited for him to come back from his silence. How many years are we silent? Are we waiting for Hanna to walk away completely? Like this morning, Hanna said goodbye without thinking about our feelings!" Tika said firmly, Hafidz retreated away.

The truth is all Hafidz wants to say. But she was afraid of losing Hanna. If Hanna can't accept the truth. Hanna's personality is different now, but if it's about principles. Hafidz was convinced that Hanna would remain the same. Angry and disappointed if he's lied to.

"Aika!" Said Agam, Tika turned to look at Agam sharply. Suddenly all fell silent, no one else could stop Tika. A firmness that is inversely proportional to the warm affection of Tika.

"Hanna, go inside!" Tell Tika, Hanna nodded and walked into Tika's room.

Hanna raised her head slowly. With a sharp look of disbelief. Hanna looked at Tika's room. Even though he had forgotten all the memories in this room. But Hanna felt something was different and very different. For a moment Hanna's heart was beating violently. There was a sudden pain that made him feel short of breath. Hanna felt sad, for something she never realized was the reason.

"Why are you silent Hanna? Where was your voice? Your words are like your life and ours are different. Your honesty is right, even if every word you say is like a sharp dagger that hurts your father!"

"Mama!" Greet Hanna with a trembling voice.

"Darling, please stop!" Pinta Agam groans, Tika shakes her head ignoring Agam's request.

Hanna walked deeper and deeper, Hanna spread her gaze throughout the room. The room was so big, as big as his house in the village. It seemed empty without any luxury items that had been in Hanna's mind since. There is no big, soft bed. Luxury cabinets with beautiful carvings that are definitely expensive. Comfortable large sofa that is usually in the corner of the room. Nothing, everything seems ordinary and simple.

Hanna walked over to the small plastic cupboard. His hands rubbed every inch of closet leaves. There was a great tremor in her heart, but Hanna did not understand the reason her heart was pounding. Small blue plastic cupboard with the image of winnie the pooh. It seemed ordinary and inconspicuous, but Hanna's hand came to a halt as she saw the inscription of her name. Hanna stared clearly at her beautiful name, a clear drop of her tears falling. Hanna felt a strange feeling with the closet.

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Hanna opened her favorite cartoon picture closet. His hands are getting cold, not his hands are shaking now. His body started to shake violently. When both his eyes saw a pair of blue white shoes neatly stored in it. Small shoes that began to wear, shoes that he had used when a toddler first. Just below the shoe shelf, Hanna saw some warm clothes. Why is it all in the closet? But clearly Hanna felt her heart full at all that.

Hanna took a set of her nightgowns. Hanna smelled her tiny nightgown. Smell the scent of baby warm oil. Hanna was sitting right next to the floor mattress. Her tears were dripping down without her being able to prevent it. Hanna hugged the clothes she was holding. Wishing her memories back, the memories she felt first.

"Mama!"

"Why are you crying?" Tika said, Hanna shook her head.

"You cry because your heart feels all the memories. Your favorite closet, your favorite shoes, the warm clothes you always wear when you are cold. All the stuff that continues to be your papa solace. The way your father endures in his longing and loneliness. Being away from you is not easy for your father. Much easier for him, life without luxury and simplicity!"

"Father!"

"Yes, your father forgot all the comforts. He can't live comfortably, when he knows you live full of limitations. Your father forgot his comfort, so that he could feel the same way as you. Never have you forgotten, his life only remembers his longing for you!"

"Sorry!"

"For what?" Tika Sahut cold.

"Doubts about your love!"

"For that you don't need to apologize. We never count the loss of loving you. So it's not important, you believe or doubt our affection!" Tika Sahut, Hanna looked up. His gaze was blank, as if he did not understand Tika's intention.

"I'm sorry for your disrespectful attitude towards papa. Rejection of his attention to you. Your cold attitude that consciously broke his heart!"

"Is this about the money I gave back?"

"That's not just Hanna's money, inside is your papa's sweat. The heartfelt affection of a father who wants to protect his daughter. Money that you consider a luxury without love. It's too simple, compared to your papa's sacrifice all along. He lives in simplicity, without him caring whether you remember him or not. But how hard do you argue? Your heart is aware of the memories. Tears that come out of your beautiful eyes. Not just a regular cry, but the scream of your heart that hurts from forgetting everything!"

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"Don't cry, mama's just a momentary emotion. Forget everything, never be disappointed with your decision!" Agam said while patting Hanna's trembling shoulders.

"I'm sorry Hanna!" Hanna said softly, looking up at Agam.

"You're not wrong!"

"Indeed he was not mistaken, but his heart was too proud to admit the difference he created himself. Hanna wants to change her personality, but she coldly admits to the relationship that once existed. Especially his relationship with you. The only person who has always been in love with his pain. Hands that embrace, in the cold. The body that protects, in its distress. Sufficient sweat, in the button. Eyes that guard, in his sleep!"

"Well, that's enough!"

"I can see him forget me. I was able to feel his annoyance at Arkan. I can accept his fear of Hafidz. But I wouldn't accept it if he insulted your pride. Forgetting memories with you, rejecting your sincere attention. Not just because you're my husband, but because Hanna spent most of her life with you. It's not fair, if in your old age. You forgot just like that, ignored without any mercy!"

"I'm sorry Hanna!" Hanna said in her tears. Hanna rests at Agam's feet, but Agam lifts Hanna's tiny body. Closely clutching the body of the princess he had always missed.

"Not under your feet where you rest. No matter how much you ignore papa, you are still papa's daughter. Forever papa's embrace you'll get. Papa misses you so much, don't ever think you can live without your smile!" Agam said right in Hanna's ear that was covered in hijab.

"Sorry!" Hanna said softly, Agam nodded slowly. Hanna turned her head to look at Tika, extending a hand. Hanna asks Tika to hug her with Agam.

"If you forget all of us, at least let us re-introduce ourselves. Especially Hafidz and Davin!" Tika said, Hanna was silent.

"I don't expect you to remember me. Staring at your smile this close is more than enough. Thank you, Hanna, thank you for coming into my life. Your gift is beautiful and precious, with my life I will take care of it. Until you remember we are always waiting for you!" Inner Hafidz shortly after hearing Tika's words.

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...Thanks dad, your greeting will always calm me down. Your warmest hand feels in my arms. Your hard work has been living me all along. Thank you for accompanying me in my weak years. At an age that needs your protection. Despite the short time we were together, thank you for being present in my memories. Thank you, that's the only thing that can repay you....

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