Devotion of Love

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"Tell me what you want to tell me?" arkan said coldly, Agam took a long breath. He sees Arkan's extremely cold attitude towards her.

Agam's body froze, staring at the son he could not reach. Agam's hands don't touch Arkan's skin. What a real hatred Arkan showed to Agam.

"Why Arkan? I'm no one else, I'm your real father. The blood flowing through your body. My blood, not someone else's. You're proof of the love between me and Tika. Then why do you hate me so much?" agam said softly, Arkan shook his head weakly.

"There is no hatred in my heart for you. The disappointment I felt for the past twelve years. Fulfilling my whole heart, there's no place for another hate!" arkan said coldly, then he drank the tea he ordered. Arkan never knew Agam. He seemed to not care about the words of Agam who expected his affection.

"I'm sorry papa, you have to separate because papa. But even if you're guilty, there's no apology or chance to fix it!" agam said, Arkan silently did not answer.

The opportunity that Agam had requested had long since disappeared. Ignore the weak attitude and worry Agam. Although Arkan never knew the real reason for the separation of his parents. But yesterday saw the togetherness of Agam and Zalwa. A little answered Arkan's curiosity.

Without asking Arkan began to realize, how heavy the inner burden that Tika was bearing. He suppressed the jealousy. Turned it into a smile all his life. Arkan could never blame Agam. But justifying the attitude of Agam. Not something true according to his deepest heart.

Arkan looked up while resuscitating his body. The sky looks blue without clouds. Clean and beautiful without flaws. It was inversely proportional to his life. Long Arkan defied the sky, a second later Arkan closed his eyes. He remembered the words of Tika, when Arkan came to this city. A message that cuts his deepest heart.

FLASHBACKS

"Mom, in two weeks Arkan will be in the biggest hospital of my hometown. My guidance counselor suggested that I intern there. If not wrong, it will be Bayu who will be my guidance doctor!" arkan said softly, Tika silently looked at the son.

Arkan sleeps in Tika's lap. Tika gently caressed Arkan's head. No sound was heard. Only Tika and Arkan's breaths were clearly heard. Arkan closed his eyes feeling the gentle caress of the mother. Maybe Arkan is already big, but in front of Tika he's always been a kid. Arkan is always thirsty for Tika's warm embrace.

"I'm not leaving, tomorrow morning I'll tell my lecturer!" arkan said final, Tika smiled at Arkan's words. The decision that seemed to represent Tika's silence.

Tika gently rubbed Arkan's head. Tika massaged Arkan's head slowly which was filled with pressure. All this time Tika always followed Arkan's decision. Tika never sued Arkan. Arkan always decides things for Tika. Arkan never wanted to hurt Tika. Only Tika's happiness is the reason Arkan lives today.

"Since when did Mom forbid you or disagree with you? Decide what is best for you. Mama believes you can choose the best among the good. Do whatever you can do. Do not force anything beyond your ability. Is there a limit to where you give up and give up? It's not that we're losing or afraid to fight!" tika said wisely, Arkan looked up at Tika.

The calm face was clearly seen by Arkan. A mother's mature attitude created for the sake of the child. Tika's pain is always saved. So that the tears of the son do not drip. A smile that always strikes even though his heart screams in pain. Looking at Tika's face, Arkan felt peaceful and calm. Challenging the winding life in front of him. Without complaining, life will be broken. Tika everything in life Arkan. Arkan's spirit and purpose is in Tika's life.

"Silence does not forbid you or disagree. Go where you gotta go? But the place you're going to, the place where our past is stored? Your father and Hanna will be there. Have you met them? Can you forget all your pain? So that no grudge is stored in your heart for your papa!" tika said softly, Arkan shook his head weakly.

"The fear that my mom has been in all this time. Not afraid of losing or being away from you. But your hatred for your father and his family made you afraid not to know you. If you can forgive your father, go there. Take care of your sister and papa, mama will be fine here!" tika said softly, Arkan shook weakly.

"I wouldn't go without my mom. I'll have the lecturer find another doctor. I'm not going to leave my mom!" arkan said, Tika silently looked at the face of the son.

"Arkan, mama came to this country. To get away from the past. Run away from the choices you can never choose. Mama could not go back to that place. Too many tears are held. Trust me, you will not be lonely. You have accompanied my mother enough. It's time you became a good boy to your father and brother to your sister Hanna. Mama will pray for your success!" tika said, Arkan was silent.

Tika's words hurt in her heart. Arkan seemed to have lost his rights as Tika's son. Tika insists on asking Arkan to leave. Without feeling Arkan will be hurt by Tika's decision. In Arkan's heart. Hoping that Tika forbid him to go and stay with her.

"Arkan won't go!"

"But you have to go, papa and Hanna need you. Mama will catch up with you when everything is ready. One more thing, don't ever tell yourself. As long as you can't forget all the pain. Be their family when your anger is not there. They are not wrong, what do you feel? No other path is written for my mother. Form of love Allah SWT on mom. To make my mother a grateful person!" tika said firmly.

FLASH BACK OFF

"I have no right to give you an apology or a chance. I'm not the one crying, because of your attitude. I'm not the one who's hurt, because of your concern. Mama's the one who has the right to forgive you. His life was ruined because of papa's concern. There is no love in my mother's life. Since his love for me, Papa betrayed. What chance did you ask? While here papa lives under one roof with him!" arkan.

"Who?" sahut Agam did not understand, Arkan smiled cynically. Seeing Agam who never felt wrong with his attitude.

"Tante Zalwa, isn't he the one who's always by your side. Although she's not your legal wife, she's a shadow in your life. He who will always be there will be my obstacle close to you. Mama once asked me, I can't blame you or hate you. Just mama's telling me I can't be your family. As long as there is anger in my heart and until this moment I am disappointed in you!" arkan said coldly, then left before Agam.

"Guil!" call Agam lirih, Arkan keeps walking away. Without looking at Agam.

"I'm sorry, I can't get close to you. If it were my mother's tears I would see. Papa has Hanna and your extended family, even aunt Zalwa is beside you. While my mother only has me, without any family and life support. Mama will keep her wounds as close as possible. Won't he tell anyone? Would you rather cry alone without anyone? And I'll never let that happen. I'll stay by his side. My hand wiped my tears away all this time and forever. My shoulders are the back of his wrath. I will never stay away even if my mom asks for it. I'm sure papa will be fine!" arkan's mind as he continued walking away.