Devotion of Love

My pregnancy

Dark nights look beautiful with stars. The full moon is perfectly visible with its shape and light. The depth of the night was not felt, swept away by the bright moonlight.

I was standing on the balcony of my bedroom. I see the sky so bright, as bright as my heart tonight. Without feeling my marriage with mas Agam, entering the second year. Quarrels that have occurred, teach us the meaning of loyalty and constancy. We learned to respect each other.

Unbeknownst to Mr. Agam, I went to the obstetrician this morning. I checked my uterus. I intentionally left without telling her. Because since that incident, mas Agam is a little sensitive when it comes to children's problems.

Everything is arranged, everything is written without us being able to avoid. Only HE the owner of life knows. What is best for each of His faithful servants?

Sometimes what do we expect?, not the best for us. What do we need?, not what we expect. All become DIVINE secrets. Like this morning, I came to the hospital. Just want to know my condition. But without my guessing, I heard something that I had long wanted to hear.

FLASHBACKS

"Good morning, Miss Tika!" greet doctor Fia, I nodded with a smile. Fia is an obstetrician who has been doing treatment for me. He's a friend of Dr. Rizal's. I know him thanks to the help of doctor Rizal.

"For Doctor Fia, sorry to interrupt your time! I want to ask about the health condition of the womb. Is there a problem with my uterus?"

"Mrs Tika, there is good news as well as bad news for you. You should have come with your husband. So I can explain to you both!" doctor Fia was friendly.

"Please explain it to me. Let me explain myself to my husband!" tika flat. Tika came here without Agam's knowledge. So it was impossible for Tika to ask Agam to accompany her.

"Well, if that's what you say! I'll explain the good news and the bad news!" doctor Fia said.

"Please doctor, I will sincerely listen to the good or bad news!"

" The good news is that you are currently pregnant with two twins. While the bad news, the condition of your fetus is currently very weak. Especially your content is a little problematic!"

"What does Doctor Fia mean? Say it clearly, so that I can understand!"

"Your fetus is weak, but it can still survive as long as you are not stressed. But the condition of your content is a little problematic. You have to abort this pregnancy. If you force it to defend. Maybe when they'll be born, we.must choose you or your two babies!" doctor Fia lirih. I bowed listlessly to hear the words of Doctor Fia. The pregnancy I've been waiting for, as the most beautiful gift of my wedding year. In fact, it will be my way of separation with mas Agam.

"Doctor Fia, if I keep this fetus. Will they be okay? . At least until they are truly ready to be born. Will they be born imperfect!" I looked up, doctor Fia shook her head with a smile.

"Mrs Tika, if your fetus survives until birth. They will be healthy and perfect. But that means you have to be ready to choose them or you. For that I suggest, cancel your pregnancy now. Before your fetus gets bigger, that will eventually put your health at risk!" again, I nodded weakly. I looked at the two beautiful eyeballs of Doctor Fia. The gaze of a doctor who does not want to lose his patient.

"I'm sorry, doctor, if I have to disappoint you. I will never drop my bones. They both deserve to see the world. As a mother, there will never be any discouragement for the baby. Although we have to sacrifice life. Until whenever I'll defend them? The trust placed in this weak womb. I will take care of it at all costs. I will never see them born. But I'm sure, they will remember me as the mother who gave birth to them." I said softly, doctor Fia nodded slowly. He smiled as he looked at me. Doctor Fia appreciates the determination of my decision.

"Alright lady Tika, we will fight together for their sake. I will be in all your pain. I will find a way, so that they are born without losing you. The mother who conceived them, who would raise them as well. As a doctor, I speak and think scientifically. But as a believer. I'm sure that road still exists. We'll try together." he said, I nodded.

"Doctor Fia, for the sake of our friendship. Don't tell my husband anything about my condition! Let it be later, I'll say it myself!" I said, doctor Fia nodded.

"Thank you, then I'll go home!" pamittu.

"Don't call me madam, call me Tika. Sounds more familiar!"

"When, there's a drug you have to redeem. It's for your fetal booster!" sally, I nodded. Doctor Fia gave me the prescription paper.

"Thank you!" I said, while receiving a prescription from doctor Fia.

"If you have any complaints, call me. Don't ignore it, even if it feels a little! Your pregnancy is at high risk. Never underestimate the pain you feel. Remember that there is always someone who will support you!" sally, I nodded. I stood up leaving the doctor Fia's room. I brought a letter saying I was pregnant. The pregnancy is highly awaited by the parents of Mas Agam.

FLASH BACK OFF

I looked at the sky so brightly, the right time told me the good news. Tonight I'll tell Mas Agam the news of my pregnancy. Great gift for my husband.

"Darling, what are you doing outside these nights? The night air is not good for your health!" her broom, her hands hugged me tightly. I leaned my head against the chest of his field. As if I wanted to give up all my thoughts today.

"Mas Agam, the gymnastics I could never get pregnant! Will I regret marrying me!"

"There was no word of regret in my decision. I'm not asking you to have any offspring. The religious perfection I want to achieve with you. You are the mother I choose, the wife who is able to maintain the honor of the husband. It is not only the wife who has to bear a child. There are no descendants of our trials as servants of faith. Will we move away or get closer to Him. Surrender and rely on his will." said mas Agam.

"What makes you love me so much and trust me? I'm just an ordinary woman with a myriad of weaknesses. I deserve your sincerity!"

"Darling, my heart chose you from the moment we first met. Your faith chose to live with this old man. Your evidence appreciates me, not because of the face, age, or, the treasure I have. You choose me by faith, I choose you by faith. There is no perfect foundation of a relationship other than faith!"

"Thank you for choosing me as your master!"

"Sweetie, there's no thank you in our relationship. I'm there for you, I'm not because of you!"

"Mas Agam, there's something I want to show you!" I said, as I handed over a piece of paper to Mas Agam. I saw him smiling and surprised.

"Darling, you're pregnant!" she was happy, I nodded slowly.

"Thank you" she said, then hugged me tightly. This is all I can give to Mas Agam.

"May you not blame me. If only you knew the truth! I will give birth to them, at any risk! Our hearts will always remind you of the sacredness of our love. They will be born as proof of my sincerity!" my mind while hugging Mas Agam. I won't let this happiness and Agam's smile disappear.

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