Devotion of Love

Take Me Gone

"Sister!"

"Hmmm!" Sahut Hanna relax. Qaila walked slowly towards Hanna who was standing in a daze on the second floor balcony of her house.

Hanna looked up at the bright sky. The moonlight looks bright. The full moon clearly revealed its beauty and majesty. A light that cannot be compared to any other. Real beautiful full of wonders. The sky seemed to light up Hanna's heart. Calms the restless soul of a mother. Deprecate a speck of the grace of Allah SWT that never lies. As if to tell Hanna. In the dark of the night will come the moon that lights it. As hot as the sun, sometimes the wind blows say hello. As cold as the morning dew, the sun is present to warm. An alloy created with a priceless and unreasonable meaning.

"Can we talk!"

"Aren't we talking!" Sahut Hanna without looking at Qaila.

Qaila was standing right beside Hanna. Staring at the same sky with her sister Hanna. The woman who was now clearly a barrier to her was united with Hafidz. Although from the first day Hanna never obstructed or demanded anything. Hanna silently accepted everything that happened. Hanna who lives without memory, as if to remain silent. Let the creator's gold ink. Writing in his plain canvas of life. Hanna won't sue or ask. Hanna realized, there was too much she got. It was time for Hanna to realize the meaning of sacrifice. More precisely sacrificing, what did he ever have?

"Why did you choose to give up? Brother gives up on halal relations. For the sake of an uncertain and certainly inappropriate relationship!"

"I never give up or give up. I lost that right three years ago. The happiness I have felt before. It's more than enough and I don't deserve it. Sometimes people realize that time is no longer the same. Everything has changed and is no longer the same. Trying sincerely is better, than being firm in an unbound ego!"

"But brother is far more entitled than me!"

"Nobody has more right to the sky, neither the stars nor the moon. Look to the sky with the eyes of your heart. You will see the meaning so deeply!"

"Why did you switch the conversation? I don't want Hafidz to hate me just because of your decision. We agreed to compete fairly. So that Hafidz may have his happiness, either with me or with you?"

"The sky is like that of Hafidz who protects your love and mine. The sky has stars and the moon. Stars that glow dim, but number a lot. Didn't touch the moon so big and bright. Both adorn the sky with their light. Both illuminate the sky, warming the cold and dark of the night with light. Your love and my love are like the stars and the moon. Nothing is bigger or smaller. Nothing is brighter or dimmer. Both are in the heart of Hafidz with different portions and ways. So reach your happiness, if it is with Brother Hafidz!"

"That's why my brother gave up on me!" Qaila said casually, Hanna shook her head without even turning to Qaila.

"There is no need for me to give in, if that love is for you. The reason love is for you. It's different from his love for me!"

"Is all this for Brother Hafidz!"

"Well, if I don't remember anything. It's so unfair, when I feel that love but deny it!" Sahut Hanna relaxed without the slightest burden.

"Talking to you won't calm me down. Later if Brother Hafidz really belongs to me. I hope you remember what you said today. Don't ever think of being a thorn in my relationship!"

"I'll never snatch my son's smile!"

"Davin!"

"Qaila, I'm silent about everything that's happened. Not for the sake of wanting to see your love unite with brother Hafidz. Except for my son's smile that only exists when you're with him!" Hanna said, again and again Qaila was pensive to hear Hanna's words. Not understanding Hanna's determination. It was painful for Hanna, but it did not seem to disturb Hanna's peace of heart.

"I really don't know you!" Sahut Qaila cynical.

"Since you were born and lived one roof with me. When did you and I get to know each other? We always live on the same path, but opposite sides. You always chase my steps, instead I always run and cross on the other side. So nothing will make you understand me!"

"As for big brother, I hope you don't regret this cold attitude!" Qaila said the final, then walked away.

Hanna did not turn her head, her gaze focused on the bright sky. Hanna seeks a calmness that is now very far from her heart and soul. Since Hanna learned of her relationship with Hafidz. His calm began to be piqued, restless one word that haunted his heart. Although Hanna always tried to be calm and happy.

"O Allah, the sky is so bright and beautiful. You created a beauty that seemed to heal the wounds of my heart. O Lord, if I may ask. Allow me to remember a piece of memory that you have taken from my mind. At least allow once, this heart realizes the love that once existed. If this love is no longer worthy. Please remove all vibrations that are now disturbing the heart. Keep away the word jealousy that now fills this empty soul. I hope no more, for You know best for me. Even though that's not what I expected!" Hanna's mind is full of meaning.

"Pretend not to hear, when the ears are open. Trying not to see, when the eyes are awake. Be calm, but the mind and soul are restless. It's not an easy thing for you to do Hanna!"

"Sir Aura!" Sapa Hanna shortly after hearing the voice.

"I overheard your conversation with Qaila. Your maturity is just camouflage that wants to cover the turmoil of your heart. There is no calm in your life. As calm as you are when you talk to Qaila!"

"What does brother mean?"

"This call I've always missed from you. It felt warm touching my lonely and cold heart. You're not my real sister, but you're the only one who keeps me in this house!"

"So, you know, I don't understand what you mean?" Hanna said not understanding, although actually Hanna slightly understood the direction of Aura's conversation.

"You're not okay Hanna. Especially when your whole mind is focused on them. What is happening under you right now? Not something you easily ignore. Jealousy, maybe that's what you're feeling right now!" Aura said while looking down.

More precisely towards the front yard of the magnificent house of Agam. Several people were gathering, one of them Hafidz and Davin. Only Hanna was standing looking up at the sky. Shifting his gaze to the warmth of Hafidz and Davin equipped with Qaila. Shortly after speaking with Hanna, Qaila came down to Hafidz and Davin.

Agam and Tika were also in the same place. Arkan wasn't there, he was busy with some files. Aura was about to approach Arkan, but stopped when she saw Hanna standing alone. Aura approached Hanna. Offering the shoulder Hanna might need. The one who once offered him a warm hug. When his life is fragile without a handle.

"I'm fine!"

"You ruined Hanna, you were jealous to see their warmth. Laughter that sounds loud in your ears. Nothing more than a relentless incision of the knife. Until when are you able to survive? You deserve to be happy Hanna!"

"I'm happy!"

"Lied!" Sahut Aura firmly.

"I'm happy as long as you have a family that supports me!"

"If you're happy, why do you feel lonely when you're with us? But be calm when you are alone!"

"Including seeing the warmth of the family you're ignoring!" Lecar Aura, Hanna lowered her head while closing her two beautiful eyes.

Hanna gripped the balcony barrier. Hanna tried to calm down a completely messed up heart. No one can see Hanna's broken. But tonight Aura easily noticed it. Hanna's hand grip was really strong. Aura saw clearly how Hanna was trying to cover up her destruction.

"I'm happy to see them happy!" Hanna without opening her eyes.

"Why should you lie? If you can be honest, make your heart calm!" Aura said calmly, her hand tightly grasping Hanna's cold, trembling hand.

"I never want to lie, but this is the path I have to go!"

"Hanna!" Sapa Aura wailed, when she saw Hanna's body tremble.

"I have no right to them!"

"Who said? You're still Hafidz's legal wife. Davin is forever your son!" Aura said firmly, Hanna shook her head weakly.

Slowly opening her eyes, Hanna no longer looked up at the sky. Hanna sees the warmth of the little family she left behind. Laughter and jokes that sound so sweet. As if to tell the world. They're a whole family that will never be separated.

"Hanna!" Sapa Aura while patting Hanna's shoulder slowly.

Hanna did not flinch at all, her gaze fixed towards Hafidz and Davin. The presence of Qaila clearly adds to their happiness. Family and happiness that Hanna no longer deserves. Everything goes without him. Much happier and more loving with no memory of him.

"The happiness that exists without me. Definitely no longer mine. I have no right to take something that is not mine. Let me forget, as long as it can make them happy!"

"But you are broken!"

"Brother is right, I'm broken and sick. But it will hurt a lot more when I see their tears. I can hold on, as long as they are happy. Stupid, I'm stupid. But it would be more stupid, if I sacrificed Davin's smile which was still very small!"

"But!"

"Nothing but brother. I did give birth to Davin, but Qaila raised him. I'm a mother who has lost her son!"

"Hanna!"

"Sir Arkan!" Hanna said, when Arkan's hand touched his shoulder.

As Hanna turned her head, Hanna hugged her older sister Arkan tightly. Hanna cries in Arkan's arms. Arkan's hand gently caressed Hanna's head. Aura gently stroked Hanna's trembling back. Hanna's cry was silent, as if not only on her lips but deep in her heart. Arkan clutches Hanna tightly, letting Hanna's tears wet her blue shirt.

"Cry, if it calms you down!" Arkan said, Hanna was silent. Hanna drowned her head deep in Arkan's arms. I hope his voice is not heard by anyone else.

"Sister!"

"Hmmm!" Arkan Sahut, Hanna looked up.

"Take me away, keep me away from their happiness. Without memory I felt extreme pain. Especially when I remember all the memories with him. I'm afraid I can't hold on. It hurts, it hurts!" Hanna said in her tears.

The aura instantly rested on Arkan's arm. Her hand gently caressed Hanna's head. Hanna's moaning cut her heart. His body was instantly weak, no longer able to stand looking at Hanna's tears. Arkan is silent, confused by Hanna's unreasonable request.

"Where are we going?"

"Take me as far as big brother goes. My brother once left me alone. At least now let me be with brother. I'm scared myself in this pain. I don't need luxury, but I need you and your arms. Protect me brother, I'm alone!" Hanna lirih.

"Mama!"

"There is still papa and Qaila, while I live alone with no memory!" Complaining Hanna, Aura kept silent. No words could calm his heart.

"Darling, are you ready to go?" Said Arkan to Aura.

"Wherever brother? As long as it's with you!" Aura said firmly.

Arkan pulled Hanna's body, staring fixedly at her little sister's fragile. Lovingly, Arkan wiped away Hanna's tears. As if to calm Hanna's broken heart.

"We go, we go. Brother will take care of you. Brother won't let you cry. Forever brother is with you, you won't be alone!" Arkan said firmly, Hanna nodded then hugged Arkan tightly.

"Sister, where are we going!"

"To where Hanna feels calm!"

"Mama and papa!" Aura.

"I will face them. We'll take Hanna away, she's my responsibility. She's my sister forever!"

"Whatever your decision is, I'll come with you. Hanna won't be alone, we're there for her!" Said Aura warmly, Arkan nodded then peeked at the top of Aura's head. Hanna did not flinch at the warmth of Arkan and Aura. Hanna just needs Arkan's warm cuddle.

"Thank you!" Arkan.

"What happened above? Why does my heart feel pain? What are they doing? What happened to Hanna?" Inner Hafidz was agitated, as he looked up at Hanna who was being hugged by Arkan.