Devotion of Love

Love is the Voice of the Heart

"Drink mama!" arkan said politely, Tika nodded slowly. Arkan offered Tika a drink. With an eye gesture, Tika asks Arkan to put it on the table.

Arkan sees Tika back injured. Although no tears were shed. Arkan could hear the sound of Tika's heart crying. The silence Tika showed. It was more than enough to answer Tika's heart agitation. Since long ago until now, no one can understand the fragility of Tika's heart. Serenity as if Tika could never feel.

Arkan approached Tika, then placed his head on Tika's lap. The spoiled attitude that Arkan always does. When Tika cried in silence. All Arkan did was for Tika to forget the hurt he felt.

"Why did my mom hold on to that pain? He doesn't deserve your loyalty. A man who cannot make decisions. He would never walk straight in his life. Blaming and complaining, two things he would easily do. Because in his mind, he is the one who is hurt and others who hurt him. A selfish and arrogant attitude that will never be seen. Because it's kept tight in defense of its pain!" arkan said firmly without hesitation.

Tika rubbed Arkan's head, stroking Arkan's jet-black hair musk. He looked at the son who grew up disappointed in Agam. Arkan grew up ever since he saw the pain Tika was going through. It is natural that Arkan always blames Agam. In his memory, Arkan had never seen Agam's assertiveness. Only silence and resignation are always shown by Agam.

"An answer you will know someday. When a woman occupies your heart. My mom and dad's relationship will never improve. But it is undeniable, papa is the only man who has ever knocked on my heart. Mama's loyalty all along, not for your papa. But all papa did, just for the sake of you two. You don't want to be selfish by looking for another love. Enough of you getting hurt seeing our farewell. Mama won't let you get hurt again. By seeing you happy, but not with papa!" tika said softly, Arkan looked up at Tika.

Arkan was unable to keep up with Tika's calm. Adult attitude that is always there in the speech said Tika. Able to give understanding that Arkan never got from the weak attitude of Agam. Tika's way of thinking that can never be guessed. Makes Arkan hard to understand Tika's pain.

"I won't let anyone fill my heart? Only my mother is in Arkan's heart. I don't want to make my mom go out. Although I will always choose my mother, but I do not want to be in a position to choose. I am happy with my mom and will always be happy to see her smile!" arkan said firmly, Tika shook her head in disagreement.

Tika looked at Arkan's handsome face. Such a big resemblance to Agam looks real. The face that always makes Tika remember her love for Agam. The man who made her dare to marry at a young age. But the path of destiny says something else. The test that should strengthen their love. Easily set them apart.

"It's not appropriate that you behave like that. The nature of the heart feels love, a feeling we can never reason or bargain for. There will be a woman who will fill your heart. He will be your strong and weak. My mother will never be out or compete with him. For he will take care of you and be your happy cause!" said Tika.

"I don't want to hurt anyone? Enough I saw mama, the woman who was knocked out. Just because of your weak attitude and your family's doubts about your sincerity!" arkan said firmly, Tika smiled hearing Arkan's words. Now little by little Arkan will understand the position of Agam.

"That dilemma has been in your father's heart all along. He doesn't want to hurt anyone? There are many hearts that are hurt. Understand the state of your father, so that you understand his feelings!"

"Mama goes, not gets angry or runs away from trouble. Mama went to make your father strong and brave. Look who your father is now? He was chasing after a treasure that distinguished himself from mama. I hope that when you come back, we will be united with the same status. Your father proved it to his parents. He was able to achieve the same status and degree as my mother. But one thing that cannot be returned. Mama's love for him, now turned into a sense of caring no more!" tika said, Arkan nodded.

"A always late attitude. Papa is always worried when he has to choose, but when he chooses everything is meaningless. Papa will never grow up. He will always lose and always be afraid to step up. Maybe I'll be in the same position as Papa. But one thing is different between us. I won't accomplish two things, if one isn't necessarily me!" arkan said relax.

"Just like your race to Vahira and Aura. You can't get both of them, so you let go of them!" tika said softly, Arkan suddenly woke up from his sleep.

"How far did you know about the problem? Did Vahira say anything? He told my mom everything!" arkan said in a panic, Tika shook her head weakly.

There was the sound of Arkan's breathing. It was like a heavy burden lifted. Tika chuckles at the panic of Arkan. For a moment Tika saw Arkan's childish attitude. Arkan has always been mature. Arkan saved all the trouble he was thinking about. So that Tika does not worry about thinking about Arkan's problem.

"Vahira didn't say anything to mama? Your gaze was on Aura who said everything to mama!" tika said, Arkan immediately lowered his head in shame.

"Thank God!" arkan said in relief as he rubbed his chest slowly.

"You shouldn't have done all that. Your race is not wrong, why should you endure it? If you love Aura, make sure your heart is your ribs. You deserve to be happy and choose your best master. But if choosing feels heavy to you. Then your decision is right, dodge before it's too late!" tika slowly.

"Just like your dad has to choose. You also have to dare to choose. Don't be afraid your mom will be disappointed. Whom did you choose? Mama will support him, won't mama prevent your happiness!" tika said again, Arkan shook his head weakly.

"Nothing is more important now than my mom. Whether Vahira or Aura, none of them I want to have. They deserve better than me. Their future is not with a man like me!" arkan.

"I'm sorry that mom made you feel inferior in front of Vahira and Aura. But one thing you have to believe. Treasures and positions will be lost by the sacredness of love. As long as you are sure, that the feeling is sincere regardless of differences!" said Tika.

"I'm afraid of hurting women. Love makes a woman happy, not a woman's heart cry. I still don't feel worthy to be a priest. In my heart there is still anger and disappointment. An unclean heart cannot love sincerely!" arkan.

"Whatever you choose, your mom will always cover you up!" sahut Tika firmly while patting Arkan's hand gently.

"Thank you!" arkan.

"Wait for Arkan, since when did you know Aura? As you remember, you never knew or met!" tika was confused.

"As my mother said, love is from the heart. I don't need to know his face. Because my heart knows him!" arkan said firmly, then stood up leaving Tika smiling.

"You look like Agam, warm and full of love. An attitude that I can never forget from the Agam!" tika lirih said inaudible. Tika looked at Arkan's back which was getting further away.