Devotion of Love

Hardhearted Tika

The day the moon changed, time spun so fast. Without feeling a month more Tika lived in her parents' house. Once or twice Agam came to meet Hanif and Hana. Both the fruit of the heart bind Agam and Tika. Both Dimas and Nissa never prevented Agam from meeting his two children. It's just that, every time Agam comes. Tika never met Agam. It was as if Tika no longer wanted to know Agam. Tika was too afraid to see Agam, a figure who was so weak and would not be able to firmly decide.

Almost a month Tika waited for Agam's decision, but Agam seemed unable to decide. Too comfortable with the current situation. Instead Tika begins to feel uncomfortable living together with her parents. As a married princess. It is not appropriate for Tika to live with her parents. But his status is not entirely certain. It was impossible for Tika to live alone with the status of Agam's wife.

Rayhan still occasionally comes to see Tika. He and Tika have a partnership already in place. Whenever she meets Rayhan, Tika always asks Nissa or Dimas to accompany her. Tika still values Agam as her husband. He never wanted to betray Agam, but returned with Agam. Tika still has to learn and has a very broad heart.

"When Agam wants to talk to you! Hana and Hanif are asleep. He's waiting for you in the front garden!" said Nissa, Tika was silent daydreaming. There is doubt Tika is meeting Agam. After a month he never met Agam. Not that Tika was afraid of falling in love or getting angry at Agam. Why does Tika feel awkward when she sees Agam?

Nissa saw clearly Tika's doubt, Tika's two eyeballs as if to say an unspoken uneasiness. Tika seemed afraid to meet people who had accompanied her all this time. Nissa slowly approached Tika. He touched Tika's shoulder. Tika looked at Nissa. There was clearly fear and doubt on Tika's face.

"Mother!" tika said softly, Nissa looked at Tika's face. His little daughter who would never become an adult in front of him. Tika the little girl who made him attached to Dimas Putra Anggara. Gently Nissa hugged Tika's body. Keep her warm, loving. Nissa rubbed Tika's back, hoping Tika could calm down for a moment. Nissa gently kissed Tika's head which was veiled. Long as the two hugged, Nissa's warmth slightly made Tika calm down.

Nissa once thought, How unlucky Tika is. He was born into a rich family, but poor in love. From childhood, I only got love from my father. The departure of her biological mother, leaving a very sick pain. Now when she became a mother. Tika must fight to maintain her marriage for the sake of the baby. Or give up and give up, because the pain will never end.

"Dear dear, you can't feel the pain you feel right now. You can't wipe your tears either. Mother can't be as firm as you. Within your limitations, there is an infinite love for you. The affection of parents for their daughters will not stop. Even though the princess is married. But it is not the right of parents to interfere with the decision of the child. Whatever your decision, you're behind you. Mother is ready to sustain your sorrows. Now meet Agam, tell me what to say? So that there will be no more doubt in your heart!" nissa said softly, Tika nodded in Nissa's arms. Tika picked up the veil, after wearing it Tika walked out of her room. With mixed feelings, Tika walked towards the front garden of her house.

Tika stopped for a moment, when she saw Agam sitting in the gazebo in front of her house. Tika stared fixedly at the face that was slowly beginning to disappear from her heart and memory. Tika is no longer a woman who seeks the love and warmth of men. His life is now only for the sake of the baby. Hana and Hanif the spirit of his life and breath. Tika continued to walk closer to Agam. Tika looked up into the sky. The moon is shining brightly. The clear sky is not covered by clouds. Small stars add to the beauty of the night.

"Mas Agam, why should we talk here? We can talk inside!" said Tika firmly, Agam looked up to look at Tika the wife he missed. Something changed from Tika. There is no more beautiful face of Tika. All covered by the veil she was wearing. It was exactly the night that Tika came out of Agam's house. The same night Tika changed herself. He covered his entire face and body. Only the lawful mukhrim saw his face.

"Since when?" agam said softly, Tika silently looked at Agam. Appearance Agam looks shabby and unkempt. Maybe the burden of thought that makes Agam stress. Tika has never met Agam. Although Agam came to see their children. So only tonight did Tika see the real condition of Agam. Tika feels sorry to see the condition of Agam, but Tika can not do anything?

"Since the night I left your house? If I was a good wife, I couldn't. At least I can still be a good woman. I don't want my face to be a slander in my life. Especially with my current status!" tika said casually, she sat right in front of Agam. Then Nissa came to bring a cup of tea for both of them. Without asking much, Nissa could already see the results of the conversation.

"Why have you been avoiding me for a month? Every time I come, only the kids meet me. Is that how you hate me? Is there no apology for me?" agam said, Tika shook her head weakly. Tika took a long breath. Tika's anxiety is becoming more and more. Seeing the messy appearance of Agam. Now see Agam snubbing at him. Without bringing the decision that Tika had been waiting for all this time.

"A month I think is enough for you to decide. I'm just a mum waiting for the priest's decision. Where will the steps of life go? It's not me who decides, it's worth the apology. Is our path still united. I realize how hard you are right now. Devotion to parents or love of wife! Two choices that you will never make easy!" said Tika, sounding Agam sighing long. Then Tika stood staring at the moon so bright.

"Wait, which means you're asking me to let go of our marriage. Until I won't leave you? I will continue to fight for this marriage. Farewell is not the right way!" agam said, Tika smiled behind her veil.

"Instead of being united we also cannot. If the hand is no longer able to reach. Wouldn't it be better to let go. Instead of moving away from each other, they end up hurting each other. I'm sure of you, because you're the priest who led me!" tika said firmly.

"Are you sure about this farewell?"

"Nobody ever wanted to separate, but if they were united they could no longer. Why then do we have to live a marriage? Ask your heart which choice you will make. Being a bad boy to parents? Or be a husband who will never be able to protect his wife?" tika said softly, Agam stared fixedly at Tika. Tika's attitude has changed. Tika's way of thinking is much more mature and bolder.

"You're changing, Tika won't be this rough. He's not this loud, he loves me sincerely. He's not just gonna take me off. Tika won't leave me in bitterness!" agam Lirih said while shaking his head in disbelief.

"Tika still loves you, but love based on faith. It's not just the desire to be together. I will not leave you, your shadow will always be seen in the faces of Hana and Hanif. I just want to earn the reward by helping my husband be devoted to his parents!" tika said, while continuing to look at the sky.

"You're mean!"

"Tonight will feel dark and silent making every creature feel afraid. But the moon came with its light. It makes for a beautiful night and brings happiness. That's what I am now, dark and silent. But I will be bright and radiant, when Hana and Hanif smile. Every time I see you coming. I saw their smiles. Every time you go, I see their cries. Decide the best course, fulfill the requests of your parents. So that both of my children have a whole family!"

"Then you, with whom will you be happy? We will be happy with you, not with anyone else!" sahut Agam, he was angry and disappointed to hear Tika's words.

"The sky will always be there, even if the moon never shines. Only different, the night remains dark or becomes bright. It's been the night I had to go in. Ponder my words, this might be the best!"

"Kartika Putri Anggara, how hard your heart is!"

"I grew up in a broken family. I just felt the love. When papa married mom. I didn't expect Hana and Hanif to be big in a family that wasn't whole.The hardness of my heart, it wasn't as painful as mine. When your parents came to bring a woman and you quietly accepted. From then on, my heart was no longer hard but dead!"