Taint

One Year Later

Day after day turns into week. Weeks turn into months and years.

Sabrina Dara Azzahra, has already had a year of rest in her last bed. I miss, of course, but I've done it all. Maybe this is the best destiny. I believe God will not take something without replacing it with something more special. Even in this case, I remain confident in the love of God even though until this moment His grace has not grown in my womb.

In taking Dara, I need a lot of time and support. So far, Darren has been the most important. Every time he calms me with his beautiful words. Hugging me warmly, then inviting me to string hope for the future.

In his hand, I found the laughter that had once faded, I found the happy that had once vanished. However, for the umpteenth time happy it did not last long. I don't know what happened, in these two months Kak Darren's attitude changed.

At first, I thought I was sensitive. However, the more days the change in attitude is more clearly seen. He who used to be very patient, is now easy to be emotional, especially when it comes to children. He who was always open, now as if there are many things deliberately covered. One thing that makes me often prejudiced is the cell phone. Darren never left him, even to the bathroom was brought in fear of his business partner calling. If it's true that it's just a partner, wouldn't it be okay to wait a little while? Sometimes I think, he deliberately avoids me so that I do not hear what is being said.

This morning, I was sitting on the edge of the bed staring at the tightly closed bathroom door. Brother Darren is cleaning up there and as usual the phone is brought along. Repeatedly I took a deep breath, trying to guess what he was hiding.

"Sucks." I grumbled as I grabbed a pillow. Then, I put my face down there while trying to brush off all prejudice.

"Darling, why?"

I was a little surprised when I heard Darren's voice. I don't know when it came, it was suddenly in the room. When I looked up, I found her face fresh and beautiful, very charming. However, I do not necessarily praise because there is a burden that messes with the mood.

"Darling!" Brother Darren called back, this time while putting the phone on the table.

"Why is it always carried?" ask me slowly.

"The guys sometimes don't call, honey. They're afraid they're calling me in for a shower, right__"

"You can call back, or if you don't, I'll pick up. Let them talk about the importance of what, then I just talk to Darren. It used to be, didn't it, why did it change now?" I nodded her words quickly and firmly.

"It hasn't changed, honey. Just ... later considered less professional, 'would even run into his business," replied Kak Darren.

"Unprofessional, do they see in which way? Sis, don't be weird, where there is a phone appointed by his wife and said to be less professional. It doesn't make sense!" I moved and looked at him sharply. However, he sauntered towards the closet. Not a bit returned my gaze, just looked down and chose a shirt and work pants.

"Sayang___"

"Except .. Kak Darren's partner was a woman. It's very unprofessional that I lift." Again I cut off Darren's words. This time, it managed to make him turn his head, even to the point of putting down his shirt and stepping towards me.

"What do you mean?" ask him firmly.

"You're the one who made me suspicious, brother." I threw my eyes aside, unwilling to see my eyes glazed over.

"Darling, don't judge. Don't do it, just imagine I never did. You're the only woman I love, so there's no way I'm cheating. Bringing a cell phone to the bathroom, that's a trivial matter, honey. Please do not exaggerate, let alone associate with loyalty. I have never betrayed you" Darren said at length.

"My work is growing, baby. When's the day I told you I'd try a promising new job." Darren clasped both my shoulders. "Even if we're both still together, there's no harm in thinking about the future?" it made my chest tight.

"I'm sorry, I haven't been able to give you any offspring yet." I'm down.

"Darling, i___"

"I know you're disappointed, brother. Every time you talk about something related to your child, you're always emotional" I said.

"I'm never emotional. When did I scold you?" Brother Darren's voice sounded trembling.

"Sister Darren does not scold me, but I know Big Brother is emotional. Every time we discuss that, Darren immediately silent and dodged, staring flat and exhaling rough breaths, not infrequently also slammed the stuff around. Then after that, Darren little talk for days. I am silent does not mean not to understand, Brother, but to keep the relationship so that there is no quarrel. But you are still like this. It hurts, Brother!" I reveal all the burdens that have been raging in the heart.

"Sayang___"

"I'm sorry, I can't be a perfect wife yet" I said.

"Do not misunderstand, let alone draw conclusions that are not. I'm .. I've never been disappointed with you." Brother Darren tightened his grip.

I haven't had a chance to say, suddenly Kak Darren's phone shook. He quickly stepped towards the table and grabbed his phone.

"Try lifting up in front of me if it's an ordinary fellow," I said as Kak Darren began to step up, which I believed would lead to the bathroom.

Seriate.....

How are you all brother? May be healthy and always in His protection, yes, amiin. Sorry yes, the ups are still often slippery, there is a little anu that can not be embraced.

Btw, while doing all the promotions as well huh. Can, right? Can dong, if you can't cry in my corner.

I have a new work up in this app as well, the title is 'Strue Soul'. The story of Vander Hanz and Hafizah Humairah. Vander was a freedom-worshiping man who knew no sin and religious teachings, while Hafizah was a veiled woman who always obeyed her religion.

Two very different people, how can we relate a story? Yukk, peek at the answer in the novel 'Redged Soul'.

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